Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 12)
Chapter 2. Just
throw the whole bag
Beloved Master,
You say that enlightenment can happen any
moment. To me it feels like a very slow process of learning and becoming aware
of the unconscious parts of my being. Do you have something to say about this?
Dharmapriya, enlightenment is
not a process of learning; on the contrary, it is a process of unlearning.
Whatsoever you know has to be dropped. Knowledge, the knowledgeable mind, has
to be renounced.
If it were a process of
learning, then certainly it would take time, it would be gradual. But if it is
a question of dropping something then it is not gradual, it need not be
gradual. You can simply drop it instantly.
Once it happened:
A man came to Sri Ramakrishna
with ten thousand gold coins to offer him. Ramakrishna accepted his offering
and then said, "Now these coins are mine - you go to the Ganges and throw
them all into the river." Ramakrishna lived in a temple just on the bank
of the Ganges.
The man was very much shocked.
"Ten thousand gold coins, solid gold coins, and this fool is saying,
'Throw them into the river!' And I have always thought that this man had become
enlightened - he is simply mad!" He hesitated.
Ramakrishna said, "When
you have offered them to me they no longer belong to you. Why are you
hesitating? I can send somebody else to throw them away. You please go."
The man went, reluctantly of
course, and he didn't come back. One hour passed. Ramakrishna inquired,
"What happened to that man? Has he escaped with the coins? Go and
inquire."
Somebody was sent. There was a
great crowd, he had gathered a great crowd, and he was throwing each single
coin, one by one, and counting them!
When Ramakrishna was told,
"This is what is happening - it may take a few hours more,"
Ramakrishna went himself, hit the man on the head and said, "Are you mad
or something? When you collect coins, of course you collect them one by one, it
is a gradual process. But when you are throwing them away, why are you
counting? Just throw the whole bag! Whether they are ten thousand or a few more
or a few less, it doesn't matter. The Ganges won't take any note of it!"
This is the situation. When you
stop gathering knowledge you also unlearn slowly, not because unlearning has to
be slow. It is only your clinging mind. It is the mind that does not want to
renounce knowledge, hence it goes on postponing. It finds beautiful
rationalizations.
The idea of gradual
enlightenment is one of the most beautiful rationalizations, and it appeals to
the mind because all that mind knows is gradual. The whole language of the mind
is the language of time. Whatsoever the mind can do has to be done in time, it
needs time.
But enlightenment does not
happen in time. When I say it can happen in a moment, please don't
misunderstand me - the moment is not part of time at all! I am saying it can
happen immediately; it needs no time at all, not even a single moment is
needed. It can happen now... but you cling. You say, "How is it possible?
I have to become slowly slowly alert, aware, meditative. Chunk by chunk I have
to transform my unconscious being. I have to drop greed, anger, lust, jealousy,
possessiveness, hatred, and there are a thousand and one things, and each thing
is going to take time. I have to drop fear, I have to drop my identification
with the body and the mind, I have to drop my attachments..." And the list
is almost infinite. It will take eternity for you to become enlightened; in
fact, you will never become enlightened. The very idea that it is going to be a
gradual process is only a strategy of the mind to postpone it.
Enlightenment is always sudden.
It is a question of understanding, insight, illumination. It is like sudden
lightning. It has always happened like that.
Gautam Buddha was trying for
his enlightenment for six years; it was a lengthy process. He was following
many methods, many paths. He was doing whatsoever is humanly possible to do,
but nothing was happening. He was moving in circles; he was where he had
started, he was not going anywhere else. He was becoming tired, utterly tired.
Finally one evening this sudden illumination happened to him that his whole
effort was irrelevant.
Enlightenment is not something
like an achievement; one cannot achieve it. One has to disappear for it to
happen. It is a happening and it happens only in the absence of the ego. And
whenever you are doing something the ego becomes more and more strengthened.
The ego is a doer, and enlightenment happens in a state of nondoing. It is
simply the realization of who you are; it is not a question of achievement. You
are already it! Just an awakening, just a turning in!
Seeing the point, Buddha
relaxed; he dropped all his methods. That is the only use of methods: you get
tired of them, you feel utterly bored with them. One day out of sheer boredom
you drop all the methods.
That evening he dropped his
whole spiritual search. He had dropped all worldly search six years before, but
it is the same search whether you are seeking money or meditation, whether you
are seeking power or enlightenment, whether you are running after prestige or
God - it is the same thing! The mind needs some object to run after. The mind
wants something to desire. It wants an objective goal; whatsoever that
objective goal is doesn't matter - xyz,
anything will do.
