Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 4)
Chapter 5. Dust
against the wind
As the rich merchant with few servants
Shuns a dangerous road
And the man who loves life shuns poison,
Beware the dangers of folly and mischief.
For an unwounded hand may handle poison.
The innocent come to no harm.
But as dust thrown against the wind,
Mischief is blown back in the face
Of the fool who wrongs the pure and
harmless.
Some are reborn in hell,
Some in this world,
The good in heaven.
But the pure are not born at all.
Nowhere!
Not in the sky,
Nor in the midst of the sea,
Nor deep in the mountains,
Can you hide from your own mischief.
Not in the sky,
Nor in the midst of the ocean,
Nor deep in the mountains,
Nowhere
Can you hide from your own death.
Life is not given ready-made -
not to humanity at least. That is the dignity of human beings, and the danger
too. All other animals are born ready-made, preprogrammed.
Their whole life is a simple
unfoldment of something built-in. They need not live their lives consciously;
their life is unconscious, it is mechanical. It can't be good, it can't be bad;
it simply is. You cannot call a tree a sinner or a saint, and you cannot call a
tiger or cat virtuous or full of vice. Those words are meaningless as far as
existence below humanity is concerned. They become immensely significant
referred to man.
Man has a special situation. He
is born like all other animals, with a difference - a difference that really
makes a difference. The difference is of tremendous value to understand,
because one may go on avoiding it and to avoid it is to avoid your true life.
There is every possibility to
remain oblivious of it, because it seems more convenient and more comfortable
not to be reminded of it. To be reminded of it means a great challenge: a
challenge to adventure into the unknown, into that which is not preprogrammed.
God is not a built-in
possibility; it is an open opportunity. It can happen, it may not happen. It
all depends on you - how you live, how much consciousness you bring to your
life, how nonmechanical you become.
Millions of people don't want
to be reminded of this dimension at all; hence their antagonism against Buddha,
Christ, Socrates. These people - Buddha, Christ, Socrates - - goad you, they
don't allow you to sleep comfortably. They bring the point again and again to
your awareness that this is not the right way to live, that you are missing
life.
This is not human life that you
are living, this is animal life.
And sometimes you can fall even
below animals. No animal can become a Genghis Khan or Adolf Hitler or Joseph
Stalin, because animals have no choice. They can't become Buddhas, they can't
become Genghis Khans either. They remain whatsoever they are; they can't move anywhere
else. They have a life already arranged; they will simply follow the course.
Their life is like a movie:
when you see it for the first time you are immensely interested, curious what
is going to happen next but in fact, nothing is going to happen - the film is
already preprogrammed. Next time you don't feel so interested because you know
already what is going to happen next. The third time you are bored, and if you
are forced to see it a fourth time you will rebel, and if you have to see it a
fifth time you may go mad. The same film... Because now you know everything is
already there, nothing is happening; the film is simply repeating a certain
course.
Animals are like films -
already made, unfolding whatsoever is built-in. Man lives in a world of choice;
hence man has to decide what life he wants to live. He can fall below the
animals, he can rise above the angels. He can exist accidentally or he can
exist with a decisiveness.
It is through decisiveness that
the soul is born. If you exist accidentally, like driftwood, you live without a
soul; your life is not much of a life. It is pseudo, it is lukewarm; it has no
intensity; it has no flame; it has no light. You cannot experience the truth.
Living accidentally, knowing the truth is impossible. One has to be so
decisive, so committed, so consciously involved with life, so intensely
adventurous, that all is at stake every moment. One has to be creative - not
only unfolding, but creative.
This is man's privilege, his
prerogative, and also his danger. Very few people will choose the life of
choice, commitment, involvement, because it is dangerous, because the sea is
uncharted and you don't have any map. You have a very small boat and the sea is
very stormy and who knows whether the other shore exists or not? Why leave the
shelter on this shore? Remain here.
Buddha says millions of people
simply go up and down on this shore, running hither and thither, just creating
an appearance as if their life is a pilgrimage - and they are simply running up
and down on the same shore. It is not a pilgrimage; it is mere occupation,
befooling others and befooling yourself.
