Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 9)
Chapter 6. Truth
cannot be lost
Question 1
Beloved Master,
I am rejecting my mind and clinging to
awareness.
Prem Shahido, mind has not to
be rejected at all; if you reject it, it will remain. Rejection means
repression. Anything rejected never leaves you; it simply moves from the
conscious to the unconscious, from the lighted part of your being to the dark
layers where you cannot face it. You become oblivious of it, but it is there,
more alive than ever. It is better to face the enemy than to keep the enemy at
your back; that is far more dangerous.
And I have not told you to
reject the mind. Mind is a beautiful mechanism, one of the miracles of
existence. We have not been able yet to make anything comparable to human mind.
Even the most sophisticated computers are nothing compared to it. A single
human mind can contain all the libraries of the world; its capacities are
almost unbounded. But it is a machine, it is not you. To get identified with it
is wrong, to make it your master is wrong, to be guided by it is wrong. But to
be the master and the guide is perfectly right. The mind as a servant is of
tremendous value, so don't reject it. To reject it will impoverish you, it will
not enrich you.
I am not against the mind; I am
in favor of transcending it. And if you reject you cannot transcend. Use it as
a stepping-stone. It all depends on you: you can make it a hindrance if you
start thinking that the mind has to be rejected, denied, destroyed; or you can
make it a stepping-stone if you accept it, if you try to understand it. In the
very effort of understanding it, transcendence happens. You go beyond it, you
become a witness.
And, Shahido, a second thing...
You say, "I am clinging to
awareness."
That is bound to happen. If you
reject mind you will start clinging to awareness. And clinging is nothing but
mind functioning from the back door. Clinging is a process of mind. But that is
bound to happen to people who reject, repress.
The question is of transformation.
The mind has to be used rightly; then there will be no clinging to awareness.
Otherwise, afraid of the mind, that it may come back, you will cling to
awareness - and in clinging it has already come back, it is already there.
Clinging is mind; nonclinging is intrinsic to awareness. You cannot cling to
awareness; if you cling, it is just a mind phenomenon. Your awareness too is
just a pseudo thing created by the mind because you were asking too much for
it. It is false, utterly false; if you have to cling to it, it is false.
Real awareness remains with
you; you need not cling to it. Who will cling to it? You are awareness. Who
will cling to whom? In awareness there are not two - the clinger and the object
of clinging; in awareness you are one. There is only awareness and nothing
else. One cannot cling to awareness. But it is bound to happen if you reject
the mind; the very first step has gone wrong. Don't reject it - understand it.
And in fact, the word
'understand' is very significant. When you understand something it stands under
you. You become transcendental, you go beyond it; it is below you. It has its
utility; great utility. There will be no science without mind and there will be
no technology without mind. All human comforts will disappear without human
mind. Man will fall back into the world of the animals or even far below
without the mind. Mind has given much.
The problem is not the mind;
the problem is your identification with it. You think you are it, that is the
problem. Disidentify. Watch the mind, and you BE the watcher and let the mind
be there watched, witnessed, observed. And a great radical change happens
through observation. Mind functions far more efficiently when you observe it
because all that is rubbish drops and mind need not carry unnecessary weight;
it becomes light. And when you become a watcher, mind can have some rest too.
Otherwise your whole life mind is working, working, day in, day out, year in,
year out; it stops only when you die. It creates a deep fatigue, mental fatigue.
Now scientists say even metals
become tired - metal fatigue. So what to say about the mind which is very
subtle, which is very delicate? Handle it carefully. But you remain aloof,
unconcerned, uninvolved. When you are writing you don't become the fountain
pen, although you cannot write without it. A good fountain pen is very
essential for good writing. If you start writing with your fingers nobody will
be able to read what you have written, not even you, and it will be very
primitive. But you are not the fountain pen, and the fountain pen is not the
writer but only a writing instrument.
The mind is not the master but
only an instrument in the hands of the master.
Shahido, be more alert, aware,
but don't cling to it. Clinging will destroy the whole beauty of it. Why cling?
What is the fear? We cling only out of fear. You are awareness, you cannot lose
it. Even now, when you are unaware of the fact that you are awareness, you have
not lost it.
Truth cannot be lost. Whether
you know it or you know not, it makes no difference. The truth remains the
truth, known or unknown. Your innermost being is still pure awareness. You live
on the circumference, hence you are not able to see your own center.