Seeing the point, "It is
the same mind - I have renounced the world, but I have not renounced the mind,
and the mind is the real world. And these six years I have only been changing
the objects of my desire, but I have not dropped desiring. Instead of money,
now I desire enlightenment. Instead of power, now I desire ultimate truth. But
is there any difference? It is the same desiring mind, the same ambitious ego;
in fact, it has become more subtle. It was gross before, now it is very
subtle..." seeing it, he laughed. These six years he had not laughed at
all, he had been serious. He laughed at the whole ridiculousness of the effort.
Spiritual effort is more
ridiculous than the worldly effort. The worldly effort has a certain relevance,
but the spiritual effort has no relevance.
He relaxed - obviously,
naturally. Not that he made an effort to relax: relaxation came to him because
there was nothing to achieve, nowhere to go. Relaxation simply came to him;
from the beyond something descended. He fell into deep rest.
That night he slept for the
first time without dreams. When there are no desires there are no dreams;
dreams are reflections of desires. That night there was no nightmare; for six
years he had been suffering from many nightmares. A nightmare simply says that
you are desiring impossible things; hence your night is disturbed, your sleep
is disturbed. There is no rest; it is feverish, it is pathological, it is not
healthy. For the first time in his life he relaxed and slept well, totally,
like a small child newly born.
Deeply rested, in the morning
when he opened his eyes the last star was disappearing from the sky. Seeing the
last star disappear, the last trace of the ego disappeared in him. He had found
it - but he had found it without any effort. It had happened, but it had
happened not as a goal, not as an achievement - it had happened out of deep
relaxation.
But remember, don't start
trying to relax; that is the most absurd thing in the world. And there are many
stupid people writing books about relaxation. I have come across one book - the
name of the book is you must relax! Now
that very word 'must' is enough to keep you tense. Relaxation cannot be a
"must," it cannot be an effort.
Try one night to go to sleep,
make an effort to go to sleep, and it will become more and more impossible for
you. Every night you go to sleep very easily. If you want to suffer from
insomnia this is the sure method to suffer from insomnia. Try, make an effort
to go into sleep. Toss and turn and take long breaths and count sheep and jog
in the room and take a bath and do some Transcendental Meditation. And then
naturally sleep will become impossible, because all these things will be
disturbances, distractions. How do you go to sleep? If somebody asks you, will
you ever be able to explain? How do you manage? Every night when you fall
asleep you are doing a miracle! You are moving from doing to nondoing, from
action to no-action. How do you manage it? Is there any art? Have you learned
it? What is the trick in it? Try to think about it, and then you will never be
able to sleep.
I have heard about one centipede
- the centipede has one hundred legs. The centipede was taking a morning walk
and a spider became very much intrigued. The spider must have been a
mathematician or something like that. He said, "Uncle, can you satisfy my
curiosity? How do you manage? One hundred legs! Which one to put first and
which one to put next and then... a hundred legs! You don't fall, you don't get
confused? Do you keep counting inside? If I had one hundred legs I am certain I
would not be able to walk. My legs would become entangled with each other, I
would fall immediately."
The centipede laughed. He said,
"You mathematicians, you are always asking nonsense questions! You know
that I am managing perfectly well - but I have never thought about it. Let me
think it over."
So he tried to walk and think -
and he fell down immediately. He was very angry at the spider and he said,
"Listen! Never ask a centipede this question again - now for my whole life
I will be in trouble! I had never thought about it, things were going perfectly
well. I had never looked into the matter. Now that you have asked me I will
never be at ease until I have found the answer. Trying to figure it out... you
see I am in a mess! Please never ask any centipede. You have crippled me for my
whole life. Now I don't think that I will ever be able to walk. One hundred
legs! Of course you are right, and I don't know how everything was being
managed."
If somebody asks you how you go
to sleep, don't try to find out the answer; otherwise you will suffer from
insomnia from that very day. People who suffer from insomnia, all that they
need is to forget about sleep; there is no need to worry about it. If you are
not feeling sleepy, be happy, enjoy. Read something, listen to music, sing,
dance, go for a walk - you are more fortunate than the people who are fast
asleep and snoring. But forget all about sleep. Watch the stars, enjoy the
stars, feel yourself far more fortunate than the others, and you will fall
asleep without any effort on your part. But don't make any effort.
Enlightenment is something like
that. It is not a question of making effort.
Dharmapriya, you say, "To
me it feels like a very slow process." It is not a process at all - it is
a jump, a quantum leap! And it has nothing to do with learning; it is unlearning.
You are conditioned. Enlightenment means becoming unconditioned again, becoming
a child again. You were a child once so you can be a child again. You have just
to put aside all kinds of rubbish that you have gathered around yourself. You
have to jump out of it, that's all. It is not a question of a slow process of
learning, it is simply a question of seeing the point.