The pilgrimage begins when you
leave this shore, its shelter, its security, its convenience, its comfort, its
respectability, power, prestige. You leave your small boat at the mercy of the
storms, at the mercy of the ocean, trusting that if this shore exists the other
MUST exist, because one shore cannot exist...
With this trust - moving
towards the other shore, risking all - real life begins. And real life is
religious life. Real life is what I mean by sannyas. Life lived consciously is
the only life; life lived unconsciously is mere existence. Animals only exist,
they don't live; only man can live. But all men don't live either; only a few
buddhas, a few awakened ones.
Become alert to what you are
doing with your life. Are you really moving consciously, with a sense of
direction - taking each step deliberately, in full awareness of why, to where?
Or are you just imitating others? If they are running, you are running; if they
are after money, you are after money; if they are after power, you are after
power. Are you just imitators? Then your life will be imitation. Are you simply
following others? Then your life will be a carbon copy. You will never know
your original face.
And your original face is the
face of God. But that original face has to be discovered with tremendous
effort. With great risk one can actualize what is just a seed in you, one can
make actual what is only potential. And then man is infinite; otherwise man is
very small, ugly.
A life lived unconsciously
cannot be beautiful, a life lived unconsciously cannot have freedom. And
without freedom, how can there be any beauty? Beauty is a shadow of freedom. A
life lived unconsciously can only be mediocre, mundane, superficial. Only with
consciousness does your life start deepening; it attains a new dimension, the
dimension of depth. And the dimension of depth is the dimension of the divine.
God is not somewhere else, but
in your own depths, in your own ultimate depths. Truth is not to be found
somewhere else; it has to be searched and looked for withinwards.
Truth is not something of the
mind; otherwise it would have been very easy to attain it.
Mind is a machine.
The great Western philosopher,
the father of Western philosophy, Aristotle, defines man as a rational being,
but his definition cannot be applicable to the millions. It is not even
applicable to himself, because he is not a buddha. A very clever man, very
logical, but without any consciousness. He lived his own life as unconsciously
as anyone can live. He had two wives, and he writes in his book that women have
less teeth than men.
Having two wives he could have
counted any time - but this was a superstition, very prevalent in Greece in
those days. The male chauvinist mind cannot allow women to have anything equal
to men, not even teeth! He never bothered to count - what kind of rationality
is this?
In fact, unless you are
conscious, you can't be rational either. To live rationally means to live
consciously, to live meditatively. And the moment you can live meditatively,
you cannot only live rationally, you can live suprarationally - because life is
not only reason, life is far more than that. Reason is only one of its dimensions,
and life is multidimensional.
Life plus consciousness, and
you start becoming a buddha. Existence plus consciousness, and you start
attaining life. Consciousness is the whole chemistry, the alchemy. Life plus
consciousness, and you are entering into the temple of God.
Existence plus consciousness,
and you enter into the temple of life. But if you live without consciousness
you don't have life, you don't have God. If you have life you cannot miss God
for long, because life is the first ray of God.
But people merely exist, they
vegetate; they think they are already alive. This belief prevents them from
creating life. When you are born, you are born only as an opportunity, as a
space where life can grow. But it is not inevitable - and it is good that it is
not inevitable. If it was inevitable, man would have been a machine as all
other animals are.
It is tremendously significant
to remember that existence has bestowed on you a great gift, and the gift is
that you are born as a tabula rasa, nothing is written on you - you are born as
a clean slate. Now you have to write something on it. You can write something
imitating others, borrowed; you can write Vedas on it, Gitas, Korans, Bibles,
but you will miss the whole thing. You destroyed a great opportunity.
You have to write your own song
- not the song of Krishna and not the song of Christ, but your OWN song! You
have to sing your own heart, only then will you be fulfilled.
But people are simply repeating
like parrots; hence they become very knowledgeable and still remain foolish,
still remain ignorant.
Saint Augustine divides
humanity into two categories; those categories are significant.
