Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 7)
Chapter 2. The
greatest rebellion ever tried
Question 1:
Beloved Master,
From where does freshness come?
Prem Naren, it does not come
from anywhere; it is always here. Existence is freshness itself. Existence is
fresh because it is always now and here. It is not burdened by the past, it
does not gather any dust from the past. It is never old.
Time makes no impact on
existence. Time does not exist as far as existence is concerned.
Time exists only for the mind;
it is a mind invention. In fact, time and mind are synonymous. Stop the mind,
and time stops.
Jesus is asked by someone,
"What will be the most unique thing in your kingdom of God?" And
Jesus says, "There shall be time no longer." A very unexpected
answer:
There shall be time no longer.
That will be the most unique thing about the kingdom of God - because there
will be no mind, how can there be time?
Time does not consist, as
ordinarily conceived, of three tenses: past, present and future.
Time consists only of two tenses:
past and future. The present is not part of time; the present is beyond time.
And the present is always fresh. Present is part of eternity.
Present is the penetration of
the eternal into the dreamy world of time, a ray of light into the darkness of
mind.
Past is never fresh - cannot
be, obviously. It is always dirty, it is always stinking - stinking of death,
stinking of all that is rotten, stinking of tradition, stinking of corpses.
The past is a cemetery. And the
future is nothing but a projection of the dead past. And out of the dead past
the future cannot be alive - the dead can only project the dead.
What is your future? - modified
past, touched up here and there; a little better, a little more sophisticated,
a little more comfortable, but it is the same past. You are hankering to repeat
it. Your future has nothing new about it, it cannot have.
Mind cannot conceive of the
new. It is impotent as far as the new and the fresh and the young is concerned.
It can move only within the small world of the familiar, the known - and the
known is the past. The future is nothing but a desire to repeat it - in a
better way, of course. Hence future is also not fresh. The present is fresh.
Naren, you ask me, "From
where does freshness come?"
Freshness never comes and never
goes. It is always here, it is always now. YOU be here and now, and you are
suddenly fresh, bathed in eternity, showered by something which is timeless.
Call it God, call it the kingdom of God, call it nirvana, or whatsoever you
want. All those names refer to the same unnameable. All those words try to
express the inexpressible.
Just put the human mind aside.
And by that I mean, put the past aside and the future, and look. This very
moment... and the whole heaven descends upon you. You are overwhelmed. The
birds are singing and their songs are fresh; they are not repeating old songs.
They have no idea of yesterdays and they are not singing for the future. They
are not rehearsing for tomorrows. And the trees are fresh. All is fresh except
man.
So don't ask, "From where
does freshness come?" Ask, "From where does this dullness come, this
staleness, this deadness?" Because this deadness comes and goes. Freshness
is always there - it is the very nature of existence. It is God's presence.
Meditation is nothing but a
way, a method, to connect you with the eternal, to take you beyond time, beyond
that which is born and dies, to take you beyond all the boundaries, to take you
to the inconceivable and the unknowable. And it is not far away; it is as close
as it can be. Even to say that it is close is not right, because it is exactly
your very being, it is you. Freshness is your soul.
Your mind is boring, utterly
boring. Get out of the mind. At least for a few moments every day, put the mind
aside, be utterly nude of the mind. And then you will know it is welling up
within you - the freshness you are asking about. From where does it come? It
comes from the deepest core of your being - and it does not really come.
Suddenly you find it has always
been the case. It has always been there like an undercurrent, underground,
hidden behind many many layers of memories, dreams, desires.
Buddha says: Be desireless and
know. Be desireless, and you will reach to the realm which is beyond birth and
death, and you will enter into the unbounded.
But why is man not going into
his own being which is so close? He is ready to go to the moon, he is ready to
go anywhere! He is ready to go to the stars, but not into his own being. Why?
There must be some deep reason behind it. The reason is: to go within yourself
you will have to lose yourself. And one is afraid of losing oneself. One
clings, one wants to remain oneself. One does not want to lose one's identity.
It is a very poor identity and false too, but still, something is better than
nothing. That is our logic.
