Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 9)
Chapter 3. Buddhas
only point the way
I shall endure hard words
As the elephant endures the shafts of
battle.
For many people speak wildly.
The tamed elephant goes to battle.
The king rides him.
The tamed man is the master.
He can endure hard words in peace.
Better than a mule
Or the fine horses of sindh
Or the mighty elephants of war
Is the man who has mastered himself.
Not on their backs
Can he reach the untrodden country,
But only on his own.
The mighty elephant dhanapalaka
Is wild when he is in rut,
And when bound he will not eat,
Remembering the elephant grove.
The fool is idle.
He eats and he rolls in his sleep
Like a hog in a sty.
And he has to live life over again.
My own mind used to wander
Wherever pleasure or desire or lust led it.
But now i have it tamed,
I guide it,
As the keeper guides the wild elephant.
Awake.
Be the witness of your thoughts.
The elephant hauls himself from the mud.
In the same way drag yourself out of your
sloth.
The fundamental problem is not
metaphysical, it is not concerned with the ultimate reality. It is concerned
with you, your mind, your functioning of the mind, your sleep, your state of a
sleepwalker.
Man ordinarily exists only
mechanically. He is not aware although he believes he is aware. In fact that
belief hinders him from becoming aware. Man is fast asleep not only in the
night but in the day too. He is constantly dreaming. You can watch it yourself.
Any time close your eyes, relax a little and you will be surprised: dreams
start moving. They were already moving like an undercurrent. You were occupied
with outside reality, hence you were not looking at them, but they were there
all the time. Your back was towards them. Just look a little in and you will
find thousands of dreams crowding you: possible, impossible, consistent,
inconsistent.
When you see this state, you
will understand why humanity has missed always the awakened ones. The awakened
one has no more any undercurrent of dreaming in him. He is fully alert, aware.
He speaks the language of awareness and you are asleep. There is no possibility
of communication between you and the awakened one. He shouts, he makes every
effort to reach you, to penetrate you, to penetrate your sleep and
unconsciousness, but it is thick, dense and very deep. Rarely do you hear him,
very rarely, and even when you hear him you misinterpret him. Even when you
hear him you don't listen to him. You are like a drunk who seems to be hearing,
but still goes on interpreting according to his drunken state. The whole
humanity needs to be part of an organization like Alcoholics Anonymous. You may
not be alcoholic, you may not be taking any intoxicant, you may not be taking
or injecting any drug, but the society goes on injecting into your blood, into
your being, many poisons.
For example, each child is
poisoned by the society through teaching him ambition. Ambition is a poison far
more dangerous than any alcohol can ever be, far more dangerous than marijuana
or LSD, because ambition destroys your whole life. It keeps you moving in a
false direction. It keeps you imagining, desiring, dreaming, it keeps you
wasting your life. Ambition means a subtle creation of the ego, and once the
ego is created you are in the grip of darkness. And the whole social structure
depends on ambition. Be the first! Wherever you are, whatsoever you are doing:
be the first! - as if being the first has something divine about it. By what
means you become the first is irrelevant. By right means or wrong means,
succeed! As if success in itself has become equivalent to life, synonymous with
life.
Life has nothing to do with
success. Success keeps you rushing towards the future and that becomes your
intoxicant. Hoping, hoping for the tomorrow, wasting that which you have or
that which you don't have and will never have.
Rabinowitz walked into Gold's
theatrical agency with a puppy under his arm.
"I got here an attraction
that will make you a million dollars. I got a little puppy dog that plays an
electric piano and sings 'My Yiddish Mama'."
"I don't believe it,"
said Gold.
Rabinowitz opened up a
suitcase, pulled out a tiny piano, put the puppy at it and the dog began
playing and singing.
The theatrical agent leaped up
and shouted, "My God! We will clean up a fortune!"
Just then the door opened and
in walked a big dog, grabbed the puppy by the neck, and ran out with him.
"What the hell was
that?" asked the agent.
"That is the puppy's
mother," answered Rabinowitz. "She wants him to be a doctor!"
That is being done to every
child. Your mother wants you to be a doctor, your father wants you to be an
engineer, your uncle wants you to be a scientist and so on, so forth. And
nobody asks what you are intrinsically meant to be. They go on imposing their
ideas on you. Their ambitions have remained unfulfilled, they project their
ambitions through you. They want their ambitions and egos fulfilled through
you. And they are going to remain unfulfilled again; hence you will have to do
the same damage to your own children. It is from one generation to another
generation that the poison is passed on.
For centuries man has lived in
this mad situation. Now it has reached to a climax. The whole earth has become
almost a madhouse.
If Buddha was not understood
twenty-five centuries ago, it will be even more difficult to understand him
now, because the unfulfilled ambitions of twenty-five centuries are
overwhelmingly there, they are surrounding you. You are flooded with them. All
the people who have lived and died have left their ambitions as a heritage for
you. Your eyes are blind, your ears are deaf, your hearts only pump the blood,
they no more feel...