The first category he calls
"knowledgeable ignorance." There are people who know too much and yet
know nothing; their knowledge is all borrowed. Nothing has arisen in them,
nothing has happened to them; they are simply repeating others. They may be
very clever in repeating it, very efficient in repeating it, but they are
functioning like computers. They are not yet human beings; humanity is not yet
born in them. Their knowledge knows nothing, it is a pretension.
The universities are full of
such people, and the world respects these people very much because knowledge is
power. They know, that is the prevalent idea, and they are powerful. And in a
certain sense the idea is true: a man who knows physics is more powerful than
the man who does not know, but as far as his own life is concerned he is as
ignorant as anybody else. There is no difference between the villager and the university
professor as far as self-knowing is concerned - and that is the real treasure.
There is knowledge which knows
not, and, Augustine says, there is also an ignorance which knows. What is the
ignorance he is talking about, that knows? The ignorance of the innocent. The
innocent person has cleaned his mind completely of all borrowed knowledge.
Meditation is nothing but a
device to clean the mind, to give a shower to your inner being, so that all the
dust, the so-called knowledge, is taken away and you are left clean, fresh,
young. This is what Jesus says: Unless you are born again you will not enter
into my kingdom of God.
This is what in the East we
used to call the phenomenon of the DWIJ - twice-born. All brahmins are not
dwij, but all dwijas are brahmins. All brahmins are not twice-born, but all
twice-borns are brahmins. Christ is a brahmin, Mohammed is a brahmin. The
brahmin is one who has known Brahman, one who has known the ultimate life, but
the secret is, you will have to be born again.
What does it mean? It means you
will have to die to your knowledge - borrowed, imitative, mechanical - and you
will have to be again innocent as you were when you were born the first time.
But the first childhood is bound to be lost; nobody can protect it. It is in
the nature of things that the first childhood will be lost. But the second
childhood can be attained, and with the second childhood starts life. Before
that you were merely existing. With the second birth you are entering into the
real mystery of that which is.
Let me remind you: don't take
life for granted. It has to be created, and it can be created only by choosing
freely, by choosing on your own. Yes, there is a possibility you may go astray,
there is a possibility you may commit errors, mistakes. But nothing to be
worried about - mistakes and errors and going astray, they are all part of
growth. It is only by committing mistakes that one learns, it is only by going
astray that one comes back to the right path.
Those who never go astray
remain impotent. Those who never commit any mistake because of fear, they never
do anything - because if you do, there is a possibility you may commit some
mistake. Afraid of committing mistakes, they never do anything. But without
doing anything, how can you grow? You will remain hollow, you will not get any
crystallization, you will not have any soul. You will be dead, you will be a
corpse - walking, breathing, talking, but you will be a corpse because you will
not have the taste of life eternal.
The first thing to be
remembered is that we are not yet born. One birth happens through the parents,
through the mother. The second birth happens when you are in intimate
relationship with a master, with a buddha. The second birth happens in a
buddhafield: the buddha becomes the womb. The master is the womb for the
disciple. The disciple enters into the womb of the master, disappears into the
master and is born again.
It is through this new birth
that you start being conscious. You believe that you are conscious... because
you can come back every evening to your home from the office, so you think you
are conscious. Because you can do certain things, you think you are conscious.
Now there are robots, machine-men, which can do all the things that you are
doing.
Now there is a possibility that
soon there will be planes - they are already in existence, not yet used; soon
they will be used - which will not have any pilots, and there will be trains
without any drivers. Theoretically they are possible now. The machine will do it
all. Then you will be very much surprised: you have been doing these things and
you were thinking that you are conscious because you do these things. By doing
a certain thing one does not become conscious.
Consciousness is doing a thing
with a new flavor. Doing it, in itself, is not consciousness, but doing it with
a witness inside; watching, observing, knowing that you are doing it - that is
consciousness, and that is rebirth.
Bryant caught a tiny fish which
suddenly began to speak. "I am really an elf and if you release me I will
grant you and your wife any three wishes."