We don't know who we are, so we
cling to the body, to the mind, to whatsoever has been given to us - the
conditioning, Catholic, communist, Hindu, Mohammedan. We cling to all that has
been forced upon us, because it gives us a cozy feeling as if we know
ourselves: "I am a communist," that becomes my self-knowledge.
"I am a Catholic," that becomes my self-knowledge. "I am an
Indian," "I am a German," that becomes my self- knowledge.
You are neither a communist nor
a Catholic, neither Indian nor German. Your consciousness cannot be confined to
such stupid labels. Your consciousness is so infinite, it cannot be contained
in any word. It is as vast as the sky itself.
But you are afraid to go into
that vastness. That vastness appears like emptiness, void.
And one clings to one's own
small, arbitrary identity. Hence the fear of going into oneself.
Buddha says: Know thyself.
Socrates says: Know thyself. They all say: Know thyself. All the awakened ones
have only one message: Know thyself. We listen and yet we don't listen. We go
on moving on the same rotten tracks, we go on living in the same old miserable
way. And the reason is, the old, miserable way has one thing to give to you -
the ego.
And if you go in you will have
to pay the price. The price is, you will have to lose your ego.
Sweeney met Brecon on the road.
"Where are you off to?" he asked.
"I am going to
Connemara," replied Brecon.
"You mean you are going to
Connemara, God willing?"
"No, I am going to Connemara,
God willing or not."
Because of this presumptuous
remark Brecon was turned into a frog and kept in a pond for several days. When
he had completed his penance Brecon was changed back to his original form.
Returning home, he began packing his belongings again.
"Where are you going
now?" asked Sweeney.
"I am going to
Connemara."
"You mean you are going to
Connemara, God willing?"
"No!" shouted Brecon.
"I am going to Connemara or back to the frog pond!"
One cannot leave one's ego. It
is better to be a frog! One is ready to be anything. We have become rocks. We
only appear to be alive - ninety-nine percent we are dead. Yes, we breathe and
we eat and we propagate, but we are not alive.
If you are alive you will not
ask the question, "From where does freshness come?" You will know;
there will be no need to ask the question. You will experience it moment to
moment. It is arising in you.
That's how I feel. That's how
all the buddhas have always felt. It does not come from anywhere; it simply
wells up within you, and each moment. It is never the same. It is as fresh as
dewdrops in the early morning sun. Tremendous is the beauty of it and great is
its benediction.
But nothing is without a price.
You will have to lose the ego, you will have to lose your idea of who you are.
In the first place, it is false. You are not really losing anything, just an
idea, a very nonsubstantial idea. But, repeated so often, the idea has become
very deeply rooted in you; you have become hypnotized by it.
The ego is nothing but a deep
hypnosis. And meditation is the process of dehypnosis. It is the process of
bringing you back to that innocent state where you were not yet hypnotized.
Hence, Jesus says again and
again: Unless you are like small children you will not enter into my kingdom of
God. What does he mean? He means you have to be unconditioned again, you have
to be dehypnotized.
Each society hypnotizes you.
These societies exist on the strategy of hypnosis. A Hindu means one who has
been hypnotized in a certain way, who has been told that the Vedas are written
by God and that only the Vedas contain the truth, that the Bibles and the
Korans are all nonsense. If you repeat it for centuries, it starts getting
deeper and deeper into your being, it becomes part of you. Then you start
repeating it - you become a gramophone record. Then you function only as
"His Master's Voice"; you are no longer really a human being.
All the societies in the past,
hitherto, have been dehumanizing human beings. We have not yet been able to create
a real civilization. These are all very primitive methods to control people -
ugly, violent, antihuman, but all the societies have done it. There has not
been even a single exception.
It is really surprising how
once in a while a person has escaped from our imprisoning atmosphere - how
Gautam Siddhartha escaped and became a buddha, how Jesus escaped from the Jews
and became a christ, how Saint Francis managed...
The greatest miracle in the
world is to be so intelligent that nobody, no society, no state, no church, can
hypnotize you.
My work here consists of
dehypnotizing you. Hence, all the societies will be against me.