The vicar was driving home one
night when suddenly his car made a terrible noise and ground to a halt.
Taking out his flashlight and a
box of tools, he pulled up the bonnet and started to look over the engine.
While he was tinkering away
with a spanner in hand, the local drunk staggered by and stopped to ask,
"Anything wrong, Vicar?"
"Yes. Piston broke."
"So am I," replied
the drunk.
You are not in your senses.
Hence buddhas have been misunderstood, and to understand them has become more
and more difficult. Keep it in your mind when you meditate on these beautiful
words - simple words, because buddhas have always used simple words, but with
tremendous meaning.
The Buddha says:
I shall endure hard words
As the elephant endures the shafts of
battle.
For many people speak wildly.
I shall endure hard words...
Buddha expects that that is going to be his reward. He will shower you with his
love and compassion and all that you can do is insult him, throw hard words or
stones at him. All that you can do is some kind of harm. You are going to hurt
him. Hence he says in the beginning: i shall endure hard words. He expects that,
and every buddha has expected that down the ages.
Once a disciple of Buddha was
going to preach his word to the masses. He had become enlightened, and Buddha
said, "Now you are ready to go, you need not accompany me any longer. Once
in a while you can come to see me; otherwise you can help people on your own.
Go and help people to become more aware, more meditative."
But he said also, "One
thing I would like to ask: What part of the country would you like to go
to?" There was a part of Bihar, where Buddha lived, where no sannyasin of
Buddha's had ever gone. The name of the part was Suka. This newly enlightened
sannyasin said, "I will go to Suka."
Buddha said, "Please don't
go there. Nobody has gone there yet for a certain reason. The people there are
very wild, uncultured, stupid, mischievous, murderous, very violent. Don't go
there."
But the disciple said, "If
they are in such a bad situation they need us more than anybody else. The
physician is needed only where people are ill."
Buddha said, "That I can
understand, but before you go, before I bless you to go, I will ask three
questions. First: If they insult you, what will be your response?"
The young man said, "I will
thank them, I will feel grateful that they are only insulting me. They could
have beaten me. They are good people. They are not beating me; they are simply
insulting me - and what can words do? Words are words, they can't hurt
me."
Buddha said, "The second
question: If they beat you, what will be your response?"
The young man said, "I
will thank them, I will feel grateful that they are beating me. They could have
killed me. They are only beating me - they are so compassionate, so kind. It
would have been so easy for them to kill me."
Buddha said, "Now, the
last question. If they kill you, dying, in the last moments, what will be your
response?"
The young man said, "Still
I will be grateful and thankful to them because they are taking a life away
from me in which I may have done something wrong. If I had lived more I may
have committed some crime, some sin; I may have fallen from my peak of
awareness. They are simply taking that life which is useless to me. I have
attained the treasure, I don't need life anymore. They are taking something
useless away from me and I will be grateful because, who knows, if I had lived
more, in some situation I may have gone astray."
Buddha said, "Now you can
go anywhere you like with my blessings. You have not only become enlightened,
you have become capable of being a master."
Remember it, that every
enlightened person is not a master, although every master has to be
enlightened. Many enlightened people have lived on the earth without ever
becoming masters for the simple reason that to be a master needs certain
qualities which are not necessary for being enlightened. Enlightenment is an
individual process; it is something inward, subjective, it can happen within
you. To be a master means the capacity to communicate, and not only to
communicate but to commune with others, others who are almost mad, others who
are almost incapable of seeing things.
Keller paid a lot of money for
Buck, a golden retriever. One morning Keller went duck hunting with Buck.
Within ten minutes he shot a duck that fell into a pond.
Buck ran over the surface of
the water, picked up the duck, returned running over the top of the water, and
laid it at the feet of his master.
The rest of the morning every
bird that fell into the pond when shot was retrieved by Buck running over the
top of the water without even wetting his feet.
Around noontime Keller met a
fisherman. While they chatted a duck flew by and Keller quickly sent it
hurtling down into the middle of the pond.
Once again, Buck ran out over
the top of the water, retrieved the duck, and brought it back.
"I just bought this dog
yesterday and he cost me a lot of dough," said Keller.
"Well, they pulled a fast
one on you," said the fisherman. "The dog can't even swim!"
To communicate, to commune
about the unknown, about the invisible, about the mysterious, is one of the
greatest of arts. To help people to see that which they have never seen before
although it is always around the corner, to help people to hear that which they
have never heard before although it has been always there, to help people to be
silent, to be meditative, is one of the most difficult arts because people are
mad. They don't know what silence is. To wake them up out of their sleep is
almost a miracle.