Sannyas means exploring your
interiority, moving towards the center. That's what meditation is all about.
When you become centered, suddenly there is great freedom because you know you
are not the mind and you are not the body. That does not mean that you start
rejecting the body or the mind. You respect the body, you respect the mind. You
love the body more so, more than ever. It is a beautiful house. It is your home
and you have to live in it seventy, eighty, ninety years. And it is serving you
so beautifully; its service is of great value. You respect it, you befriend it,
you take care of it. But still you know: "I am neither the body nor the
mind. I am consciousness."
And then there is no question
of clinging. Knowing that "I am consciousness," you become part of
God. Then there is no birth for you, no death for you. Then you ARE part of
eternity, and to be part of eternity is to be blissful. When you know you
cannot die, all fear disappears and the energy involved in fear is released as
love. When you know you are part of the whole there is no anxiety left, no anguish
possible, and the energy involved in anxiety, in anguish, is released. You
become compassion, love, joy; it starts overflowing you. You are not only a
blessing to yourself, you become a blessing to everybody else; you become a
blessing to existence itself.
Question 2
Beloved Master,
Is it necessary to go through dream
analysis for attaining enlightenment?
Gautami, dream analysis cannot
help you to become enlightened, but dream witnessing can certainly help you.
That is the difference between
psychology and religion: psychology analyzes dreams; religion watches them,
helps you to become aware of them. And the moment you become aware of your
dreams they disappear; they can't exist for a single moment longer. They can
exist only when you are utterly unaware; for their existence that is an
absolute condition.
A buddha never dreams, he
cannot dream. Even if he wants to dream he cannot. Dreaming simply disappears
from his being because even in the night while he is asleep, deep down in his
innermost core he is awake. A flame of awareness continues and he knows what is
happening. He knows that his body is asleep. Witnessing becomes so ingrained
that not only in the day but in the night also it continues. And then dreaming
disappears. You dream because you desire; your dreams reflect your desires.
Now, you can go on dissecting your desires for lives, and you will not attain
to anything. You can go on analyzing your dreams...
There are many systems of
analysis. If you go to the Freudians they will analyze your dreams in one way:
they will interpret everything as sexuality. Imaginable things, unimaginable
things, everything has to be reduced to sexuality. If you go to the Adlerians
with the same dreams, they will interpret them according to their ideology.
Then every dream is reduced to Adler's idea: will to power. Then everything is
nothing but will to power; each dream has to fit with his philosophy. And so is
the case with the Jungians and others.
And one thing has been observed
again and again - a very strange phenomenon happens. If you go into
psychoanalysis of any kind - Freudian, Jungian, Adlerian - you start dreaming
in the way your psychoanalyst expects you to dream. If you go to the Freudian,
sooner or later you start dreaming according to his idea. People are very
obliging; they feel sorry for the poor analyst. And he is making such hard
effort to analyze your dreams. First he starts giving you interpretations and
then you start dreaming according to his interpretations. Soon you fit with
each other - you are as if made for each other. Then he is happy and you are
happy. He is happy because his theories are confirmed and you are happy that
you are a good boy, dreaming according to the great expert. And when you see
your psychoanalyst happy, YOU feel happy. Seeing you feel happy, he feels
happy. It is such a mutual arrangement! And nobody is really helped... dreaming
continues.
I have never come across a
fully psychoanalyzed person, because according to Freud, a fully psychoanalyzed
person is one whose dreaming has disappeared. And that was not true even about
Sigmund Freud himself; he continued to dream to his very last. And he was very
afraid of psychoanalysis, you will be surprised to know, because he knew his
disciples would only prove that all his dreams were sexual.
Once Jung wanted to
psychoanalyze Freud. Jung was his most beloved disciple in those days, just as
once Judas was one of the most beloved disciples of Jesus. And what Judas did
to Jesus, Jung did to Freud. People whose names start with 'J' are dangerous!
Freud and Jung were traveling
and they started talking. Jung said, "This idea occurs to me again and
again: that I would like to psychoanalyze you. You have not been
psychoanalyzed. In fact, nobody who has not been psychoanalyzed should be
authorized to psychoanalyze other people. And you are the founder - you should
be psychoanalyzed."
Freud actually started
trembling and he said, "No, no, never! That will destroy my
prestige."