But we are cunning, mind is
very cunning. It can't accept the simple fact that we still want to avoid
enlightenment. We don't want to be enlightened, we are afraid of the fact, but
we are cunning and we cannot accept it. Hence we find out ways - ways to
deceive ourselves that it is a slow process, a very slow process; that it takes
not only one life but many lives to become enlightened. It does not take time
at all, what to say about a life or many lives? It has nothing to do with time.
It is immediate - it can happen now!
See the point. Allow relaxation
to happen, don't try to relax. Simply relax, don't make it a "must."
Rest... and if you rest you will start falling into the deep abyss of your own
being, and sooner or later you will reach the rock bottom of yourself. To
experience that rock bottom of yourself is to be enlightened, is to be a
buddha, is to be a christ.
That's why I insist again and
again it can happen any moment, just to remind you that your mind is very
clever. It can deceive others, it can deceive you. Beware of the mind! It keeps
you clouded, it never allows you to see things as they are.
Enlightenment is your nature,
hence there is no question of learning, no question of reaching somewhere. You
are already there, it has already happened. It is your very being, your very
ground. It is in your every breath and in every beat of your heart.
Question 2
Beloved Master,
Why don't I feel any surprises in my life?
All seems so dull and drab.
Gyano, I have given you the
name Gyano: Gyano means knowledge. You are too knowledgeable, you know too
much. And when one knows too much, life loses the quality of being mysterious.
Then you are never surprised by anything. Your knowledge goes on supplying you
all kinds of answers; even before you have asked, the answer is there, you seem
to know everything. Knowing nothing you go on believing in borrowed knowledge,
and slowly slowly, that borrowed knowledge hypnotizes you so much that you
forget that you don't know. You start believing in your own knowledge - and it
is not your own, it is just borrowed. You may have read the Bible, the Gita,
the Koran...
Krishna knew what he was
talking about, but when you read you don't know. Jesus knew what he was talking
about, but when you read the Sermon on the Mount you are simply collecting,
gathering words - words which are not meaningful to you at all, which cannot
have any meaning because meaning comes from experience.
Jesus says: If somebody hits
you on one of your cheeks, give him the other one too. You can read it, it is a
simple statement. You can even try to follow it - thousands of Christians are
trying to follow it.
I have heard about a Christian
saint who used to talk too much about this statement. A mischievous person came
and hit the saint on one cheek. Of course, true to his teaching, the saint gave
him his other cheek hoping that now he would understand: "He will see how
great I am, how compassionate, how considerate, how full of love!"
But the mischievous person was
also a great devil; if the saint was great he was also great. He was not in any
way inferior to the saint. He hit on the other cheek even harder.
Now this was too much! The
saint immediately jumped upon him and started hitting him. The mischievous
person was surprised. He said, "What are you doing? What happened to your
teaching? What happened to Jesus?"
He said, "Jesus has said:
If somebody hits you on one cheek, give him the other. I have got only two
cheeks, so his teaching is finished - now I am free of the teaching. I will
show you who I am! I have followed the teaching literally, exactly."
Once Buddha was asked by a man,
"How many times do you say one should forgive?"
Now, the very question is
enough to show the quality of the person. He is saying, "How many
times...?" When you ask about how many times, you are not a man of
compassion.
Buddha said, "Seven
times."
The man said, "Okay."
Because of the way he said,
"Okay," Buddha said, "Wait - seventy times!"
The man felt a little reluctant
about accepting seventy times, but still he said, "Okay."
Buddha said, "I withdraw
my words. You have to forgive infinitely; even seventy times won't do. The way
you are accepting it, it seems that when seventy times are over you will take
revenge. And you can do harm in a single blow, you can take revenge in a single
blow. You are not a man of compassion. You don't understand me, it is not a
question of how many times."
You can read Buddha, The Dhammapada, you can recite it every
day; you will become knowledgeable. All questions will disappear because you
will have all kinds of answers, but all those answers are borrowed. Hence they
will destroy the beauty of life and they will destroy your sense of awe and
wonder, which are the most essential religious qualities.
If someone asks me which is the
most fundamental religious quality, I will say wonder. And knowledge kills
wonder. You start knowing about everything and the more you know, the more your
life will be dull and drab, because all that dust of knowledge that gathers
around you makes your mirrorlike consciousness so clouded - there are so many
layers of knowledge - that you lose the quality of childlike wonder. You can't
see the beauty of flowers, you can't see the beauty of a sunset, you can't see
the miracle of existence. And existence is full of miracles, and surprises are
everywhere, all around you.