A deaf man was visiting his friend
and the dog of the friend barked at him like mad. Being unable to hear
anything, he said to his friend after they had exchanged greetings, "Your
dog did not sleep well last night."
"Why do you say
that?"
"He looked at me and kept
yawning."
A deaf man can't hear, he can't
hear the dog barking; he can only see the movement, the gesture, the lips
moving, the mouth opening and closing, and he will interpret it according to
his own understanding. He says, "He looked at me and kept yawning."
That's how we have listened to
the buddhas. We have not listened at all, we have heard their words, certainly.
If we had listened to them there would have been no need for us to crucify
Jesus or poison Socrates or kill al-Hillaj Mansoor.
Buddha says - the first thing
to remember: I
shall endure hard words as the elephant endures the shafts of battle.
It is a battle between the awakened one and the unawakened crowd. It is really
a great battle, it is a war, and the unawakened are many and the awakened is
one. And all the unawakened feel a certain humiliation in the presence of the
awakened. They feel as if his presence proves to them that they have not risen
to their real heights, that they have wasted their lives. Rather than rising to
their heights they would like to remove the presence of the awakened one so
that they can feel at ease. You always feel at ease with people who are just
like you; their presence does not in any way make you feel inferior. The
presence of a Buddha makes you feel inferior and you are bound to take revenge.
It is a battle, and a buddha has to be like an elephant who endures the shafts
in a battle.
For many people speak wildly...
Not only will their words be hard, they will be almost wild, mad. I know it
from my own experience.
For twenty years I was
traveling around this country. I have encountered all kinds of wild people. It
was necessary to invite them, it was necessary to choose my people from the
crowds, hence I had to go. But the way they were behaving was really strange. I
was not harming them; I was simply telling them to wake up in a thousand and
one ways, but they were throwing stones at me, they were disturbing my
meetings, they were preventing me from entering their towns. They were
preventing me from getting down from the train in their towns. They were doing
all kinds of things... they were really wild for no reason at all.
They are still doing it,
although I don't go to their towns; although I never move anywhere now, they
are still behaving in a wild way. Strange things they go on saying - and not
only saying, but believing. And now it is not only in India that they are
saying hard words about me, it is almost all over the world.
Just yesterday I received an
article published in London. They say that I brainwash people here and when their
brains are washed away completely, then the men are sent for smuggling jobs and
the women are sent for prostitution. That's what I am doing to you, so beware!
Once your brain is washed completely these two alternatives are left. And the
man who writes it, writes it with great confidence as if he knows.
Just the other day I received a
news from Bombay. A sannyasin has come across a few photographs in a studio.
The sannyasin could see in the pictures somebody who looks like me. At the
first glance he was shocked; when he looked closely then he could see that it
was somebody else, but with some similarity. Now, they have bribed this man to
be naked among naked women, and they have taken his pictures, and now they are
going to publish them all over the world. Great idea! I really loved it. Some
imagination.
But this is how they have been
doing always. And I am not saying that they do it knowingly. No, they may be
thinking that they are serving humanity, they are making people aware of the
danger that I am. They may have every good intention behind all these things;
that makes it more complex. They are simply servants of humanity.
Buddha says: for many people
speak wildly.
So if you want to live in this
world and be awakened you will have to be ready to accept their hard words,
their wild actions patiently, silently, with a deep understanding that what can
they do? Whatsoever they can do they are doing. It is not their fault, they are
simply asleep, and in their sleep they are saying absurd things.
When somebody is drunk and
starts saying absurd things you don't take much note of it. You say, "He
is a drunkard" - but that's how people are.
The tamed elephant goes to battle.
The king rides him.
The tamed man is the master.
He can endure hard words in peace.
The tamed elephant goes to battle...
By "tamed elephant" Buddha means "the disciplined one." The
words 'tamed elephant' are not very accurate; it will be better to say
"the disciplined one." There is a great difference between taming and
discipline. You can tame through force, coercion, violence, but you cannot
discipline through coercion. Discipline comes out of understanding. You can
help people to understand their own minds and the functioning of their minds,
the state of their sleep, mechanicalness. Out of that understanding a change
happens, a radical change happens: they become soft, compassionate, silent,
peaceful, more understanding, more available, more open.
The tamed elephant goes to battle. The king
rides him. The tamed man is the master. He can endure hard words in peace.
The disciplined man also
becomes a master, also becomes a king. He rides on his own discipline, on his
own understanding. He lives in the world with wild people, uncultured,
uneducated in the real sense of education: they don't know who they are. That
should be the first step for a right education. They are not acquainted with
their own interiority. What kind of education is this that does not make them
aware of their inner kingdom, that goes on stuffing them with nonsense, useless
information? - geography, history... what are you going to do with Genghis Khan
and Tamerlane? What is the point of it all?