Jung said, "If that is so,
then it has already destroyed your prestige, at least for me. If you are so
much afraid to talk about your dreams, that simply shows what kind of dreams
you must be having."
There is not a single person in
the world who is totally psychoanalyzed. And unless dreams disappear, your mind
will remain in a turmoil. Dreams simply say you don't know how to put your mind
off; you don't know where the switch exists so that you can put it on and off
according to your needs. When you are going to sleep you can't put if off; it
goes on chattering. Even if you say to it, "Shut up!" it does not
listen to you at all; it does not care. And you know perfectly well it won't
listen. You feel so impotent as far as your own mind is concerned that you have
to move according to it, it does not move according to you. If it wants to
chatter it will chatter; when you fall asleep, still it goes on chattering.
The art of meditation makes you
aware where the switch is: it is in witnessing. Witnessing is the switch that
can put your mind on or off. You become the master, so when you want to use it
you use it and when you don't want to use it you simply put it off and it gives
rest to the mind.
Hence the mind of a meditator
is far more brilliant, far more intelligent, far more alive, sensitive, than
the mind of a nonmeditator, because the mind of a meditator has a few periods
of deep deep rest that rejuvenates it. If you see a meditator and he is not
intelligent, that simply means he is not a meditator at all. A meditator cannot
be stupid, a meditator cannot be mediocre; that is impossible. If he is a
meditator, then he will radiate sharpness, intelligence, brilliance. He will be
a genius, he will be creative.
In fact, if we can create more
and more meditators in the world, in every dimension of life there will be more
creativity, more intelligence, less stupidity, less lethargy. But it has not
happened down the ages. Just the opposite has happened because in the name of
meditation, something else has continued. In the name of meditation people
either have been concentrating or contemplating. Both are not meditation.
Concentration is just the
opposite of meditation and so is contemplation, in a different way.
Concentration means closing your mind, focusing your mind, on a certain point,
on a certain object. You are so focused on a certain object that you become
unaware of everything else; that is concentration. It excludes everything else;
it includes only one thing: the object of your concentration, whatsoever it is.
And meditation means absolute
openness. It includes all, it excludes nothing. Hence it is not concentration
at all. It is a state of vulnerability, openness, availability.
The person who is trying to
concentrate can be distracted. He can be easily distracted by anything. Just a
dog in the neighborhood starts barking and he is distracted, a child starts
giggling and he is distracted, a bird starts singing and he is distracted.
Anything will do, as if he is just waiting for anything to distract him; he is
tired of focusing his mind. It is a tension, it is a strain.
Meditation is not a tension, it
is not a strain. One is never tired of meditation. It is relaxation - how you
can be tired of it? It is deep rest, it is utter restfulness. One is available
to everything; nothing can distract you.
You can listen to me either as
concentration or as meditation. If you listen to me as concentration, then
anything can distract. A car passes by... the cuckoo starts calling from the
distance - the chattering of the birds. Anything can distract you, any small
thing. Not that the birds are interested in distracting you; they are not
concerned with you at all. But you will feel anger arising in you.
That's why so-called religious
people become more angry than anybody else. They live almost in rage. If a
single person in your house becomes religious, he is enough to create trouble
for everybody, because each small thing distracts him and then he takes
revenge.
You can listen to me in
meditation. Then you are not concentrating on me; you are simply sitting
available, open. The birds go on chattering; that too comes to you, but because
you are not concentrating it is not a distraction - it enriches. What I am
saying to you is enriched. The singing of the birds becomes a background to it.
And you never feel angry and you never feel tense.
Contemplation is also not
meditation. Contemplation means thinking. Thinking can be of two types. One is
zigzag, in jumps from one object to another, a little crazy; that is ordinary
thinking. Anything leads to anything. A dog starts barking and you start
thinking about your girlfriend. There seems to be no relationship, but maybe
your girl had said once, "I go on barking at you and you don't
listen!" Suddenly the dog reminds you. Or maybe she also has a dog who
barks at you whenever you go to see her. And then from one thing to another...
you will not stay with anything long. The girlfriend reminds you of her mother,
and so on, so forth. Nobody knows where you are going to end. When you will
look retrospectively you will be surprised: just the dog barking in the
neighborhood started the whole process of thought.