So the Irishman released the
fish, rushed home and told his wife. The couple were anxious to get to town and
look at things to wish for, so the wife decided to make a quick dinner out of a
can of beans. But she could not find the can opener and said, "I wish I
had a can opener." Kazam! She had a can opener.
"You wasted one wish on
that stupid can opener," screamed Bryant. "I wish it was up your
ass!"
And the sad part of the story
is that they had to use the third and last wish to get it out again.
This is the way you are living,
this is the way the whole humanity is living: not knowing what you are saying,
not knowing what you are doing, not knowing at all - just haphazardly stumbling,
groping. And this continues from the beginning to the very end.
Your whole life becomes a
grammar of unconsciousness, a language of unconsciousness. And through this
language, the layer of this language, you look at life - and everything is
misinterpreted, distorted.
Business partners Slutsky and
Gross were fishing in a small rowboat on a lake in the Catskills. Suddenly a
storm came up, the boat capsized, and while Slutsky began to swim, Gross
floundered and sputtered helplessly. He was sinking.
"Say," said Slutsky,
swimming away, "can you float alone?"
"I am drowning,"
sputtered Gross, "and he is talking business!"
The old language, "Can you
float a loan?" - the language of business. He understands only one
language. Now, even in such a situation, what is said to him will be understood
the way he can understand. We don't understand what is said; we understand what
we can understand. We don't understand what we see; we see only what we can
see.
Old man Bernstein lay dying.
The entire family had gathered around the deathbed. In a soft, feeble voice, he
inquired, "Is Sol here?"
"Yes, Papa," said his
eldest son.
"Is Lester here?"
"Yes, Dad!" answered
the boy.
"Is Eli here?"
"I am right here!"
said the youngest son.
"If you are all
here," said Bernstein, "who is minding the store?"
And now he is dying - the last
moments! Even at the moment of death he is thinking of who is minding the
store.
From birth to death you go on
living, groping in darkness with no light - and you could have created the light.
You cannot find it in the scriptures; nobody can hand it to you. It is not
purchased or sold; it is nontransferable. But you can create it - you can put
all your energies together. You can start living consciously from this very
moment.
For example, you are listening
to me. You can listen in a sleepy way... because you are here, and I am
uttering a few words, and you have ears and your ears function, so those words
strike your eardrums and some noise is made - and of course you hear. But this
is not listening, it is only hearing. It is not listening.
Listening means you are alert,
watchful, on your toes, drinking with no mind to distort; with no inner noise,
with no chattering, utterly silent; not sleepy, very wakeful, very awake; as if
your house is on fire, as if everything can be taken away any moment and this
is no time to sleep. When your house is on fire you cannot sleep - or can you?
When your house is on fire you
cannot be sleepy; you will be alert, very alert.
The first statement that Buddha
made after he left his palace was, "My house is on fire.
Now I cannot live anymore in
unconsciousness." There was nobody except his charioteer. The old man
looked at the palace; he didn't see any flames there, the house was not on
fire. He thought, "The prince has gone crazy!" He was an old man, an
old servant, of the same age as Buddha's father. He had seen Buddha from the
first day he was born; Buddha used to respect the old man.
The old man said, "What
nonsense you are talking! Al-though my eyes are becoming weak, I am becoming
old, but I don't see any flames. The house is perfectly okay, there is no
fire!"
Buddha said, "Yes, I see -
you may not see - my house is on fire, because each and every moment death is
possible. Now I cannot remain in this sleepy state anymore."
The old man shrugged his
shoulders. He said, "You are saying just insane things!"
When he had to leave Buddha in
the forest and they said goodbye, the old man was crying and he said,
"Listen to me - I am just like your father. Where are you going?
Have you gone nuts? Such a
beautiful palace, such a beautiful wife, so much comfort, so much luxury! Where
are you going?"
Buddha said, "I am going
in search of consciousness." He didn't say, "I am going in search of
God," because how can you talk about God if you are not even conscious?
The real seeker goes in search of consciousness, not in search of God. If you
start your search for God, that is going to remain an unconscious search -
because you have heard priests talking about God a greed has arisen in your
mind for God.