But we go on stuffing people
with unnecessary information. What is the point of knowing where Timbuktu is?
Let it be where it is. Even if it is not anywhere, it doesn't matter. And
histories of murderers called kings, murderers called great conquerors,
Alexander the Great or Napoleon... And in future people will be reading about
Adolf Hitler, Benito Mussolini, Joseph Stalin, Mao Zedong, Ayatollah
Khomeiniac. It is all absolutely irrelevant.
The basic education is missing.
The first thing to be taught is meditation, the art of going in, because only
out of that arises a discipline. The word 'discipline' is beautiful; it means
the capacity to learn. A disciplined man is always ready to learn more. He is
never closed, he never claims that he knows everything. He knows what he knows,
and he also knows what he does not know - and what he knows is very small, and
what he does not know is immense. He cannot brag about his knowledge. In fact
the more he knows the more he becomes aware of the uncharted, of the unmapped,
of the unknown; and not only of the unknown but the unknowable. The more and
more he feels the mystery of existence, the more and more he wonders. That is
true knowledge, true education, true culture.
Then a man becomes a master, a
king; only then can he make an effort to reach people. Only then can he
communicate his love, his understanding, his knowing, his seeing.
Better than a mule
Or the fine horses of sindh
Or mighty elephants of war
Is the man who has mastered himself.
Buddha is not concerned with
God, Buddha is concerned with you. His religion is man-oriented, not
God-oriented. One of the great poets of India, Chandidas, has condensed
Buddha's whole teaching into a simple sentence: sabar upar manus satya - the
truth of man is the highest truth, there is no truth higher than it - tahar upar nahin;
there is nothing higher than that.
Buddha has given man such
dignity as nobody else has ever done. All other religions condemn man, they
condemn man in order to praise God; and their "God" is nothing but
their imagination. Hence there are as many gods as there are religions. There
are at least three hundred religions in the world, three thousand sects of
those religions, and there must be thirty thousand subsects. And there are as
many gods as there are sects in the world. Every sect has its own idea of god,
and God does not exist at all.
What exists is a godly
existence, a divine existence. God not as a person but as a presence certainly
exists. But to understand that presence, you have to understand your own inner
presence first, because it is from there that you can take off, it is from
there that you can have the first glimpse of what godliness is. If you have not
known yourself you will never know God.
You can go on worshipping in
the temples, in the mosques, in the churches, but your God is childish.
Compared to Buddha's teachings the gods that are worshipped look very stupid.
The worshippers look stupid, and their gods, because they are created by the
stupid worshippers, also look silly. Your gods are nothing but your
projections; they can't be more than your own state of mind. Just watch.
Different gods are created by different people. If horses could think of a
religion, then their god must be a supreme horse. It can't be man, that much is
certain. No horse can believe that man has any divinity in him. Man seems to be
the most barbarious animal. If horses were to imagine, they would imagine the
Devil in the shape of man. Man imagines God in his own image; hence Negroes
have their god like Negroes. You can see the hair of the Negro gods, they are
Negroid; you can see the lips of the Negro gods and they are thick. Hindu gods
are Hindu, and Chinese gods are Chinese, the cheek bones showing prominently
and the noses of course Chinese.
Every country, every race,
every religion thinks of God according to its own idea of how man should be.
But those are all our projections. Buddha is not concerned at all with them.
Buddha wants YOU to become a god. He wants you to become divine. You are
divine; he wants you to recognize the fact. There is nobody higher than you.
This declaration is something superb, something unique. Nobody had dared before
Buddha to respect man so much.
Father O'Reilly had taken up
golf and was practicing on the church lawn while Sister McCarthy looked on.
Father O'Reilly raised his club, and swung at the ball.
"Oh, shit! I missed,"
he shouted.
"Father O'Reilly,"
admonished Sister McCarthy, "God will be very angry if you use such
language."
"Yes, Sister,"
answered Father O'Reilly. "I shall try to control my tongue." He
raised his club for another try and swung at the ball. "Oh, shit! I
missed," he shouted.
"Father O'Reilly, I am
sure God will punish you severely if you say that again!" said the Sister.
"Yes, I will try
especially hard next time, Sister McCarthy," said the priest. He raised
his club again and swung at the ball. "Oh, shit! I missed," he
shouted.
Just then a bolt of lightning
flashed out of the sky and Sister McCarthy disappeared in a holocaust of
flames. Then a great voice boomed from the sky. "Oh, shit! I missed."
Our gods can't be very
different; they are our gods, they will reflect us. Hence Buddha says: Get rid
of all gods. What you are worshipping in the temples is nothing but your own
image. It will be better if you keep a mirror and worship your reflection in
it. That will be far better, at least far truer, less deceptive.