Contemplation means remaining
concerned with one object, thinking about it and only about it. Thinking has a
consistency. If you are thinking about love, then you are thinking about love
and all its aspects. You don't jump from one thing to another. Yes, you have a
little rope just so that you can move around the subject of love, but you keep
moving around it, around and around. You forget the whole world - love becomes
your world for the moment.
Meditation is not contemplation
either because it is not thinking at all - consistent, inconsistent, crazy,
sane. It is not thinking at all; it is witnessing. It is just sitting silently
deep within yourself, looking at whatsoever is happening inside and outside
both. Outside there is traffic noise, inside there is also traffic noise - the
traffic in the head. So many thoughts - trucks and buses of thoughts and trains
and airplanes of thoughts, rushing in every direction. But you are simply sitting
aloof, unconcerned, watching everything with no evaluation.
You ask me, Gautami, "Is
it necessary to go through dream analysis for attaining enlightenment?"
No, not at all. Have you ever
heard anybody becoming enlightened through psychoanalysis? Yes, people have
become mad, but nobody has become enlightened.
Psychoanalysis depends on
analysis of the mind, and they don't see anything else in you. The body is
taken care of by the physiologists; then all that remains is a constant traffic
in the mind either of thoughts or of dreams, memories, imagination, desires.
The psychoanalyst has nothing else to do: he looks into your dreaming process.
And why does he choose dreams? - because if he asks you what you think when you
are awake you are never authentic, you are never sincere. You are so deceptive,
so dishonest, that whatever you say about your thinking is bound to be managed;
it is not going to be true. You will say only that which is worth saying and
you will delete many things. You will edit your thoughts. You will not allow
the psychoanalyst to look into your thoughts without any censor, without any
editing. You will not allow him the raw material of your thoughts because that
will look like you are insane.
You can try it. Sit in your
room, close all the doors so nobody can come in, and start writing whatsoever is
happening in the mind - whatsoever it is. Just go on writing for fifteen
minutes, then read it - and you will be shocked. This is your mind? All these
thoughts are going on in your mind? Are you mad or something? You can't show it
to anybody.
It is good that people don't
have windows in their heads; otherwise the wife will look through the window in
the head of the husband and she will find everything. She finds everything
anyway, window or no window!
The psychoanalyst has to depend
on your dreams because in dreams it is very difficult for you to deceive him.
You don't know yourself what your dreams mean so you have to say them as they
are, and he can find a few clues about you. But this is not going to make you
enlightened. This may help you a little bit to become more normal, but what is
normality? Even the people who are normal are not normal - they are normally
abnormal, that's all. So you will be normally abnormal.
There are two kinds of abnormal
people in the world: normally abnormal, abnormally abnormal. The work of the
psychoanalyst is to bring abnormally abnormal people to the first category:
normally abnormal. He helps you to adjust with the society, with people, with
yourself, but he can't help you to become enlightened.
You can go on and on analyzing
your dreams and you will never come to your witnessing soul through that
analysis. How can you come to the witness by analyzing the dreams? One dream
will lead you into another dream. Maybe you will become a very skillful
dreamer, very artful. Maybe you will start dreaming in a better way, in a more
scientific way, but dreams are dreams. They cannot take you to the witness of
the dreams which is your reality.
Al: "I had a great dream -
I dreamed I broke the bank at Monte Carlo."
Charles: "I had a great
dream too - I dreamed I was in a room with Sophia Loren and Brigitte
Bardot."
Al: "Wow! Bardot and
Sophia! Why didn't you call me?"
Charles: "I did, but your
maid said you were in Monte Carlo!"
You can analyze this dream.
What will be the gain? Neither the bank in Monte Carlo nor Sophia Loren or
Bardot - nothing is going to be your gain. But the psychoanalyst will analyze
it. If you go to the Adlerian, his emphasis will be on the bank in Monte Carlo:
will to power, money, prestige. He will forget all about Sophia Loren and
Bardot; he is not interested - that is nothing. If you go to the Freudian he
will not think about Monte Carlo and the bank at all; that is nonessential,
accidental. The real thing is Sophia Loren and Bardot.
And if you go to a Jungian,
then nobody knows what he will do with your dream. He is so confused! But he
will make much fuss about it, that much is certain. He will create much dust -
esoteric dust. He may start looking into your dream and finding things which
you would have never suspected - some ancient mysteries, maybe Egyptian. Or he
may go even farther back - Atlantis. He is really a grave digger. And he goes
on finding things which are not there.