Just look, but look with open
eyes. The knowledgeable person is blind; the most blind person in existence is
the knowledgeable person.
Gyano, I have given you the
name just to remind you again and again that that is your problem, that is your
main characteristic. Gurdjieff used to say to his disciples, "The first
thing for the disciple is to know what his main characteristic is." Your
main characteristic is knowledgeability.
Look around without carrying
your burden of knowledge, and then you are stumbling continuously into new
surprises and life again becomes worth living, worth rejoicing. Life again
becomes a mystery to be loved and lived. It is not a problem to be solved, it
is a mystery to be lived.
"Brothers," said the
colored preacher, "the subject of my sermon today is 'liars'. How many in
this congregation have read the sixty-ninth chapter of Matthew?"
Nearly every hand went up.
"You are the very people I
want to preach to," the reverend said. "There is no such
chapter!"
But nobody wants to accept that
he does not know. Sixty-ninth chapter of Matthew... Everybody wants to pretend.
And I will not say that they were doing it very consciously, deliberately.
Maybe they were thinking that they had read it, maybe they were believing that
they had read it, and seeing so many hands going up they must become convinced
that yes, there is such a chapter.
In the old days down South, a
minister had a Negro named Ezra in his household. Ezra was smart and ambitious,
but he could not read or write.
One Sunday the minister saw
Ezra in the church, scribbling away industriously through the sermon.
Afterwards, the minister asked him, "Ezra, what were you doing in
church?"
"Taking notes, sir. I's
eager to learn."
"Let me see," said
the minister, and he glanced over Ezra's notes, which looked more like Chinese
than English.
"Why, Ezra," he
chided, "this is all nonsense!"
"I thought so," said
Ezra, "all the time you was preaching it!"
Your preachers have poisoned
you. Your knowledge has destroyed you; it has taken away the simple joy of
not-knowing. Regain that joy of not-knowing. That's the whole purpose of
meditation: coming out of knowledge just as a snake slips out of its old skin.
Slip out of your knowledge,
Gyano, and then life is full of surprises. Every moment you will come across so
many wonderful things. A seed becoming a sprout is a miracle. A bud opening in
the morning is a miracle. A flower releasing its fragrance is a miracle. The
night full of stars... what more miracles do you need? The whole existence is
in a constant celebration!
And still you say, "I feel
dull and drab and dragging"?
Then you must be at fault
somewhere; nobody else is responsible for it. But we cling to our knowledge
because it fulfills our ego.
D.H. Lawrence was walking in a
garden with a small child. And, as children are prone to, the child asked,
"Why are the trees green?"
D.H. Lawrence is one of the
people I love and I respect. D.H. Lawrence is one of the people of this century
who had tremendous insight into things. He stood there, thought for a moment,
closed his eyes, meditated.
The child said, "Is it
such a difficult question for you? Don't you know why the trees are
green?"
D.H. Lawrence said, "The
trees are green because they are green."
The child said, "Right!
That's the right answer."
But you will not agree; no
knowledgeable person will agree with D.H. Lawrence. He will say trees are green
because of chlorophyll or some other nonsense. But his answer is tremendously
beautiful: "Trees are green because they are green!"
And the child was immensely
happy. He said, "Right, that's what I also feel. We agree about it!"
Drop your knowledge, become
more childlike, and regain your joy in life. To rejoice in life is sannyas. My
sannyas is not renunciation: it is rejoicing, it is celebration.
Question 3
Beloved Master,
You have sussed me out. Now is the time to
tell my dreaded secret! I am one of your polacks. What to do?
Prem Veechi, that's the most
beautiful thing about Polacks I love and like. You are not the first Polack who
has declared it. Asha wrote a note saying that, "Beloved Master, I am also
a Polack." Anupama wrote a note saying that her lover, Amitabh, is a
Polack. And many others. This is beautiful!
And see what the British are
doing. One British lady, Prem Lisa, has written saying, "We ARE superior
so what can we do?"
Veechi, it is beautiful to be a
Polack. It is beautiful to be a little foolish, not so superior as the British.
Why don't they have ice-cubes
in Poland?
Because the woman with the
recipe died.
One Polack arrived in New York
seeking his fame and fortune. As he strolled down the sidewalk he noticed a
great long ladder propped against the side of a building, stretching upward as
far as the eye could see. He started to pass on by, but a voice high in the
clouds called down, "Climb up the ladder to success!"
Somewhat nervously he began to
ascend, rung by rung, all the way to the top of the fifty-story edifice. When
he got there, a slender, blond, blue-eyed boy seated on the ledge of the
building smiled sweetly at him.
"Hi, there!" he said.
"I am Cess!"