Beware of it! To be with me is
dangerous - all the governments will be against you.
And this has to be known and
accepted. This has to be simply accepted, because this is going to be the case.
The more I start working deeply on you... It is just the beginning of the work:
I am preparing the ground from where to take off.
Once the dehypnosis starts
functioning within thousands of people, all the societies, all the governments,
all the states, all the churches, are going to be against me and my people -
because this has never been done before. This is the greatest rebellion ever
tried! This is true revolution.
And if you pass through this
revolution you will know from where freshness comes. It comes from your own
innermost core. God is not outside you; it is your very center, your very
ground. Freshness comes from it, life comes from it, love comes from it, bliss
comes from it. All that is significant - poetry and music - they all arise from
it.
And when the dance comes from
within, it has a totally different quality to it: it is spiritual, it is
divine.
Question 2:
Beloved Master,
Why does gautama the buddha insist that
life is always misery?
Dharmendra, because it is so!
Life as you know it is misery. Buddha is not talking about his life, because
what do you know about his life? That is not utter misery; that is utter bliss,
that is ultimate bliss. But the life that you know IS misery. Does it need any
proofs? Have you not observed yourself that it is misery? Do you need a Buddha
to remind you?
And even when a buddha reminds
you, you don't feel good. You feel offended, as if your life is being condemned.
He is not condemning your life - buddhas never condemn anything. They simply
say whatsoever is the case. If you are blind, they say you are blind. If you
are dead, they say you are dead. They simply state the fact - and they state
the fact because there is a possibility to go beyond it.
Buddha insists again and again
that life is misery because life can be tremendous bliss.
But unless you understand the
first thing you will not understand the second thing.
First you have to be very very
aware that your life is misery, so much so that it becomes impossible to live
in the old way even for a single moment. When you see your house is on fire,
how can you go on living in it? You will run, you will escape from the house!
You will forget all your
treasures. You will not carry your cherished items, beautiful paintings, art
works, or whatsoever you love. You will forget all about your postal stamps and
your picture albums. You will forget even your wife, your husband, your
children. You will remember them when you are out of the house.
Buddha used to tell a story:
There was an old man, eighty
years old, who became blind in old age. His friends, his physicians, suggested
to him that his eyes could be cured, but the old man was a philosopher, a
logician, a great scholar. He said, "What do I need eyes for? I have
twelve sons - that means twenty-four eyes; their twelve wives - that means
twenty-four eyes more; my wife - two eyes more; and so many children of my sons...
I have so many eyes, why do I need eyes for myself? In this house there are at
least one hundred eyes; if two eyes are missing it doesn't matter. My needs are
looked after."
His logic had a point in it. He
silenced his friends and physicians. But one night the house caught fire. Those
hundred eyes escaped - they forgot all about the old man. Yes, they remembered,
but they remembered only when they were safe outside. Suddenly they remembered
that the old man is in the house. What to do now? And the flames were so big
now they could not go in. And the old man was trying to find his way stumbling,
getting burned here and there. And then he remembered that his logic was
absolute stupidity.
In times of real need only your
own eyes can be of help. But it was too late: he died, he was burned alive.
When Buddha insists again and
again that life is dukkha - misery, anguish, pain - he is simply
reminding you that your house is on fire and your eyes are still blind. It is
time - prepare! Your eyes can be cured. A way can be found to come out of this
fire.
You can still save yourself,
all is not yet lost. Hence the insistence.
Not that he is a pessimist - as
many people in the West particularly have condemned him, and in the East too.
People think that Buddha is a pessimist, saying life is misery.
He is not a pessimist - not a
pessimist in the same way as Arthur Schopenhauer is.
Schopenhauer is a pessimist:
"Life is misery and there is no way to get out of it. You have to suffer
it, nothing can be done about it. Man is a helpless victim."
It is said that when
Schopenhauer read Gautam Buddha's works for the first time he danced because he
thought, "This enlightened man agrees with me!"
Now, no enlightened man can
ever agree with those who are not enlightened; it is impossible. Either you
agree with them or you don't agree with them, but they never agree with you.