You must have heard the
definition of a philosopher. The philosopher is a man who is blind looking in
the dark night, in a dark room, for a black cat which is not there. But Jung
FINDS it there! That's the beauty of Jung - he finds the black cat which is not
there; he finds it still. And he creates so much smoke and dust that you cannot
deny him. He creates great argument. And he himself is very much afraid of
going towards the witness.
He has been in India, and there
was a man - a man the like of whom happens only once in a while. Maharshi Raman
was alive. And wherever Jung went in India, almost everywhere people suggested
to him, "Why are you wasting your time here and there, going to Varanasi
and Bombay? Why don't you go to Maharshi Raman?" People knew that he is a
great psychoanalyst, world-famous. "You should go to Maharshi Raman, who
has gone beyond the mind. Sitting by his side you may have a few glimpses. You
may come away a totally changed person."
But Jung avoided him, he did
not go there. On the contrary, back home he started writing against Eastern
mysticism. He could not write against mysticism as such because he was himself
creating great mysteries - superficial because he was not an initiate in any
mystery school. He was gathering things from superficial sources. He had never
been in contact with a living master. He had come so close to a buddha -
Maharshi Raman - yet he missed. And in self-defense he started writing back
home that Eastern mysticism is not meant for the Western mind - as if there are
Eastern souls and Western souls too. Yes, there is a difference in the skin of
the Eastern people and the Western people; it is not much of a difference, just
a little color pigment - four annas' worth. And remember, the black person has
it more than the white. He is more valuable - four annas more valuable -
because he has a certain pigment that makes him black which the white skin is
missing.
And yes, there is a certain
difference in the mind, because the Eastern mind is conditioned in a different
way and the Western mind is conditioned in a different way. Conditionings are
different, but the witness is the same. Jesus and Buddha, Mohammed and
Mahavira, are not different. Saint Francis and Ramakrishna, Eckhart and Krishnamurti,
are not different. One who has known the witness is neither Eastern nor
Western. He is no more the body and no more the mind - how can he be Eastern or
Western?
And Jung started talking this
nonsense in self-defense. He said, "That's why I avoided Maharshi Raman,
because Eastern methods are not suitable to us. The West needs its own yoga,
the West needs its own meditations." What difference can there be in being
aware? Whether you are in the East or in the West, awareness will be the same -
and that is the essential core of meditation.
They are great interpreters of
dreams... the whole world of the psychoanalyst is the world of dreams. And as
far as the enlightened person is concerned, for him the whole world is nothing
but a dream. For the psychoanalyst, dreams are his whole world, and for the
enlightened person the whole world is nothing but a dream.
The analyst was annoyed with
her patient who said she did not dream the night before.
"Look," he warned
her, "if you don't do your homework, I can't help you."
Dreaming is a necessity; that
is your homework. Do it at home and then come to the psychoanalyst, and he is
there with his whole expertise to analyze it.
Gautami, enlightenment means
going beyond desires and dreams. There is no need to waste your time in
analyzing. Just go beyond, put your whole energy in going beyond. And when you
go beyond, all dreams disappear on their own accord.
Question 3
Beloved Master,
Why do I keep losing everything but my ego?
Sughanda... Odum, an elderly
black called before the justice of the peace, was charged with keeping a
vicious dog.
"That dog bit my girl
Bobbie Jo three times," complained the mother.
"Did your dog bite little
Bobbie Jo?" asked the judge.
"No, sir," said Odum.
"My dog, he never bit any little girl."
"Well," said the
judge to the mother, "this man says that the dog did not bite your little
girl."
"I will go home and bring
Bobbie Jo here and show you," said the woman.
"Hold on," said the
black man. "In the first place, the dog is so old he ain't got no teeth
and he can't bite. In the second place, the dog is blind and could not see
Bobbie Jo anyhow. In the third place, the dog is deaf and can't hear a thing.
And in the fourth place, he ain't my dog in the first place."
Sughanda, you cannot lose your
ego because in the first place it does not exist at all. You can lose
everything else because those things really exist, but how can you lose
something which does not exist? You cannot lose your shadow; it does not exist.
And the ego is far more false than your shadow; it is not even a shadow. It is
not substance, it is not even a shadow. It is just an idea planted by society
within you. It has no reality, so how can you lose it?
The only way to lose it is to look
for it - and you will not find it. And when you don't find it you have lost it.