Buddha's emphasis is on man. It
is the only man-oriented religion in the world. And of course it transforms
man, it does not make you superstitious, it does not give you any belief. It
gives you a key to open the doors of your own being. And when you know who you
are, you will know what this whole existence is and its beauty and its grace
and its splendor.
Not on their backs
Can he reach the untrodden country,
But only on his own.
Remember, you cannot reach to
the untrodden country on anybody else's back. You will have to reach on your
own. The last words of Buddha were: Be a light unto yourself - because there is
no other light.
He gives you total freedom, he
wants you to be free from all kinds of bondages. He does not want you to be a
follower, an imitator; he wants you to be authentically your own self.
The mighty elephant dhanapalaka
Is wild when he is in rut,
And when bound he will not eat,
Remembering the elephant grove.
Even though it is a
mythological elephant, Dhanapalaka is said to be the greatest elephant who has
ever been on the earth, the wisest elephant. It is just a beautiful story. But
even Dhanapalaka with such might, with such wisdom, goes wild when he is in
rut; when he is sexually aroused he is no more in his senses, he becomes mad.
Sex is really an internal
process of intoxicating you. It is chemical. You have nothing to do with it. It
is your body chemistry, it is your physiology that releases certain chemicals
in your body and then in a sexual state you can do something for which you will
repent. Later on you will say, "I cannot believe how it happened. It
happened in spite of me." And it is not only sex; so many things are
happening in you through your physiology. When you are angry, it is not you.
Again certain poisons are released in your blood and you are under the impact
of those poisons.
Buddha says: If you start
watching the processes of sexuality, anger, greed, you will be able to see that
it is not out of you that these things are born. You are only a witness. These
things are born in your body, in your mind; and body and mind are not two
things, they are one. You are psychosomatic. The mind is your inner body, and
the body is your outer mind. Hence the body affects the mind and the mind
affects the body. You are a third force.
That third force is known only through
meditation; there is no other way to know it, because it is through meditation
that you become disidentified with the bodymind mechanism. Otherwise you can be
very mighty, very knowledgeable, even sometimes in some moments very wise, but
all that can go in a second. Your body can possess you, your physiology can
become so powerful over you that you become a slave. You lose your mastery.
Whenever you are angry, whenever you are in a sexual arousal, you are no more a
master, you are simply a slave.
Buddha is not against sex,
remember. Buddha is not against anger or greed, he is against slavery. And
anything that creates slavery in you, he would like you to transcend it.
Remember the difference. There are people who are against sex - they are
against sex because sex is hedonistic, they say; they are against sex because
sex makes you happy. They are against happiness. They can't tolerate any
happiness anywhere. They are sadists, they would like the whole world to be in
suffering; they enjoy suffering. They not only want others to suffer, they make
themselves suffer too. Suffering is their joy. That is a perverted state, a
pathological state.
Buddha is not against sex
because it gives you pleasure; he is simply trying to make you aware of the
fact that these are the things that keep you tethered into a kind of inner
slavery. You are a slave of your own chemistry, you are a slave of your own
physiology - and this slavery has to be transcended.
The mighty elephant dhanapalaka is wild
when he is in rut, and when bound he will not eat, remembering the elephant
grove. When he is under the impact of his sexuality he cannot eat;
he thinks only of the elephant grove, he thinks of female elephants. His whole
mind is possessed by fantasy - and that's true about you too. Whenever you are
under the impact of any chemical process you are no more yourself, you are
distracted from your true being. You are no longer centered. You become
eccentric. That's exactly the meaning of the word eccentric: you lose your
center, you go off center.
The fool is idle.
He eats and he rolls in his sleep
Like a hog in a sty.
And he has to live life over again.
Buddha wants you to be reminded
that if you live like a fool - idle, lazy, without making any effort to
transform your being, without making any effort to transcend your slavery,
without making any effort to become a master - if you live like a fool, just
eating and rolling in your sleep, like a hog in a sty, you will have to live
again and again the same stupid life. You will have to repeat it. In fact you
have already repeated it many times, and you have not yet understood why you
are repeating it again and again. You have to learn the lesson. The lesson is
freedom. If you don't learn it you will be sent back to the same school, to the
same grade again and again.
That is one of the greatest
contributions of Indian spirituality to the world. India has contributed a few
things; this is one of the contributions of great significance. The idea is
that existence is an opportunity for understanding, for transcending, for going
through a radical change. It is a school. Life is a school. If you learn
rightly, if you discipline yourself rightly you will not be coming back again,
you will exist in the universal. You will never become again a separate
individual; you will never have to be an ego again. You will live an egoless
existence, like the wave which has disappeared in the ocean.
That has been the ultimate goal
of the mystics: to disappear into the universal, not to be separate; to melt
and merge into the universal. Separation brings anxiety, separation brings
death, separation brings misery. We are miserable because we are feeling
separate from God or the universe. Bliss arises whenever you feel one with the
universe; when you are in harmony with the universe bliss arises. There is
great joy, rejoicing; you disappear, you die in a way, but you are reborn. You
are reborn as the ocean, you die as the dewdrop.