They cannot. How can the man who has eyes agree with the man who is blind about
light? - or about darkness even?
Remember one thing: the blind
man knows nothing about darkness even, what to say about light! Because to see
darkness eyes are needed. You may be thinking that blind people live in
darkness - you are totally wrong. They know nothing of darkness.
Because you close your eyes and
you feel darkness, so you think blind people must be living in darkness - but
they don't have eyes to close. And unless you know light you cannot know
darkness; they are two aspects of the same coin. Eyes are needed for both.
Schopenhauer was utterly wrong
- Buddha was not agreeing with him. Of course, Buddha can be interpreted in
such a way that he may look like a pessimist philosopher.
He is neither a pessimist nor a
philosopher. He is not even an optimist - because pessimism and optimism both
belong to the world of the blind.
Hopeless people hope. Blind
people think sooner or later they will attain to eyes. In the dark night of
your souls you cling to the hope that there must be a dawn. To tolerate the
present misery you have to create a certain kind of optimistic attitude so that
you can hope for a beautiful tomorrow - although it never comes. But in hoping,
you can tolerate. At least you can dilute your misery a little bit, you can
avoid getting too much disturbed by it. You can remain occupied somewhere else.
You can keep your eyes closed to the present anguish.
Buddha wants to bring you to
the reality of your existence. He is a very earthly man, very pragmatic. He is
a realist, he is not an idealist. He has nothing to do with pessimism and
nothing to do with optimism. He is simply trying to shake you up. It is a way
of hammering on your head. That's why he insists again and again that life is
misery.
Watch your life, and you will
find proofs and proofs, more than are needed, more proofs than you can manage.
In fact, you will see that Buddha's insistence is not as much as it should be,
that he is very lenient, very liberal.
Let me remind you about Peter's
principles:
His first principle: Anything
that begins well ends badly; anything that begins badly ends worse.
His second principle: Negative
expectations yield negative results; positive expectations yield negative
results.
Whatever you do, this way or
that, everything ends in failure, everything ends in frustration. Still you
feel offended by Buddha?
Two bums came to rest on the
same park bench and struck up a conversation.
Eventually they got around to
how each of them had come to such dire straits.
One explained, "You are
looking at a man who never took a word of advice from any man."
"Isn't that a
coincidence?" replied the other. "You are looking at a man who took
everybody's advice!"
Do whatsoever you want to do,
but you will end in the same way. Everything ends in misery, everything ends in
death. People make tremendous effort, but what can you do? - all your efforts
are doomed, because you don't do the fundamental thing that can bring a radical
change. You don't create consciousness. That is the only radical transformation
of life: from misery to bliss. You do everything else except meditate. You will
earn money and you will become more and more powerful and you will have all
that the world can provide.
And remember: I am not against
the world. And I am not saying don't earn money and I am not saying don't make
a beautiful house. But remember: these things in themselves cannot make your
life a life of joy. Yes, if you are meditative then a beautiful house will have
a totally different quality. A beautiful garden, a pond in your garden...
Mukta has just made a pond by
the side of my room, a really beautiful pond with a small waterfall. If you are
meditative, then it is a tremendously beautiful experience just to see water
dancing on the rocks, just to see the rocks, just to feel the texture of the
rocks, the moss that will start gathering on them. Then everything is beautiful
if inside your heart there is awareness; otherwise everything is ugly.
It is not that a meditative
person enters into heaven - no, heaven enters into a meditative person.
Paradise is not a geographical place, it is a psychological experience.
A meditative person can enjoy
everything - only he can enjoy. He is not a renunciate.
Only he knows how to taste the
beauty of things, how to experience the tremendous presence of existence all
around. Because he IS, he knows how to love, how to live.
But your life is going to be
one misery after another misery. It will be a long chain of misery.
Berkowitz, a salesman, while
driving through the Negev desert, saw an Arab lying on the sand. Berkowitz
rushed to the man's side and lifted him up. The Arab whispered, "Water,
effendi, water!"