The real seeker, the real
sannyasin, has nothing to do with God. His whole effort, his single effort, his
one-pointed effort, his concentrated effort, is to become more conscious - how
to be so intensely conscious that you become full of light, that your whole
mind is a flame of light burning bright, that the torch of your mind is burning
from both the ends simultaneously. In that light one knows naturally that God
is.
God is not to be searched for;
what is to be searched for is consciousness. Unconscious people can believe in
God, but their belief in God is just like their belief in money. They believe
in notes, they believe in God, they believe in stone statues, they believe in
dead scriptures. They can only believe, remember: only unconscious people
believe.
The conscious person knows,
feels, experiences. He does not believe in God: he lives in God, he breathes in
God, his heart beats in God. It is not a question of belief.
You don't believe in the sun
when you see the sun rise. You don't ask people, "Do you believe in the
sun?" If you ask, they will laugh at you. You don't believe in the moon
when the moon is full in the night; you never ask anybody. There are not
believers in the moon and nonbelievers. It is your experience; there is no need
to believe or disbelieve.
Exactly like that, in
consciousness you have eyes to see God, you have eyes to see the truth of
existence. Then it is no longer a question of belief - it is your experience,
existential experience. A conscious person knows, an unconscious person
believes.
Why are you a Hindu, why are
you a Mohammedan, why are you a Jaina, and why are you a Christian? All
beliefs! - and the priest lives on your unconsciousness. He goes on giving you
more and more beliefs - moral beliefs, beliefs that if you do this you will be
rewarded, if you do that you will be punished, belief in hell, belief in
heaven. He goes on piling up more and more beliefs. You are drowning in
beliefs! Your beliefs have become so heavy on you, like the Himalayas on your
chest; they don't allow you to live.
The first step towards
consciousness is to discard all beliefs. Don't be a Hindu, don't be a
Mohammedan, don't be a Christian... because I tell you the way to become a
christ!
Why be a Christian? And I tell
you the way to become a buddha - why be satisfied by being a Buddhist? Why be
satisfied with plastic flowers when the real roses can be grown, when you can
become a garden of roses? You purchase a few plastic flowers from the market
and you go on worshipping those plastic flowers. What you call them - -
Christian, Mohammedan, Hindu - does not matter; if they are borrowed they are
plastic. The real flower has to be grown within your being; it has to blossom
there.
Those who have known, they say
- and I vouch for them, I am a witness - that when your consciousness opens up
in its totality it is a one-thousand-petaled lotus, a golden lotus, gold with
perfume. It is the ultimate miracle. And unless that is attained, don't rest.
Each moment lost is a great loss.
The sutras:
As the rich merchant with few servants
Shuns a dangerous road
And the man who loves life shuns poison,
Beware the dangers of folly and mischief.
Buddha is saying that if you
are a merchant with a great treasure and you are coming home from a long long
journey of business - doing business in many many places you have gathered
great treasure and you are coming back home and you have only a few servants
with you - you will avoid dangerous roads where robbers can rob you, where you
can be killed, where your treasure can be taken away from you.
Man has been on a long
pilgrimage. You are not new on the earth, you are very ancient pilgrims. And
all these lives you have gathered much treasure inside you - even you may not
be aware of it. You have learned much... you are not conscious, you don't know
what treasures you are carrying within yourself. Because you are unconscious
you are continuously moving on dangerous roads where you can be robbed - where
you are robbed, robbed every day. The person who is not aware, one who is
asleep, you can rob him; he will not even give you a fight.
And the robbers are not
outside, the robbers are within you. Anger, hatred, greed, jealousy,
possessiveness, these are the robbers, and in the unconscious mind they go on
robbing you. How much has anger robbed you of? Look back! How much has your
anger destroyed? But you don't even calculate! You don't even look back to have
an insight into what you have been doing to yourself. How much has your lust
exploited you? But you go on doing the same things again and again! The same
anger which you have always experienced as poison, which you know perfectly
well is only destructive - and each time you have been in it you have repented
later on - you have decided, you have promised to yourself many times, not to
go into it again. And again and again you go on forgetting your promises given
to yourself.