But if you don't learn the
lesson you will have to come back again. Unless you learn you will have to
repeat the same process.
David, a student of a
university, received a telephone call from his brother Blake, back home.
"Hi, David," said
Blake. "Your cat is dead."
David fell apart. He began
crying uncontrollably. When finally he was able to compose himself, he scolded
his brother.
"Damn it, Blake," he
told him. "You know how I loved that cat. You did not have to call me and
just spill it out, first thing - 'Your cat is dead.' You should have broken it
to me gently. You could have said, 'Dave, the cat got out of the window the
other day and crawled up the rainspout and got up on the roof and slipped and
fell,' and then you could have said it died."
"I am sorry,"
apologized Blake.
"Okay, forget it,"
said David. "How is Mom?"
"Well, Mom got out the
window the other day and crawled up the rainspout..."
It is so difficult to learn, we
go on repeating the same mistake again and again - maybe in a new way, in a new
fashion, in a new style, but it is the same mistake. You watch your life: you
have not done many mistakes, you have been doing the same mistakes again and
again. You move in a circle. How are you going to learn? I am not against
making mistakes. Make as many mistakes as you can, but please at least don't
make the same mistake twice. Then certainly there will come a great
understanding to you. One learns through mistakes, so nothing is wrong in
mistakes as such. The wrongness is in repeating them again and again. That
means you are not learning anything.
Your whole life you have been
angry. What have you learned out of it? Your whole life you have been jealous.
What have you learned out of it? If you are not learning out of these
experiences, you will have to repeat your life again. Learn out of every
experience, small or big. Whenever you are jealous you are in a fire, your
heart burns - and you know what you are doing to yourself. You know the
wrongness of it, but you know it only because others say so. It is not your own
understanding, your own insight. Let it become your own insight, so the next
time the situation arises to be jealous you can laugh at it, so the next time
the same situation arises you don't behave in the same old pattern; you can get
out of the old pattern.
To me this is sannyas: getting
always out of the old patterns, becoming always new, remaining always fresh,
young, learning. Then your whole life will teach you something of tremendous
value and you will be able to die in deep silence, peace, joy. Then there is no
coming back. Then you become part of the whole. That is nirvana, that is
moksha.
In Western religions there is
no word which can translate moksha or nirvana. In Western religions -
Christianity, Islam, are offshoots of one religion, Judaism - there are two
words, hell and heaven. In Indian religions there are three words: hell, heaven
and moksha. Hell means nothing but misery; it is a psychological state of
misery, a state of negativity, a state of darkness, of utter loneliness. And
heaven is joy, happiness, health, light. But there is a third word, moksha. Moksha
means freedom, freedom from both heaven and hell, freedom from pain and
pleasure - because pain binds you as much as pleasure binds you. Pain may be an
ugly chain and pleasure may be a beautiful chain, decorated, maybe made of
gold, but it chains you. Hell may be a poor place and heaven may be a very rich
place but poverty and riches are two aspects of the same coin. One has to be
free of both.
When you are free of both, you
are free of mind, because mind lives in the duality of heaven and hell, of
darkness and light, of misery and happiness, of day and night, of life and
death. When you have transcended both and reached to the third which is beyond,
which is transcendental, it is moksha. Moksha means nirvana; it is cessation of
the ego, and meeting and merging into the universal. That has been the goal of
the Eastern mystic.
Just as science has reached its
ultimate peaks in the West, religion has reached its ultimate peaks in the
East. Whenever East and West will meet there will be a great meeting of science
and religion. And that is going to be one of the greatest moments in the
history of humanity, because then man can live outwardly a rich life and
inwardly a full life. Then there is no need to be as poor as India is or to be
as empty inwardly as America is. One can be rich outside, and one can be rich
on the inside simultaneously.
The fool is idle. He eats and he rolls in
his sleep like a hog in a sty. And he has to live life over again.
An elderly German sat before
the fire and in a reflective moment spoke to his dog, "You is only a dog,
but I wish I was you. Wen you go your bed in, you shust turn round dree times
and lie down; wen I go de bed in, I haf to lock up de place, and wind up de
clock, and put out de cat, and undress myself, and my wife wakes up and scolds,
and den de baby wakes and cries and I haf to walk him de house around, and den
maybe I get myself to bed in time to get up again.
"Wen you get up, you shust
stretch yourself, dig your neck a little, and you was up. I have to light de
fire, put on de kiddle, scrap some vit my wife, and get myself breakfast. You
be lays round all day and haf blenty of fun. I haf to work all day and haf
blenty of drubble. Wen you die, you was dead; wen I die, I haf to go somewhere
again."