Question 4
Beloved Master,
If god is a she, why do you keep on calling
her a he?
And another question: you say the english
are ladies and the italians, women. Where would you put the german females?
Prem Prageeta, the German
females are precisely that - females - neither ladies nor women. 'Female' is
more scientific and more German, more scholarly, neutral; it has no evaluation
in it.
And God, in fact, is neither he
nor she.
So if you say he is a he I will
say he is a she; if you say he is a she I will say he is a he - simply to
unhinge you from your convictions.
Once it happened:
Buddha entered a village. A man
asked him as he was entering the village, "Does God exist?"
He said, "No, absolutely
no."
In the afternoon another man
came and he asked, "Does God exist?"
And he said, "Yes,
absolutely yes."
In the evening a third man came
and he asked, "Does God exist?"
Buddha closed his eyes and
remained utterly silent. The man also closed his eyes. Something transpired in
that silence. After a few minutes the man touched Buddha's feet, bowed down,
paid his respects and said, "You are the first man who has answered my
question."
Now, Buddha's attendant,
Ananda, was very much puzzled: "In the morning he said no, in the
afternoon he said yes, in the evening he did not answer at all. What is the
matter? What is really the truth?"
So when Buddha was going to
sleep, Ananda said, "First you answer me; otherwise I will not be able to
sleep. You have to be a little more compassionate towards me too. I have been with
you the whole day. Those three people don't know about the other answers, but I
have heard all the three answers. What about me? I am troubled."
Buddha said, "I was not
talking to you at all! You had not asked, I had not answered you. The first man
who came was a theist, the second man who came was an atheist, the third man
who came was an agnostic. My answer had nothing to do with God, my answer had
something to do with the questioner. I was answering the questioner; it was
absolutely unconcerned with God.
"The person who believes
in God, I will say no to him because I want him to drop his idea of God, I want
him to be free of his idea of God - which is borrowed. He has not experienced.
If he had experienced he would not have asked me; there would have been no
need.
"The person who believed
in God, he was trying to find confirmation for his belief from me. I was not
going to say yes to him - I am not going to confirm anybody's belief. I had to
say no, I had to deny, just to destroy his belief, because all beliefs are
barriers to knowing the truth. Theist or atheist, all beliefs, Hindu or
Christian or Mohammedan, all beliefs are barriers.
"And the person with whom
I remained silent was the right inquirer. He had no belief, hence there was no
question of destroying anything. I kept silent. That was my message to him: Be
silent and know. Don't ask, there is no need to ask. It is not a question which
can be answered. It is not an inquiry but a quest, a thirst. Be silent and
know. I had answered him also; through my silence I gave him the message and he
immediately followed it - he also became silent. I closed my eyes, he closed
his eyes; I looked in, he looked in, and then something transpired. That's why
he was so much overwhelmed, he felt so much gratitude, for the simple reason
that I did not give him any intellectual answer. He had not come for any
intellectual answer; intellectual answers are available very cheap. He needed
something existential - he needed a taste. I gave him a taste."
Remember this: God is neither
man nor woman; he cannot be man or woman. Either he is both or he is neither.
God is the ultimate synthesis of all opposites. Man is one extreme, woman the
other. God is not an extreme, he is the whole existence. He is vast enough to
contain the opposites; all opposites become complementaries in God.
So don't cling to my answers;
they are not answers. I am not a teacher at all. I am not here teaching you a
certain dogma, a certain creed. I am simply trying to help you to be unburdened
of your knowledge so that you can be silent with me. And I am in a hurry
because soon I want to go into silence, so you also have to be quick. Don't
linger too much. Don't go on postponing because I will not be talking for ever
and ever. Soon I want to be silent. You can sit in silence with me then, you
can sing, you can play music, you can dance, but I want to stop all kinds of
intellectual communications between you and me. I want to be existentially
related to you. I am simply preparing the ground - I am pulling out weeds.
So it depends: whatsoever your
belief is I am going to destroy it. I am against all beliefs. That's why you
will find Christian priests against me, the Catholic pope against me, the Hindu
shankaracharya against me, the Mohammedans against me, even the communists
against me; for the simple reason that I am against all beliefs, communist or
Catholic, Hindu or Buddhist, it doesn't matter - belief is belief.
I want you to be in a state of
no-belief, in a state of not-knowing. I want you to function from that state of
not-knowing, from that innocence. Only in that innocence will you be able to
know. So if you have communist weeds in you I will pull them out. If I need the
help of Catholic instruments, I will use Catholic instruments to pull out
communist weeds. If you are a Catholic and communist instruments are needed, I
will use communist instruments to pull out Catholic weeds.