A man was saying to his friend,
"Last night I went to see a Jewish porno movie, and it was quite an
experience."
The friend asked, "What
could a dirty Jewish movie be like?"
The man said, "It only
lasted ten minutes: one minute of sex and nine minutes of guilt."
Just watch your life and you
will find it: one minute of anger and how many minutes of guilt? One minute of
lust and how many minutes of guilt, or how many hours, or how many days?
Brotsky was in Puerto Rico for
a business convention. One night, in front of his hotel, he was hailed
seductively by a beautiful prostitute. "Hello, Americano," she said.
"You wanna buy what I am selling?"
Brotsky went with her. Ten days
later, at home in New York, he found that he had caught gonorrhea.
The next year, in front of the
same hotel, he was hailed by the same girl again. "Hello, Americano. You
wanna buy what I am selling?"
"Sure," he said,
"What is it this time - cancer?"
If you look at your life you
will see it is moving in circles. You go on doing the same stupid things, the
same stupid things, and you have done them so many times. When are you going to
wake up? And again you become intrigued with the same stupidity, again and
again you are caught in the SAME net. Your life has not many new things.
You just watch your life for
three months, make notes for three months, and then you will be surprised: this
is all that you have been repeating again and again. And unless you become
awake you are going to repeat the same your whole life - and not only your
whole life, you are going to repeat it in many many lives to come.
Harry, who grew up in
Philadelphia, was making his first visit to England.
One night he spotted a
ravishing young redhead in a pub, walked over to her and stated
conversationally, "You know, I come from the other side..."
"Let's go right to my
flat," she exclaimed. "This I gotta see!"
You get it? Again and again...
"This I gotta see!" You become again and again intrigued.
You may have known many women,
and again another woman, and you are ready to be foolish again. Your life is
repetitive - you don't even make new mistakes!
Be a little creative. If you
are interested in making mistakes, at least make new mistakes.
If you can make it a point that
"I will make only new mistakes," soon they will be finished - because
how many new mistakes are there? One day you will simply find that there are no
more new mistakes left, and you cannot make any because you have decided not to
repeat.
Once should be enough - but why
is it not enough? The reason is that while you are making that mistake you are
not there; you are even doing it unconsciously. If you can do a mistake
consciously, totally alert, with full awareness, absolute presence, you will
not repeat it again.
A man of intelligence is bound
to commit mistakes, but one mistake only once, then he is finished with it. He
has known and understood it. But people remain immature.
Two little colored boys met on
the street.
"I am five years old. How
old are you?"
"I dunno."
"Do you ever think of
women?"
"Naw."
"Then you is four!"
Now, this is how age, maturity,
is measured, weighed.
Maturity means becoming more
conscious; there is no other way to become mature. I am not saying don't commit
mistakes, because that will not help. I am not saying avoid mistakes, no. I am
saying whatsoever you want to do, do it, but do it very consciously.
Bring your full being in it, so
once done you can decide whether it is worth doing again or it is utter
nonsense, useless; so once done you know whether it is a real diamond or just a
colored stone.
If it is a real diamond, go
after it, dig deep - you may be close to a treasure. And if it is just a
colored stone, forget all about it. Don't carry colored stones; they become a
weight and they make your journey more and more difficult. When you want to go
uphill you need to be weightless. And the journey towards consciousness is an
uphill journey.
As the rich merchant with few servants
shuns a dangerous road and the man who loves life shuns poison, beware the
dangers of folly and mischief. Become aware. Beware means be aware.
Beware is a combination of two words: be aware. Be aware of the dangers of folly and mischief.
They are two sides of the same coin: folly and mischief. Folly means
unconsciousness - and out of unconsciousness only mischief is born.
For an unwounded hand may handle
poison.
The innocent come to no harm.
If you become aware of folly
and mischief... Remember, Buddha is not saying avoid; he is saying beware.