"This is kismet!"
exclaimed Berkowitz. "Are you in luck! I happen to have in my suitcase the
finest selection of ties you ever saw!"
"No!" wailed the
Arab. "Water, water!"
"These ties you could see
right now in the King David Hotel - fifteen dollars apiece. For you, only ten
dollars."
"Please, effendi, I need
water!"
"Look, you seem like a
nice person. I am known all over the Negev as Honest Abbie.
Whatever kind of ties you like
- silk, wool, wrap, crepe - you can have what you want - eight dollars each!"
"I need water!"
"Alright, you drive a hard
bargain. Tell you what, take your pick, two for ten dollars!"
"Please, give me
water!"
"Ah, you want water?"
said Berkowitz. "Why didn't you say so? All you gotta do is crawl five
hundred feet to the sand dune, hang right for a quarter mile. You will come to
Poppy's Pyramid Club; he will give you all the water you want."
The Arab slowly crawled to the
sand dune, turned right, and with his last remaining strength came to the door
of the club. Poppy, the owner, was standing out front.
"Water, water!"
begged the Arab.
"You want water? You came
to the right place. I got well water, seltzer water, whatever water you want I
got inside. The only thing is, you can't go in without a tie."
Buddha is right: in your life,
whatsoever you do, you are bound to meet misery. And as time passes, more and
more misery, because life starts slipping out of your fingers, death starts
overshadowing you. And you become very tense - life is slipping by and you have
not arrived anywhere yet. You start running, you put all that you have at
stake... but only death is the culmination of what you call life. How can death
be the culmination of life? If death is the culmination of life then life is
utterly useless - not only useless but a very ugly joke played on man. Then God
cannot be the creator - then the Devil must be in charge. And that exactly
seems to be the case.
The Old Testament says God
created the world in six days. And then? Then it seems the Devil is running it!
Since then, God has not been heard of; since then the Devil is in charge.
Your life is a cruel joke, as
if some evil force is playing tricks with you. Just like small children
torturing some insect, you are being tortured by some unknown force - as if
some unknown force is enjoying your torture, as if God is a sadist!
Buddha is right: your life
simply proves not only that you are wrong, but it even proves that the God you
worship must be wrong. It not only proves you wrong, it proves your popes and
your shankaracharyas wrong. It proves your so-called religions wrong, because
they don't help in changing your quality of life. They don't change your
vision, they don't change your insight. They don't bring more sensitivity and
awareness to you so that you can live on a new plane, in a new plenitude, in a
new fullness.
Buddha insists for a certain
reason. The reason is: if you listen to him and if you become aware that your
life IS misery, you are bound to ask him, "Sir, then what should we
do?"
Buddha has the way; he can show
you the path. He diagnoses your illness, because he has the key which can
transform your illness into health, your madness into sanity.
Question 3:
Beloved Master,
What is so funny about your driving to
discourse in a rolls royce?
There is a long story behind
it! I was driving... I was coming in an Impala, and people like you started
writing letters to me saying that, "This is a plumber's car!"
I told Laxmi, "Change
it!" So she bought a Buick - and people started writing to me that
"This is a pimp's car!"
So I told Laxmi, "Change
it!" So she was bargaining for a Lincoln Continental. And people wrote to
me, "This is good - this is a president's car!"
I said, "That is worse -
worse than being driven in a plumber's or a pimp's car!" So I told Laxmi,
"Now, for a poor man like me, only a Rolls Royce will do!"
Now, please don't make any
objection to it... because coming from Lao Tzu to Buddha Hall, a helicopter
won't do. Don't create troubles for me!
Question 4:
Beloved Master,
I know now that i am alright just as i am, but
how can i make sure that others know that too?
Deva Kamma, I know how you are
feeling!
Alan, a real ladies' man,
rushed into a Catholic church. He slipped into the confession booth and said,
"Father, Father, I just made love to a woman twenty-five times!"
"Are you married?"
asked the priest.
"No," said Alan,
"and I am Jewish, not Catholic, but I had to tell someone!"