You need not if you learn; if
you learn the lesson you need not go anywhere again. You disappear into the
whole, you are everywhere and nowhere then. You are no more an entity, confined
into boundaries.
My own mind used to wander
Wherever pleasure or desire or lust led it.
But now I have it tamed,
I guide it,
As the keeper guides the wild elephant.
This also is something new in
Buddha. Christians believe Jesus is special; he is the only begotten Son of
God. Hindus believe Krishna is special; he is the perfect incarnation of God.
Mohammedans believe Mohammed is special; he is the only prophet of God, the
only messenger. Jainas believe Mahavira is special; he is the last, the
twenty-fourth tirthankara, the last
prophet of Jainism; there will be no more prophets after Mahavira. Unique they
are, these people, special, not just ordinary human beings like you and me.
Buddha is different again. He
says, "I am an ordinary human being." He says, my own mind used to wander.
Gospels never say anything like
that, no Hindu scriptures will ever say anything like that about Krishna or
Rama because that will make them ordinary like you. They are born gods.
Buddha simply says, "I was
a human being just like you. I was groping in darkness just like you. I was
doing all kinds of things as you are doing; I am in no way special. All that
happened to me is happening to you and something more has happened to me which
can happen to you if you allow it to happen. I was as ordinary as you are; just
only one thing has happened to me which has made all the difference. I have
become aware and you are unaware. You are carrying the truth in you as much as
I am. I am aware of it; you are not aware of it.
"But remember, whether you
know the truth or you don't know, it makes no difference to the truth. The
truth remains true. Knowing or not knowing does not make any difference. Truth
is truth. It is behind you," Buddha says, "it is in front of me. I
have turned in; I have taken the hundred-eighty-degree turn, that's all. It is
not much to brag about. You can do it."
This is again very special
about Buddha. He never claims that he is unique; hence he is of more help to
humanity than anybody else. Because he says: I was just like you... My mind used
to wander wherever pleasure or desire or lust led it.
He does not deny that there was
lust in him from the very beginning. He does not deny that there was desire, he
does not say that he was born pure. He simply says, "I was as much after
pleasure - I was as much full of desire as you are, and I was as much full of
lust as you are. So nothing is wrong in lust, in desire, in pleasure; if
anything is wrong it is in your unawareness. Be aware; and lust disappears, and
desire disappears and the constant greed for pleasure disappears."
When you become aware, you are
so at ease, so full of bliss, who bothers about pleasure? When you have
diamonds who cares about pebbles? When you have inexhaustible sources of inner
bliss who goes on begging for small pleasures, ugly pleasures? - they simply
disappear.
Buddha says: but now i have
it tamed, I have disciplined my mind, I have meditated, I have gone
into the functioning of the mind, I have seen it through and through. Now I
have become the master. Seeing it I have become the master. Knowing it I have
become the master. Understanding makes you the master. Now i guide it, as the keeper guides the wild
elephant.
So don't feel guilty - that is
Buddha's message - don't feel guilty for your greed, don't feel guilty for your
anger, don't feel guilty for your lust. All that you need to do is become aware
of your greed, become aware of your lust, become aware of your desire, and see
the miracle happen. Just as you bring light in the room and darkness
disappears, exactly like that, precisely like that, as you bring awareness in
all desire, all greed, all anger, all lust simply disappears as if it has never
been there. Don't try to escape, don't try to renounce, because if you renounce
you are simply renouncing the opportunity.
A man escapes from his wife,
goes to the Himalayas or moves to a monastery... There are monasteries where no
woman has been ever allowed in; there are monasteries where once you go in, you
are not allowed to go out again your whole life. Now, this is not a
transformation, this is simply escaping from the opportunity.
Dick brought Sally to his bed.
"What would you like to do?" he asked.
"I would like to see
today's newspaper," she said.
"Sure," said Dick,
"I will send my dog for it. He is so smart he will even bring back the
change." Dick gave the dog ten dollars and sent him for the paper. In an
hour when the dog didn't return, Dick and Sally went out looking for him. They
found the dog making it with a French poodle.
"Did he ever do this
before?" asked Sally.
"No," said Dick,
"this is the first time he ever had any money."
Opportunity... You can escape
from the opportunity, that will not change your being. Outwardly you will
become a monk; inwardly you will remain the same person. Outwardly you will
become a nun; inwardly you will remain the same person. And the real question is
of your inner consciousness, not of your outer circumstances. The mind is not
bad if it is used as a mechanism and you are the master. The mind is beautiful
as a servant. When it becomes the master then it is ugly. Let consciousness be
the master, the guide, and let the mind be like an elephant tamed, disciplined.
How can you do it?
Buddha says:
Awake.
Be the witness of your thoughts.