My function here is that of a
surgeon. I am not much interested in what instruments are being used - surgery
has to be done. Something has to be pulled out of you. Your soil has to be
completely cleared of all stones, of all weeds. Only then will your nature
start growing roses.
So you will be puzzled. Many
times you will find my statements contradictory - they are, and I don't want to
hide the fact. They are contradictory, they are absurd! Because I will say one
thing one moment and I will contradict it the next moment. And I am not at all
consistent - or I am only consistent in one thing: about my inconsistencies,
that is my only consistency. I am consistently inconsistent, that's all. I am
always contradictory, for the simple reason that you have come here from
different backgrounds and I am trying to destroy all backgrounds, all
conditionings. So it depends on you.
God is neither a man nor a
woman. In fact, God is not a person at all. The very idea of God being a person
is anthropocentric. There is no God, in fact, but only godliness. Drop the idea
of God as a person. You all have that childish idea of God as a superfather
sitting somewhere on a golden throne in the sky, pulling everyone's strings - a
puppeteer or something, controlling, managing, a superboss, a great manager,
engineer, architect. You have this idea of God.
God is not a person at all; God
is the ultimate harmony of existence. Remember the harmony, the accord, the
music, the melody, the faraway, distant call of a cuckoo... and there is
godliness in it. This bird calling... and there is godliness in it. This
silence here in which you are all drowned... and there is godliness in it.
Godliness certainly exists.
I perfectly agree with H.G.
Wells; he has made one of the most profound statements about Buddha ever made.
He said that Buddha was the most godless yet the most godly person who ever
walked on the earth. The most godless and yet the most godly?
Yes, that's how existence is.
It is a godless existence but tremendously godly. Godliness has to be
remembered, God has to be forgotten. If you remember God you will go to the
church and to the temple and to the mosque and you will do all kinds of stupid
things which have been done down the centuries. If you remember godliness then
it is not a question of going to Kaaba or Kashi; then it is a question of
living it. Then live in a way which is godly. Live in harmony, live beautifully,
live aesthetically, live sensitively, live lovingly. Let your life be a
tremendous love affair.
Then there is no need for
prayer, because there is nobody to hear it. It is a question of meditation, not
of prayer. Then don't go on calling on God; you are wasting your time. Be
silent, more and more silent, and live out of that silence, act out of that
silence. Meet people and animals and the trees and the rocks with deep
reverence because all is divine.
Existence is nothing but God.
Existence is synonymous with
God.
Question 5
Beloved Master,
I am a tourist. I am here only for one day.
Can I also receive your grace?
Tom, so you have come! I was
always waiting. Where are Dick and Harry? And you are from California - of
course, you can't be from anywhere else. Californialand consists only of
tourists!
"Tourist" is a new
species: they are not ordinary human beings. That is a new development, a
breakthrough - or a breakdown. A tourist is a strange kind of person: he is
always rushing to nowhere, he does not know why - from one place to another
place. When he is in Kabul he thinks of Poona, when he is in Poona he thinks of
Goa, when he is in Goa he thinks of Kathmandu. He is never where he is, he is
somewhere else; he is all over the place except the place where he is. He is
never at home. You will never find him in his own home; he has always gone
somewhere else, he is always dreaming of other places.
The tourist goes on missing
everything; he is in such a rush that he can't see anything. To see things you
have to be a little more relaxed, a little more restful. But the tourist is
always on the go. He will take his breakfast in New York, his lunch in London,
and he will suffer indigestion in Poona!
He carries a camera,
inevitably, because he cannot see anything right now, so he goes on taking
photographs. Later on he makes albums - he is a bum and makes albums! And then
later on, when it is all over, he looks at the Himalayan peaks, at the Goa
beach - and when he was there he was not there! The camera was doing his work.
He need not be there; in fact, why does he bother at all? He can purchase these
photographs anywhere, better photographs than he can take because he is
amateurish; professionals are already taking photographs. He can get beautiful
albums and, sitting at home, he can look at them. But now the problem is that
he cannot sit down.
It is one of the qualities that
a few people are completely losing; they cannot sit. They have to do something,
they have to go somewhere, and they have to go fast. They don't want to lose
any time - and they are losing their whole lives in not losing time! They will
not appreciate anything because appreciation needs intimacy.
If you want to appreciate a
flower you have to sit by the side of the flower, you have to meditate, you
have to allow the flower to have its say. You have to experience the joy, the
dance of the flower in the sun, in the wind, in the rain. You have to see all
the moods of the flower in the morning, in the afternoon, in the hot sun, in
the evening, in the full moon. You have to see all the moods of the flower. You
have to become acquainted, you have to create a friendship. You have to say
"hello" to the flower; you have to get into a dialogue, an
existential dialogue. Only then can the flower reveal its secrets to you.
