Osho - Weekly Meditation For The Here And Now
Weekly Meditation - Week 47. Bondage
November 18
Bondage
You will have to take 100 percent responsibility. And whenever you accept 100 percent responsibility, you become free, and then there is no bondage in this world.
In fact, anger is a kind of bondage. I cannot be angry, because I am not in a bondage. I have not been angry with anybody for years, because I don't make anybody else responsible. I am free, so why should I be angry? If I want to be sad, it is my freedom. If I want to be happy, it is my freedom.
Freedom cannot be afraid, freedom cannot be angry. Once you know that you are your world, you have penetrated into a different kind of understanding. Then nothing else matters - all else is games and excuses.
November 19
Sabotage
Take twenty-four hours and write down everything that you can remember if how you have been sabotaging-everything in detail. Look at them from every angle, and then don't repeat them. It will become a meditation.
If you decide beforehand that you cannot do something, you will not be able to. Your decision will affect your life. If will become an autosuggestion. It will become a seed. It will sabotage your whole life. Even you cannot decide what you can and cannot do - you have to do it, you have to see for yourself. Only life decides. So it is simply foolish, childish, to decide beforehand - but many childish things continue. The tape keeps playing itself, and if you play it too much, it becomes habitual.
It is a trick of the mind to avoid. Once you decide that you cannot make it, then why bother? Why struggle? Why so much conflict, effort? You know already that you cannot make it. It is the mind that is finding a rationalization so that you can avoid struggle. And of course, if you avoid effort, you will not make it, so you fall back on your decision.
You say it was right, it was always right; you knew it beforehand. These are self-perpetuating things in the mind. They fulfill themselves, and the circle goes on moving, the wheel goes on moving.
November 20
Depth
A single moment can become eternity, because it is not a question if length but if depth, This bas to be understood: Time is length, meditation is depth.
Time is length: one moment following another moment following another moment. It is a row, a line, a linear process-but one moves horizontally on the same plane. Tick... tick... moments pass... but the plane remains the same.
In moments of depth suddenly you slip down, or if you allow me to use other words, you slip up. Both are the same, but you are no longer horizontal - you become vertical. You make a turn, and suddenly you are slipping out of the linear process. One becomes afraid, because mind exists only on the horizontal plane. The mind becomes scared. Where are you going?
It looks like death. It looks like madness. Only two interpretations are possible for the mind: Either you are going mad, or you are dying. Both scenarios are scary, and in a way, both are true. You are dying to the mind-so your interpretation is right-and you are dying to the ego. And in a certain way you are going mad, because you are moving beyond the mind, which monopolizes all sanity, which thinks that only that which is within the mind is sane, and that which is beyond it is insane. You are crossing the boundary, you are crossing the danger line, and who knows?-once you have crossed the line you may not come back.
But when you slip beyond the horizontal line, there is eternity; time disappears. One moment can be equal to eternity, as if time stops. The whole movement of existence stops because motivation stops.
November 21
No
No is like a rock on the fountain; the spring is being crushed by it, and that spring is you. With no you remain crippled and paralyzed.
Go on hammering on the rock of no, and one day the rock will give way, and when it does, then the yes, the authentic yes, will arise. So I am not saying to pretend yes, or to say yes when it is not coming to you. If it is not coming to you, there is nothing to worry about. Go on hammering on the rock.
Don't accept the no, because one cannot live in a no. You cannot eat no food, you cannot drink no water. Nobody can live in no - you can only suffer and create more and more miseries. No is hell. Only yes brings heaven close, and when there arises a real yes out of your total being, nothing remains behind. In that yes you become one, and your whole energy moves upward and says yes, yes, yes!
That is the meaning of the word amen. Each prayer is to be closed with "amen"-it means yes, yes, yes. But it should come out of your very guts. It should not be a mind affair, it should not be just in the thoughts. I am not telling you to say it; I am saying to make way for it to come.
November 22
Lunatic
Everybody is a lunatic. Once you realize that you are a lunatic, sanity has started; it is already on the wing.
The moment you understand that you're a lunatic, you go beyond it; the first step toward sanity has been taken. People never realize that they are mad, and because they don't, they remain mad. Not only do they not realize it, but if you say it to them they will defend themselves. They will argue and try to tell you it is you who is mad, not they. Once you realize that you are a lunatic, sanity has started; .it is already on the wing. By the very realization that you are insane, you have dropped your madness.
November 23
Your Decision
All the love in the world can be given to you, but if you decide to be miserable, you will remain miserable. And one can be happy, tremendously happy, for no reason at all-because happiness and misery are your decisions.
It takes much time to realize that happiness and misery are up to you, because it is very comfortable for the ego to think that others are making you miserable. The ego goes on making impossible conditions, and it says that first these conditions have to be fulfilled and only then can you be happy. It asks how can you be happy in such an ugly world, with such ugly people, in such an ugly situation?
If you see yourself rightly you will laugh about yourself. It is ridiculous, simply ridiculous. What we are doing is absurd. Nobody is forcing us to do it, but we go on doing it - and crying for help. And you can simply come out of it; it is your own game-to become miserable, and then to ask for sympathy and love.
If you are happy, love will be flowing toward you... there is no need to ask for it. It is one of the basic laws. Just as water flows downward, and fire flows upward, love flows toward happiness... happinesswards.
November 24
Helping
Just be as happy as you can. Don't think about others. If you are happy, your happiness will help others. You cannot help, but your happiness can.
You cannot help-you will destroy-but your happiness can help. Happiness has its own ways of working-very indirect, very subtle, feminine. When you start working your energy becomes aggressive, and if you start trying to help others they will resist. They will resist unknowingly, because it seems as if somebody has the upper hand, and nobody wants to be liberated by anybody else. Nobody wants to be made happy by anybody else, because that seems to be a dependence, so a deep resistance comes in.
Simply don't be worried about it. That is the other person's business. You have done nothing to cause anybody else's problems. They have earned them through many lives, so they have to drop them. Just be happy, and your happiness will give others courage. Your happiness will give them impetus and a stimulation, a challenge. Your happiness will give them some idea of what it will be like when they say yes. That's all...