In these simple words he has
given to the world the greatest meditation: vipassana. More people have become
enlightened through vipassana than through any other method. There are
thousands of methods but vipassana seems to be the easiest, the most perfect,
and very natural. It does not demand any unnaturalness from you.
Reverend Johnson, an old black
preacher, was warning his parishioners about sin.
"Sin," he said,
"is like a big dog. There is the big dog of pride, and the big dog of
envy, and the big dog of gluttony, and finally there is the big dog of sex.
Now, folks, you gotta kill those big dogs before you are ever gonna get to
heaven. It can be done - I know - because I've done it. I killed the big dog of
envy, and the big dog of pride, and the big dog of gluttony - and yes,
brethren, I killed the big dog of sex!"
"Brother!" came a
voice from the back of the church, "Are you sure that last dog didn't die
a natural death?"
You cannot kill these dogs.
Either they die a natural death - but that does not bring any transformation to
you - or you have to become masters. There is no need to kill... Buddha will
not suggest you kill anything. Why kill anything? If you kill anger you will
never be compassionate in your life, because it is anger, and the energy
involved in anger, which becomes compassion. If you kill sex you will be simply
impotent, that's all; you will not attain to love. It is sex transformed that
creates love energy. Love energy is confined to sex. When you bring awareness
to it, sex disappears but love energy is released. Anger disappears but
compassion is released. Greed disappears and sharing comes in its place.
It is not a question of
killing; these are energies. Don't be such a fool as to kill anything, because
if you kill it you will miss something very essential in your life. Transform.
Religion has to be the real alchemy, the science of transformation. It is not
murderous.
But the stupid religious people
go on murdering, destroying. They are destructive, self-destructive. Hence even
if they drop their anger they don't become graceful, they don't attain to
creativity, they don't contribute to the world and its beauty. They are
burdensome, they are not in any way a help. They are a hindrance in the
progress of humanity. Buddha will not suggest to you to kill anything. He says:
Just be awake. Be
the witness of your thoughts.
Anger is a thought, sex is a
thought. Just watch, be alert, let them move on the screen - anger, greed, lust
- and you remain aloof, cool, just a witness. In the beginning it is very
difficult, but only in the beginning. If you persist then within three to nine
months you will be able to do the impossible.
One day it happens that your
witness has become so perfect that the screen remains empty, nothing passes -
no thought, no desire. That day you have attained to the first state of
samadhi, the first satori. And the first satori is the beginning; it triggers
many satoris in you, culminating ultimately into samadhi, into nirvana.
When the mind becomes just a
pure mechanism... when you want to use it, you use it, when you don't want to
use it, it remains silent.
The elephant hauls himself from the mud.
In the same way drag yourself out of your
sloth.
Buddha insists again: nobody
can pull you out of your mud, nobody can help you. So don't believe that Jesus
will come and everything will be solved. Jesus has been before and nothing has
been solved. Don't believe in salvation through somebody; no messiah can help
you. Buddhas only point the way. You have to do everything on your own. Nobody
can do it for you. I cannot see for you, I cannot hear for you; you have to do
it on your own.
There are a few things which
cannot be done by anybody else for you, on your behalf, and those are the most
precious things which only you can do. Awareness is one of those most precious
things.
Buddha says: the elephant hauls himself from the mud.
Just like that,
in the same way drag yourself out of your sloth.
By awareness Buddha does not
mean presence of mind. Many people misunderstand. Whenever Buddha uses the
words 'awake', 'awareness', people think he is talking about presence of mind.
Presence of mind is presence of mind; awareness has nothing to do with the
mind. Awareness is something beyond the mind.
Presence of mind is very
ordinary. In any danger it comes to you. If somebody is going to shoot you, you
will have presence of mind in that moment. If a tiger suddenly jumps in front
of you, you will have presence of mind; you will do something which you have
never done before.
Frank and Gene were tossing
down a few brews at the neighborhood pub.
"Boy, did I have a close
call with Angie last night," said Frank.
"What happened?"
asked Gene.
"Well, I got home real
late, so I took off my shoes, climbed the stairs, opened the door of the
bedroom, tiptoed in, and closed the door without making any noise. Just as I am
about to get into bed, the wife wakes up and says, 'Is that you, Toto?'"
"What did you do?"
"For once in my life I
really used my head," said Frank. "I licked her hand."
This is presence of mind. She
is thinking he is the dog, Toto. But presence of mind is not awareness; it is a
small phenomenon, a tiny thing. Mind can do it.
Awareness is something beyond
the mind. You have to watch the mind, you have to watch the presence of mind as
much as absence of mind. You have to watch both, you have to go beyond both. It
comes, it certainly comes, and when it comes it takes all that is your misery,
your ego, your insensitivity, your cruelty. It takes all mud from you... and
out of that mud arises the lotus, the one-thousand-petaled lotus of samadhi in
you.
Enough for today.