Go within and look for it, search for it.
That's what the meditators have
been doing for centuries. They close their eyes and they go in and they search
for the ego, where it is - and they can't find it. When you can't find it and
you have looked in all the nooks and all the corners of your being and it is
not found anywhere, then you know you have lost it. In the first place, really
it was never there; it was only your belief.
It is like you see a rope in
the dark and you believe it is a snake. Then you are trembling and perspiring
and running and trying to save yourself from the snake - which does not exist
at all. All your running and your perspiration and all your shouting is just
futile, but it can be dangerous to you. Even a false snake can kill you - you
may have a heart attack! That's the trouble with false things; you cannot lose
them - they are not there - but they can do real things to you.
You may have experienced it
sometimes in your dream, when you are having a nightmare. You are running, and
a tiger is chasing you, and the tiger is coming closer and closer, and you are
running faster and faster and you know that only few moments are left. You can
almost feel the hot breath of the tiger on your back.
And then suddenly you come to a
cul-de-sac; the road ends. You can't go back - the tiger is there; you can't go
ahead. If you jump into the valley you will be dead before you reach the
bottom.
In that state you wake up. The
nightmare is too much; it wakes you up. Your heart is palpitating, your breath
is disturbed, you are perspiring on a cold winter night. And there is no tiger -
just your wife putting her hand on your back, breathing so close... You are
awake, the nightmare has disappeared. You know there is no tiger - "It is
only my poor wife" - but still, for a few minutes the perspiration will
continue, the heart will go on beating faster, you will start up. Still,
knowing perfectly well that all was false, you are trembling.
Exactly is the case with the
ego: it is a false entity. When you wake up you can't find it. So the question
is not of dropping it. How can you drop something which is not? The question is
seeing into it, looking for it, searching for it.
I don't say to you, "Seek
and search for God." That is nonsense. How can you seek and search for
God, and where? You don't know the address. And even if you meet the gentleman
you won't recognize him. Even if he says hello, you won't understand his
language. He does not speak German, he does not speak French, he does not speak
Italian - not even Italian!
But every nation believes that
"He speaks our language." The Indians think that he speaks Sanskrit,
that he himself has written the Vedas. And the Mohammedan thinks he speaks Arabic
- he himself has spoken in Arabic through Mohammed, the only messenger. And of
course, the Jews think they are the chosen people of God - he speaks Hebrew.
After the second world war one
German general was talking to an English general. He said, "I can't
believe how it happened, how we failed. We had better armies than you, more
advanced technology, we were better equipped in every way. How did we fail and
you succeeded?"
The English general smiled and
he said, "The reason is we used to pray before starting to fight every
day."
The German said, "But we
also did. We also used to pray before we started to fight."
The Englishman said, "That
we know, but we used to pray in English and you in German - and he does not
understand German at all."
Every country believes its
language is divine, God's language. But God knows only the language of silence -
and you don't know silence. So when he will say hello it will be a very silent
hello. It will not be uttered, it will not be said; it will be only a gesture.
And it is almost impossible for you to hear it because it cannot be heard.
You cannot recognize his face
because it does not resemble Jesus', it does not resemble Krishna's, it does
not resemble Buddha's. All faces are his and still he has no face. The Zen
people call that face "the original face"; it resembles nobody.
Christians will not recognize him because they will be looking for Christ's
face and Hindus will not recognize him because they will be looking for
Krishna's face. Yes, in Krishna's face also he was and in Christ's face also,
but they are just waves - Krishna, Christ, Buddha, Mahavira - and he is the
ocean. You can't recognize the ocean if you only know about a single wave; the
ocean is not a wave although all waves belong to the ocean.
You cannot search for God, and
you are so asleep that all your search is going to be wrong. The first thing is
to search for your ego; that is the right direction for the seeker. And when
you don't find the ego - when the ego is not found at all, it simply disappears
- then is the possibility of recognizing God's face, because he is egolessness.
And when you have the taste of egolessness, a little taste, you will understand
him. When the ego disappears you will know what silence is, what space is, what
emptiness is. You are so full of nonexistential ego; when it is gone you will
know great spaciousness within you. And he is space, pure space. Something of
him will be known by you; then you can recognize him, you are bridged to him.
Sughanda, you say, "Why do
I keep losing everything but my ego?"