You start telling people! They
will think you crazy because this is a very strange world: if you talk about
your misery nobody thinks you are crazy. If you start saying that "I am
tremendously happy, ecstatic! I am feeling fantastic, just far out!" then
people start thinking you are going nuts, something is wrong with you.
Just the other day a letter
came to me that "Sarvesh is again going nuts." And all that the poor
man was doing was just expressing his ecstasy. Seeing the new commune place he
became so ecstatic that people thought that he is going crazy.
In this world to be insane is
alright. To be sane is difficult, because the majority consists of insane
people. To be sane is really difficult.
Nobody will believe you, Kamma,
and people will laugh at you. And it happens: when inside you are feeling a
great joy and everything seems to be fitting perfectly well, humming, you want
that others should know it. It is a natural by-product - otherwise buddhas
would have remained silent. Why did Gautama the Buddha speak at all? Why did
Mahavira speak? When he was unenlightened he went to the mountains; when he
became enlightened he came back to the world. And this has always been the
case: people have gone to the mountains, to the forests, to the jungles, in the
search for truth.
They have gone into silence,
but when they attained they rushed back, they have not lost a single moment.
They have rushed back to the marketplace to shout from the housetops!
But then there are dangers. The
danger is that people will think you are mad. The danger is that they will
think you are a nuisance. The danger is that they will think that you can
create trouble in the society, because a few others may become interested in
your ideas.
It is not accidental that
Socrates is killed, Jesus is killed, Mansoor is killed. The society protects
itself and its sanity - its so-called sanity, which is really not sanity at
all.
So, Kamma, if you are ready to
take the risk, say it to people, don't be afraid. That's the only way they will
come to know about it. But remember: then you have to accept joyfully
whatsoever they do to you. Then don't throw the responsibility on me - I am
warning you right now. Now start advertising!
Malcolm G. Krebbs was the last
of the old diehards who believed in doing business without advertising, and
like so many others he found that his philosophy just did not work anymore. So
he finally went to an advertising agency, but with great misgivings.
Mr. Krebbs just could not
manage to understand the principle behind advertising until his account
executive explained it to him like this: "Doing business without
advertising is like winking at a girl in the dark - you know what you are
doing, but nobody else does."
And that's how you are feeling,
Kamma, right now. You can go on winking in darkness - nobody will know. Come into
the light and wink... and then suffer the consequences!
But my people won't take it
badly. They are becoming slowly slowly aware of such phenomena. They will
accept you - but outside the commune there will be trouble for you, so be
cautious. My people will understand. If they can understand me - this far, far
gone guy - what about you, Kamma? You are just a beginner!
Dugan, a delivery man from near
Hyannisport making his first trip to New York, saw the sign climb the stairs
and save forty dollars on a new suit. The Irishman went up and was
immediately shown a number of shoddy garments by Spiegal, the eager salesman.
Dugan refused to bite.
Spiegal knew that Zimmer, the
boss, was watching him, so he made a special effort with the next number.
Spiegal whirled the customer around and around before the mirror crying,
"It fits like a glove! You look like a movie star!"
When the Irishman again said
no, Zimmer took over, produced one blue serge suit and made the sale in five
minutes. As Dugan left, the boss said, "You see how easy it is when you
know how? He went for the first suit I showed him."
"Yeah," agreed
Spiegal, "but who made him dizzy?"
Here I am making my people so
dizzy... you don't worry, you can say anything! But outside the commune be a
little cautious. Don't laugh loudly. Don't be so loving, so much hugging and so
much kissing...
It almost always happens: the
deeper you go, such great joy arises, and with joy, as a by-product, the desire
to share. But there is no other way - you have to share.
Start sharing, first with my
crazy people - that way you will learn the art - and then if you feel that you
are confident enough, then start sharing with strangers, outsiders; people who
have no idea of what meditation is; people who have no idea what it means to go
inwards, what it means to know oneself, what it means to be silent, to be
empty.
They have very strange ideas.
They think the empty mind is a Devil's workshop. The empty mind is God's
workshop, because meditation means nothing but emptiness.
First start talking to the
people who can understand your language, and then shout from the housetops. I
am a firm believer in advertising, don't be worried!
