Osho - Weekly Meditation For The Here And Now
Weekly Meditation - Week 2. Nonjudgment
January 8
Nonjudgment
When you judge, division starts.
You may be talking in deep conversation with a friend when suddenly you feel like being silent. You want to stop talking, right in the middle of the sentence. So stop right there, and don't even complete the rest of the sentence, because that will be going against nature.
But then judgment comes in. You feel embarrassed about what others will think if you suddenly stop talking in the middle of a sentence. If you suddenly become silent they will not understand, so you somehow manage to complete the sentence. You pretend to show interest, and then you finally escape. That is very costly, and there is no need to do it. Just say that conversation is not coming to you now.
You can ask to be excused, and be silent. For a few days perhaps it will be a little troublesome, but by and by people will begin to understand. Don't judge yourself about why you became silent; don't tell yourself that it is not good. Everything is good! In deep acceptance, everything becomes a blessing. This is how it happened-your whole being wanted to be silent. So follow it. Just become a shadow to your totality, and wherever it goes you have to follow because there is no other goal. You will begin to feel a tremendous relaxation surrounding you.
January 9
The Real Robbers
There is nothing to fear, because we don't have anything to lose. All that can be robbed from you is not worth while, so why fear, why suspect, why doubt?
These are the real robbers: doubt, suspicion, fear. They destroy your very possibility of celebration. So while on earth, celebrate the earth. While this moment lasts, enjoy it to the very core. Because of fear we miss many things. Because of fear we cannot love, or even if we love it is always half-hearted, it is always so-so. It is always up to a certain extent and not beyond that. We always come to a point beyond which we are afraid, so we get stuck there. We cannot move deeply in friendship because of fear. We cannot pray deeply because of fear.
Be conscious but never be cautious. The distinction is very subtle. Consciousness is not rooted in fear. Caution is rooted in fear. One is cautious so that one might never go wrong, but then one cannot go very far. The very fear will not allow you to investigate new lifestyles, new channels for your energy, new directions, new lands. You will always tread the same path again and again, shuttling backward and forward- like a freight train!
January 10
Critical Mind
I am not saying that a critical attitude is always harmful. If you are working on a scientific project, it is not harmful; it is the only way to work.
A critical mind is an absolute necessity if you are working on a scientific project. But the critical mind is an absolute barrier if you are trying to reach your own interiority, your own subjectivity. With the objective world it is perfectly okay. Without it there is no science; with it there is no religiousness. This has to be understood: When one is working objectively one has to be capable of using it, and when one is working subjectively one has to be capable of putting it aside. It should be used as a means. It should not become an idée fixe; you should be able to use it or not, you should be free.
There is no possibility of going into the inner world with a critical mind. Doubt is a barrier, just as trust is a barrier in science. A person of trust will not go very far in science. That's why in the days when religion was predominant in the world, it remained unscientific. The conflict that arose between the church and science was not accidental; it was very fundamental. It was not really a conflict between science and religion; it was a conflict between two different dimensions of being, the objective and the subjective. Their workings are different.
January 11
Orgasm
There are moments, a few moments, far and few between, when ego disappears because you are in such a total drunkenness. In love it sometimes happens; in orgasm it sometimes happens.
In deep orgasm your history disappears, your past recedes, goes on receding, receding, and disappears. You don't have any history in orgasm, you don't have any past, you don't have any mind, you don't have any autobiography. You are utterly here now. You don't know who you are, you don't have any identity. In that moment the ego is not functioning, hence the joy of orgasm, the refreshing quality of it, the rejuvenation of it. That's why it leaves you so silent, so quiet, so relaxed, so fulfilled. But again the ego comes in, the past enters and encroaches on the present. Again history starts functioning and you stop functioning. The ego is your history, it is not a reality. And this is your enemy; the ego is the enemy.
Every person comes around this corner many times in life, because life moves in a circle. Again and again we come to the same point, but because of fear we escape from it. Otherwise the ego is a falsity. In fact, to let it die should be the easiest thing and to keep it alive should be the hardest thing, but we keep it alive and we think it is easier.
January 12
Chain Reaction
All things happen together.
When you feel less guilty, immediately you start feeling happier. When you feel more happy, you feel less in conflict, more harmonious-together. When you feel together, more harmonious, suddenly you feel a certain grace surrounding you. These things function like a chain reaction: One starts the other, the other starts another, and they go on spreading.
Feeling less guilty is very important. The whole of humanity has been made to feel guilty-centuries of conditioning, of being told to do this and not to do that. Not only that, but forcing people by saying that if they do something that is not allowed by the society or by the church, then they are sinners. If they do something that is appreciated by the society and the church, then they are saints. So everybody has been fooled into doing things that society wants them to do, and not to do things that society does not want them to do. Nobody has bothered about whether this is your thing or not. Nobody has bothered about the individual.
Move into a new light, into a new consciousness, where you can unguilt yourself. And then many more things will follow.
January 13
Flexibility
You are young in proportion to your flexibility. Watch a small child- so soft, tender, and flexible. As you grow old everything becomes tight, hard, inflexible. But you can remain absolutely young to the very moment if your death if you remain flexible.
When you are happy you expand. When you are afraid you shrink, you hide in your shell, because if you go out there may be some danger. You shrink in every way- in love, in relationships, in meditation, in every way. You become a turtle and you shrink inside. If you remain in fear continuously, as many people live, by and by the elasticity of your energy is lost. You become a stagnant pool, you are no longer flowing, no longer a river. Then you feel more and more dead every day.
But fear has a natural use. When the house is on fire you have to escape. Don't try being unafraid there or you will be a fool! One should also remain capable of shrinking, because there are moments, when one needs to stop the flow. One should be able to go out, to come in, to go out, to come in. This is flexibility: expansion, shrinking, expansion, shrinking. It is just like breathing. People who are very afraid don't breathe deeply, because even that expansion brings fear. Their chest will shrink; they will have a sunken chest. So try to find out ways to make your energy move. Sometimes even anger is good. At least it moves your energy. If you have to choose between fear and anger, choose anger. But don't go to the other extreme. Expansion is good, but you should not become addicted to it. The real thing to remember is flexibility: the capacity to move from one end to another.
January 14
Grace
Grace brings beauty - Grace simply means the aura that surrounds total relaxation. If you move spontaneously, each moment itself decides how it will be.
This moment is not going to decide for the next, so you simply remain open-ended. The next moment will decide its own being; you have no plan, no pattern, no expectation.
Today is enough; don't plan for tomorrow, or even for the next moment. Today ends, and then tomorrow comes fresh and innocent, with no manipulator. It opens of its own accord, and without the past. This is grace. Watch a flower opening in the morning. Just go on watching... this is grace. There is no effort at all- the flower just moves according to nature. Or watch a cat awakening, effortlessly, with a tremendous grace surrounding it. The whole of nature is full of grace, but we have lost the capacity to be graceful because of the divisions within.
So just move, and let the moment decide-don't try to manage it. This is what I call it let-go -and everything happens out of this. Give it a chance!