But the tourist is
pathological. Why is he rushing? - for the simple reason that he does not know
what to do with himself if he is left alone, if he is not to go anywhere, if he
has just to sit silently. He does not know what to do with himself. He feels
awkward, embarrassed; he has to do something.
Man has become a doer. He has
lost the quality of being a witness, a watcher.
The tourist cannot understand
the Zen approach, the essential Buddhist approach of sitting silently doing
nothing, spring comes and the grass grows by itself.
Zen people sit for years doing
nothing - just sitting, watching... what is outside and what is inside,
watching their breath...
Now, the tourist will think
this is absolutely ridiculous. Why watch your breath? What is the point of it
all? Why not watch TV, some horror film? They are glued to their chairs only
when the TV takes them into some torture story, into some murder, into some
sexual orgy, into something so they can become participants. They are no more
spectators, they become identified with the characters. They start becoming
part of the story.
Now new dramas are being
developed in the West in which the spectators can participate, for the simple
reason that spectators cannot sit for three hours, so they are allowed to come
on the stage. At least they can come on the stage from this side and go from
that side, and the play goes on. Or they can say something, they can have a
little chitchat with the actors - on the stage! Now they are even developing
new techniques where the stage should be just in the middle and it's okay if
anybody wants to come in, sit on the stage, do something, do some yoga
postures. Now in a Shakespearean drama somebody comes and stands on his head...
that will help! The people who have fallen asleep will wake up - something is
happening! Otherwise who wants to see Shakespearean drama? The universities
have bored people to death with Shakespeare; people are finished with
Shakespeare. Once they get out of the university they don't want to even hear
the name of Shakespeare. It feels like a dirty word! But the real reason is
that people cannot sit there for three hours; they have to do something. They
have to be allowed some action; then they can sit.
A strange quality has happened
to humanity, a very insane quality: that nobody can sit silently. And that is
what meditation is all about.
You ask me, "I am a
tourist. I am here only for one day."
I am grateful that you are here
for one day, Tom, because there are tourists who are not here even for one day.
"Can I also receive your
grace?" you ask.
My grace is available, but are
you available to my grace?
An American tourist was gazing
into the crater of a Greek volcano. "It looks like hell," he said.
"Ah, you Americans,"
said his guide, "you've been everywhere!"
Where are you going? And what
is the hurry? Can't you be here a little longer? You will be going to Goa - it
is almost certain, it is predictable. What are you going to do in Goa? You can
do all those stupid things here!
We run almost one hundred
therapy groups - for what? Just for people who can't sit silently, just to tire
them. So they are pushed and pulled and they are massaged and Rolfed. Do you
know what the latest thing in hell is? - Rolfing! Learn it here because
otherwise you will be in difficulty there. Ida Rolf has died and gone to hell;
now she is training people there! But we have managed all kinds of groups here.
If you pass through these one hundred groups and you can survive, then you need
not be afraid of hell at all. In fact, the Devil and his disciples will be
afraid of you! The moment they see the orange people coming they will close the
doors. They will say, "Go to the other place!"
And we do all kinds of stupid
things with expertise. In Goa you will be just amateurish! Here we have the
best experts in the world - and package deals!
Tom, just be here a little bit
more...
Question 6
Beloved Master,
I can't make up my mind whether I want to
be a psychiatrist or an author.
Veetrag, why not toss for it -
heads or tales? Get it...?
Question 7
Beloved Master,
I thought I had found a nice-a box-a, but
she turned into an ice-a box-a. What is this karma that this new york jewish
boy has to work out with german women?
Prem Samvid, every nice-a box-a
turns into an ice-a box-a finally; it is nothing special about you.
"Nice-a box-a" is only the label - "ice-a box-a" is the
reality! But you are fools, you go on being befooled by the labels. Nobody else
is responsible for it.
Every ice-a box-a carries a
beautiful facade written in big neon letters: nice-a box-a. Once you are caught, then you know: every woman is a
nun!
Hattie and Aretha were standing
on a street corner talking when two nuns passed.
"Say," asked Hattie,
"why do they call them ladies nuns?"
"Because," replied
Aretha, "they ain't had none, they ain't got none, and they ain't never
gonna get none."
"No wonder they wear
mourning!"
But every woman basically is a
nun - and no man is a monk! That is the trouble. God loves troubles! He creates
puzzles, jigsaw puzzles. There is no way to solve them; one simply learns to
accept.