A minister who believed firmly
in advertising had a sign erected in front of his church which proclaimed: if you are tired
of sin, come in!
Some enterprising member of his
congregation who also believed in advertising, however, scrawled the additional
message: "If you are not, call Grandview 9-6001."
Question 5:
Beloved Master,
What is your function here as a master?
Geeto, it is a difficult
question, because I have to do so many things - without doing them, that is the
most difficult part of it! I never leave my room, but I have to do many things,
conceivable, inconceivable.
But the basic function of the
master is to force people out of their unconsciousness. It is a thankless job,
because you have to hit them hard - their ideas, their notions, their
middle-class, bourgeois philosophies. All that they have thought is great, all
that they have thought is true, you have to go on telling them that it is all
nonsense, that it is just bullshit! And of course they feel hurt.
Rizzutti was sitting in the
neighborhood bar. Next to him sat McIntyre who had had more than enough beer and
was staring at his empty glass.
He turned to Rizzutti and
asked, "Say, did you spill a glass of beer on me?"
"Absolutely no!"
answered the Italian.
McIntyre turned to the man on
his other side. "Mister, did you by any chance throw a glass of beer in my
lap?"
"No!" snapped the
man.
"Just what I have been
suspecting," said the Irishman. "It is an inside job!"
You are as unconscious as that.
You don't even know what is happening to you as an inside job! Even that has to
be brought to your notice. And you try to escape from seeing any truth, because
it will shatter many of your old ideas, and you have become very acquainted,
familiar with them. You feel cozy surrounded with your old nonsense.
Whenever you are forced to see
a new idea you shiver - because it is not only a question of seeing one single
new idea. Allow one single new idea in your being and you will have to change
your total vision, because then you will start seeing that this new concept,
this new vision, does not fit with anything old.
I have heard a story about
Count Keyserling - his grandson is here, a sannyasin. Count Keyserling was one
of the most famous German thinkers. He traveled far and wide in the East; he
was fascinated by the East. The grandson must have something of Count Keyserling
in him, hence he has come to me.
When Count Keyserling was in
China, a friend presented him with a beautiful box, two thousand years old, but
with a condition which has been fulfilled for two thousand years: that the
box's face has to be towards the East. A beautiful piece of art work, a great
work of art! With that condition, for two thousand years whosoever had it has
followed it.
Count Keyserling went with it.
He placed the box in his drawing room facing towards the East, but then the
whole drawing room was unbalanced. The box looked odd, so the whole drawing
room had to be redone. But then the whole drawing room was no longer fitting
with the house! But Count Keyserling was a man of his word - he changed his
whole house... but then the garden was not fitting, so he had to change the
garden. And then he became afraid, because when he changed the garden the house
was not fitting in the neighborhood. Now, he could not do anything with the
neighborhood!
Then he wrote a letter to the
friend who has given the box, "Please take this box back - I don't know
how I can fulfill the condition. I will have to change the whole world! Now the
neighborhood, then the town, then the district, then the province, then the
country... This is too much!"
If you start seeing just a ray
of light, a new light, you will have to change your whole world.
The friend wrote to Count
Keyserling, "Don't be worried, that's exactly the message: that even a
small box can change your whole world. It is an ancient Taoist symbol; a
message is contained in it. You have understood the message."
Allow a single insight of a
buddha in you and you will never be the same. That's my function here as a
master: to give you something which will not fit with you but which will be so
tremendously significant for you that you will be ready to change for it, that
you will be ready to risk everything for it.
A zookeeper was headed for the
kangaroo cage right around feeding time when, much to his surprise, the
kangaroo jumped right over the ten-foot fence and went hopping out of sight.
The startled zookeeper dashed up to the cage and confronted a woman who was
standing in front of the cage.
"What happened?" he
asked.
"I have not the faintest
notion," she replied. "All I did was tickle him a little."
"Well, lady," he
replied, "I guess you had better tickle me in the same place - I am the
one who has to catch him now!"
My function is to tickle you in
the right place - because it is a long long journey, a pilgrimage, and you are
to catch hold of God. Less than that is not going to fulfill you.
