Osho - Weekly Meditation For The Here And Now
Weekly Meditation - Week 36. Reflection
September 2
Reflection
It is a good sign, a good indication, when you have started reflecting about yourself - about what you have done, why you have done it.
When one starts inquiring into one's acts, commitments, directions, and goals, great confusion arises. To avoid that confusion, many people never think about what they are doing; they simply go on doing. From one thing to another they simply go on jumping, so there is no time left. Tired, they fall asleep; early in the morning they start chasing shadows again. That process goes on and on, and one day they die without knowing who they were, what they were doing, and why.
Now you will be hesitating about everything. It is the beginning of wisdom. Only stupid people never hesitate. Just see that this is one of the gifts of being a seeker. Many more gifts are on the way.
September 3
Restlessness
The human being is created by nature for almost eight hours' hard work.
By and by, as civilization has progressed and technology has taken over much of human labor, we don't have anything that requires hard work, and that has become a problem. In the past, people suffered because they didn't have enough energy to cope. Now we are suffering from more energy than can be used. That can become restlessness, neurosis, madness. If energy is there and not used rightly it goes sour, becomes bitter. We create energy every day, and it has to be used every day. You cannot accumulate it; you cannot be a miser about it. In the past, people were working hard as hunters and farmers.
By and by that kind of work has disappeared, and societies are more affluent and have more and more energy; so restlessness is bound to be there. Hence the Americans are the most restless people in the world, and part of it is that they are the most affluent society. We should drop the idea of utility - because that is of the past.
When energy was less and work was more, utility had meaning. Now it is no longer a value. So find ways to use your energy games, jogging, running - and delight in it. Use the energy, and then you will feel very calm. That calmness will be totally different from a forced stillness. You can force yourself, you can have energy and repress it, but you are sitting on a volcano, and there is a constant trembling inside. The more energy you use, the more fresh energy will become available.
September 4
Old Habits
Old tendencies, old habits, will force into the future and into the past. The moment you remember, relax - relax in the now.
Laugh at the ridiculousness of old habits. I'm not saying to fight with them. If you fight you will create anxiety. I am saying simply to laugh. Whenever you catch yourself red - handed - again in the future and again in the past - just slip out of it, as a snake slips out of its old skin. There is no need to fight. Fight never solves anything. It can create more complexities. Just understand it. Tomorrow will take its own course. When it comes, you will be there to face it. And it never comes as tomorrow; it always comes as today. So learn to be here now.
September 5
Address Change
The morning is very fragile, and the new rays if the sun are not very strong, but they will be proving stronger and stronger every moment.
Nourish them, nurture them. And don't identify with the past. From this moment think of yourself as a newborn child. The night is over, and you are born to the morning. It is not going to be easy, because the hold of the past is deep. The morning is very fragile, and the new rays of the sun are not very strong, but they will be proving stronger and stronger every moment. Nourish them, nurture them. And don't identify with the past. If any old habit comes by, simply watch it. Remain aloof as if it belongs to somebody else, as if the postman has delivered a letter to the wrong house. It is not addressed to you, so you return it to, the post office.
The mind will go on believing just because of the old habit, because the mind will take time to know that the address is changed. The mind moves very slowly; then the unconscious moves even more slowly. The body is very lethargic. They have different time systems.
September 6
Brokenhearted
Heartache is good. Accept it joyously. Allow it, don't repress it.
The natural tendency of the mind is to repress anything that is painful. But by repressing it you will destroy something that was growing. The heart is meant to be broken. Its purpose is that-that it should melt into tears and disappear. The heart is to evaporate, and when the heart has evaporated, exactly in the same place where the heart was, you come to know the real heart.
This heart has to break. Once it has fallen apart, suddenly you come to know a deeper heart. Just like an onion, you peel it, and the new layer is there.
September 7
Thermostat
We have been taught never to get out of control in anything - in laughter, in crying, in love, in anger-never to go beyond the limit.
There is a limit to everything, and we have been allowed only up to the limit, and then we have to hold back. After a long conditioning it becomes almost automatic, like a thermostat. You go to a certain extent, then suddenly something happens in the unconscious. Something clicks, and you stop.
I teach how to "uncontrol," because only in uncontrol will you become free. And when the energy is moving spontaneously with no mind behind it to manipulate, to direct, to dictate, then there is tremendous bliss.
The trees exist on a lower plane but are more blissful. And so are the animals; they exist on a lower plane but are more blissful. And the reason is that they don't know how to control. We can be more blissful than the trees and the flowers and the birds, but we have to avoid one trap, the trap of controlling ourselves.
September 8
Sex
The depth of your sex experience will decide the depth of all your experiences. If one cannot go deeply into the sexual experience, then one can never go deeper into anything else, because sex is the most fundamental, the most natural experience.
Your biology is ready for sex, you are not expected to learn anything about it. If you learn music, it is not built in; you have to learn it. If you learn poetry or painting or dancing, you have to learn it. Sex is just there-the script is already written in your biology. So if you cannot go deeply into sex-which is such a natural thing - how can you go deeply into music and how can you go deeply into dancing? If you hold yourself back in sex, you will hold yourself back in dance too. You" will not be able to go into any relationship either, because the relationship tends to become sexual. People are so afraid, and the modern mind particularly becomes afraid, because so many things have become known, and the knowledge has not helped you to go deep, it has helped to make you afraid.
Never before in humanity's history was the man afraid, but after Masters and Johnson every man is afraid of whether he will be man enough. The woman is afraid of whether she will be able to have an orgasm. If she cannot have an orgasm, it is better not to go into sex at all, because then it is very humiliating, or she has to pretend. And the man is so afraid and nervous and trembling inside about whether he will be able to prove to the woman that he is the greatest man in the world. What nonsense! Just being yourself is enough.