Samvid, you accept the ice-a
box-a. And it is summer and you will need an ice-a box-a! And when winter
comes, we will see. Who knows about tomorrow? By that time you may be befooled
by another box-a.
And it has nothing to do with
any karma; it is simply the sheer stupidity of the human mind. Women are always
attractive when they are not available to you. They are seducers, they are all
coquettish. That is natural, that comes just naturally, part of their
femaleness. And man is constantly befooled, again and again. Once he is
befooled he thinks for a few days, becomes very wise - but only for a few days.
That wisdom does not last long; after a few days again he is deceived. He
starts thinking, "Maybe all women are not the same." But I tell you:
all women are the same and all men are the same!
Be more aware. Either accept
things as they are... then you are not miserable about it because you have no
more expectations; you know this is how things are going to happen - a deep
acceptance of things as they are. Or, don't be deceived again, if you are
fortunate to get out of this trap this time - which is not easy, which is very
difficult. To get into the trap is always easy.
And the beauty is that it is
the man who tries in every possible way to get trapped. The woman knows there
is no need to go after you, she simply waits. She believes perfectly in your
stupidity, that you will come. The more aloof she remains, the more you are
attracted. Once a woman starts running after you, you will escape, you will
become afraid. That is like a mousetrap running after a mouse! The mousetrap
simply sits there, knowing perfectly well that the mice are bound to come. Where
else can they go? And they circle around... And the mousetrap has all the
allurements - bread and butter and everything... spaghetti! And once the mouse
is in, there is no way out - no exit!
Jean-Paul Sartre has defined
hell as "No Exit." Once you get in, you are in forever, you cannot
get out of it. That's why it is called hell. And even if by some chance you get
out of it you will feel very lonely. You have become so accustomed to the
comforts of the mousetrap, to the security. There is some security; if you are
inside a mousetrap, no cat can catch you. You see the security, the safety!
Outside the mousetrap there is always danger. So sooner or later you will enter
into another mousetrap - of a different color. The hair will be different, the
nose will be different, the body will be different - just a few differences,
but the inside is the same.
Once this is understood - that
every man and every woman carries on the same program - once this is
understood, you can deprogram yourself, you can decondition yourself. Then you
can remain with a woman; there is no problem about it. She has turned into an
ice-a box-a because you still want her to be a nice-a box-a. If you don't want
her to be a nice-a box-a, then what does it matter what she is? Let her be a nice-a
box-a or an ice-a box-a - it is perfectly okay! You become cool and calm.
And the same is the problem
with the woman from the other side. Again and again she thinks that this man
will fit, this man is going to deliver the goods. No man ever delivers the
goods, no man can ever deliver, that is beyond their capacity. No man is
responsible really, but your expectations are so high that nobody can meet
them. They are impossible; hence everybody falls short. Every woman finds
sooner or later just a henpecked husband and nothing else. And who loves a
henpecked husband? No woman can love a henpecked husband.
Just watch your life, whether
you are man or woman, watch your program, your biological program. Be aware of
it so it can be deprogramed. Then wherever you are you will be free of it
because you will be free of expectations.
Question 8
Beloved Master,
I am a Russian. Can you tell me a joke
about the Russians?
Darshan, I am never miserly
about jokes. If you ask me for one I will tell you two. The first:
Brezhnev, the head of the
Russian Communist Party, invites his aged mother to leave the village where she
has always lived to come visit him in Moscow. When she arrives he proudly shows
her his huge luxury flat inside the Kremlin... the priceless Persian carpets,
the imported Swedish furniture, the antique silverware and crystal tableware,
and the latest labor-saving machines from America.
"It's beautiful,
son," she says.
"That's not all,
Mama," he replies.
So he takes her in his huge, chauffeur-driven
limousine to his country villa outside Moscow and shows her his private forest,
the swimming pool, the stables full of race-horses and the household staff of
fifty servants.
"So what do you think of
all this?" he asks, sweeping his arm around the estate.
His mother looks a bit worried
and whispers, "But, Leonid, what will you do when the communists come
back?"
And the second:
Ivan, a small Russian boy, is
having great difficulty grasping the basic principles of Soviet communism.
After several hours of instruction, his father finally says to him, "Well,
look at it this way. Imagine that I, your father, am the party, that your
mother is the motherland, that your brothers and sisters are the unions and you
are the people."
Ivan still cannot understand
the relationship between these institutions, and in a fit of rage his father
locks him inside a cupboard in the parental bedroom.
Later that night, forgetting
Ivan is still there, his father makes love to his mother. When he is finally
released by an embarrassed father the next morning, Ivan exclaims:
"Now I know what you
meant, father. The party rapes the motherland while the unions sleep and the
people stand by and suffer!"
Enough for today.