Question 6:
Beloved Master,
Why am i not getting enlightened soon?
Why is there so much delay?
Sagaram, the cause must be in
you. In fact, you are the cause. You are not trying to understand what I am
saying. Now enlightenment has become an object of your desire - and
enlightenment happens only when there is no desire left. And when I say no
desire I exactly mean no desire - absolutely no desire. The desire for
enlightenment is still a desire. If you go on desiring enlightenment it is not
going to happen, neither sooner nor later. It is never going to happen. You
will have to drop the desire.
See the point, because mind is
so cunning and so stupid too that it can go on being clever. You can even say,
"Okay, then I will drop the desire - but is it guaranteed that when I drop
all the desires, the desire for enlightenment included, is it guaranteed that I
will become enlightened?" You miss the point again: it can't be guaranteed.
And dropping desire to attain enlightenment is not dropping at all - the desire
is coming from the back door again. You are not getting enlightened because you
want to get enlightened, and it is not something that can be wanted, can be
desired. You can't be ambitious for it.
Then what is to be done? Try to
understand the futility of desire. Try to see that desire is the culprit, that
desire goes on taking you away from the present moment. It is desire that is
not allowing you to be meditative. It is desire that goes on creating the mind
and goes on creating hindrances for meditation. Mind is a hindrance for
meditation. It is desire that goes on creating time and time prevents eternity,
becomes a rock between you and eternity.
See the point - simply see it!
It is not a question of having to drop it. Just see the point, that desire is
your hell. Seeing it, desiring disappears, because if you see it clearly,
totally, one hundred percent, how can you go on desiring anymore? It will slip
out of your hands on its own accord. And in that very moment is enlightenment.
That moment is enlightenment.
Enlightenment is not something
that is going to come to you from somewhere else.
Desire dropped, and you are a
buddha. The only difference between you and a buddha is desire.
It happened to Gautam
Siddhartha exactly the same way. For six years he was also, Sagaram,
continuously hankering for enlightenment and could not attain it. For six years
he tried hard, harder than any man has ever done. He risked all. He was a
warrior, a kshatriya - a man who knew
only how to fight. He fought with God, with existence. He wanted to conquer
truth, he wanted to become a conqueror. And after six years of arduous effort
he was reaching nowhere, not even a single inch closer to truth than when he started.
One full-moon night sitting
under the tree, he started looking backwards. Six years have passed since he
renounced his family, his palace, his kingdom. All that is written in the
scriptures he has done and all that the teachers he came across told him to do
he has done - and he has done it with totality. Now there is nothing more to
do. This whole project has failed.
Then suddenly he became aware
that "Although I was searching for truth, I was searching for God, I was
still the same person - the same ego, the same desire, the same ambition: the
ambition to conquer, to be victorious. I was the same old man; these six years
nothing has changed. Objects of desires have changed - they are no longer
worldly, they are otherworldly - but what difference does it make? Desire is
desire, worldly or otherworldly, it doesn't matter. Desire is desire; its
nature is the same."
Seeing it and seeing the
futility of it, that evening he dropped... or it will be better to say, desire
dropped itself. That evening as the moon rose, a totally new being arose in
him: a desireless consciousness, a nonambitious being, not asking for anything.
His eyes were clear for the first time, unclouded, no smoke of desire. His
flame was burning bright. That night he slept for the first time in his life
without dreams, because once desires disappear, dreams disappear. Dreams are
reflections of your desires.
And early morning just before
the sun was to rise, he opened his eyes. There was nothing to do that day, all
is finished. He is no longer interested in the world, he is no longer
interested in the other world. He remained in the moment; there were no
projects to do. He was utterly empty. He looked at the rising sun... and that
was the moment when he became enlightened.
What is enlightenment? - the
insight that desire is futile, that ambition is illness. Then suddenly you are
thrown back to the present moment. To be in the present is to be enlightened.
To be now and to be here is to be enlightened.
You are all buddhas - dreaming,
desiring. Understand the desire and let it go.
Enough for today.