Because everything else has a
concrete reality and the ego has no reality at all. If you want to lose your
ego you will have to go in. Maybe that's why people don't go in - afraid that
they may lose themselves. And their fear is right. Beware! If you are ready to
lose yourself, then only decide to go in.
But that moment is the greatest
moment in life - when you lose your ego - because that very moment,
immediately, God is found. The moment you are not, God is. The moment you
evaporate, God descends in you.
Question 4
Beloved Master,
I always feel that animals are very
friendly with me. Why?
Roberto, you are an Italian! I
will tell you one Italian story.
"It is wonderful the power
I have got over dumb animals," boasted Rizzoli to his wife. "You
notice wherever we go, dogs - big ones, small ones - no matta how mean, they
all-a come up and lick-a my hand."
"Maybe," said Mrs.
Rizzoli, "if you would eat-a with a knife and fork-a once in a while, they
would not be so friendly!"
Just be a little less Italian,
Roberto, so that even human beings can be friendly to you.
Question 5
Beloved Master,
What is the right way to handle a woman?
Somesh, there is only one way
to handle a woman. The trouble is, nobody knows what it is.
Question 6
Beloved Master,
I did not like your telling to us not to
look at the sun today while it is in total eclipse. I thought you believed in
absolute freedom.
Sunderam, you are not the only
one to ask this question. At least twenty other fools have also asked the same.
Please forgive me that I told you not to look at the sun directly - do it!
Please do me a favor! I was utterly wrong to say it so - your freedom is
destroyed. Enjoy your freedom; at least today, don't forget to enjoy it. Look
as much as you can at the sun and don't use any device - because that will
hinder your freedom. With the naked eyes - natural eyes - look at the sun.
Enjoy it to your heart's content.
I was not going to say it to
you. The whole blame goes to Vivek! She nagged me and nagged me to tell you;
otherwise I was not going to tell you anything.
A few of these twenty fools
have said, "We had never thought that you are superstitious." This is
not superstition - these are scientific facts. There are millions of
superstitions also. For example, in India, after the eclipse is over then take
a bath and if you can take the bath in a holy river like the Ganges it is
thought to be very religious, holy - because Indians believe that the sun has
been in deep difficulty and it is out of the difficulty. That is superstition.
The sun is not going into any difficulty at all. The eclipse is not happening
on the sun; the sun has nothing to do with the eclipse. It is just the moon
coming between you and the sun; it is not happening on the moon either. It is
only happening for us.
Indians give donations after
the eclipse is over, rejoicing that the sun god is out of trouble. Those are
superstitions.
But looking at the sun is
dangerous - scientifically dangerous; it is not a question of superstition. You
can try it. A few of the others have written, "How can we believe in what
you say when your date was wrong, your day was wrong?" That is true. Even
if my date is wrong and my day is wrong, the sun in eclipse will have the same
effect. About days and dates I am not so sure. In fact, I have no idea of time.
I have to go on looking at the clock again and again, otherwise I will go on
talking and talking.
Just last month it happened:
the clock stopped... at eight twenty it stopped. I looked at it again and
again... it was ten to ten. And I am so superstitious that I still believed the
clock! I was still thinking it was eight twenty. Finally I started seeing some restlessness
around me. I thought, "What is the matter? Something somewhere is
wrong." I looked at the clock - again eight twenty. I said, "There is
no problem; there is still time enough."
Yes, on the fourteenth I said,
"Tomorrow." Naturally, my date was wrong, but that does not mean that
what I said is wrong. Fifteenth or sixteenth, that doesn't matter; dates are
arbitrary. They are just our creation - days are arbitrary. But just because of
that, if you ask me how you can believe...
I am not telling you to believe
anything. You can go and check with the scientists - it is dangerous to the
eyes, and sometimes so dangerous that the blindness that will be caused by it
will be incurable.
But this is not a commandment.
I am not saying that looking at the sun in eclipse is a sin or a crime. I am
not saying that it is something immoral, irreligious, unspiritual. It is simply
stupid!
Question 7
Beloved Master,
Is it true that money cannot buy happiness?
Anando, yes, it is true. Money
cannot buy happiness - but it makes misery more comfortable. That's why I am
not against money, I am all for it. It is better to be comfortably miserable
than uncomfortably miserable. I have lived in poverty and I have lived in
richness, and believe me: richness is far better than poverty.
Enough for today.