Lao Tzu says: A man of wisdom
walks as if at each step there is danger. A man of wisdom walks as if in cold
winter he is crossing a frozen stream, that is what Lao Tzu says. Yes, exactly,
it is so: the man of wisdom walks alert. Each step is full of dangers, because
your mind can any moment assert.
Your mind is very ancient, its
habits are very deeply ingrained, implanted. Just a little unawareness and the
mind is bound to catch hold of you, and it will drag you into some mischief. It
lives on mischief. It is bound to drag you into something which you will repent
later on. But repentance does not help, it is a sheer waste of time. First you
waste time in doing a mistake and then you waste time in repenting.
One man once came to me, a very
rich man. He had a lifelong habit of becoming angry so easily that just a
slight provocation was enough, or if there was no provocation he would create
it, he would imagine something. And he had suffered much because of it: his
wife left him, his children deserted him, no servant could stay with him for
long. He was living a very isolated life. He had all, but was very poor in a
way because he had nobody to love him or to receive his love.
He asked me, "How can I
get rid of anger? I have decided many times, I have taken vows before great
saints that I will not be angry again, but again and again, when the situation
arises I forget all about the vow. It comes, and it comes in such a floodlike
manner that I am simply taken over by it. What should I do? I have come to you.
Please help me to decide so that I can get rid of it."
I said, "You do one thing.
The first thing is: drop repenting. The second thing is: never vow again against
anger."
He said, "What are you
saying? Then my life will be ruined!"
I said, "You have been
taking vows and you have been repenting - has it helped in any way?"
He had to concede that it had
not helped. Then I said, "Why not try what I am saying? - because my own
understanding is that repentance is not against anger; it is in fact a way of
the ego to settle you back in the old position."
When you become angry and later
on you remember, your ego feels hurt that, "I have again committed the
same stupidity." Now this wounded ego wants to be healed; you have fallen
in your own eyes. Your wounded ego says, "Go to the temple or to some
saint. Take a vow that, 'Now I will never do such a thing again.'" Taking
a vow the ego feels good: "Look how religious I am." Taking a vow
before a saint and before a gathering you feel tremendously strengthened in
your ego: "Look, I have decided!" The wound is again healed.
You are back in the old
situation again: again the ego is enthroned. You will make the same mistake
again sooner or later, and now you have learned a way to heal the wounds.
Repentance is a way, taking vows is a way.
So the first thing I told the
man was, "Stop repenting - it is wasting time! Gone is gone, past is past.
It is finished. You need not worry about it. You start afresh - don't repent.
Rather than repenting, my
suggestion is: you go home and be angry - the first thing to do - be angry and
be consciously angry. While you are angry, remain alert that you are angry,
know what you are doing: that you are throwing things, that you are throwing
abuses. Be alert!"
The next day he came. He said,
"It is impossible! Either I can be angry or I can be alert. If I am alert
I cannot be angry; if I am angry I cannot be alert. You have given me an impossible
task!"
I said, "Now it is for you
to decide: if you want to be angry, forget alertness; if you do not want to be
angry, then be alert. No repentance, no taking of vows anymore. A simple
method!"
All the awakened ones have been
teaching the simple method.
Somebody asked Mahavira,
"Who is a real saint and who is a sinner?"
Maybe the questioner wanted a
ready-made answer that is given in the scriptures, but people like Mahavira
speak out of their own being. What he said is tremendously beautiful. The definition
that he has given is unique, unique in the whole history of humanity. He said,
"Asutta Muni - one who is awake,
he is the saint. And sutta amuni -
one who is asleep is the sinner."
Simple, but tremendously
significant! Wakefulness is the only saintliness there is, and sleepiness,
unconsciousness, is the only sin there is; all other sins are born out of it.
Cut the root, cut the very root! Don't go on pruning the leaves.
For an unwounded hand may handle poison.
And then, when you are aware, alert, watchful, then there is no problem. Then
you are like an unwounded hand, you can handle poison. What does it mean?
Let me remind you of a
situation that happened in Jesus' life. He took a whip and entered into the
great temple of Jerusalem. A whip in the hand of Jesus...? This is the meaning
of what Buddha is saying: an unwounded hand can handle poison. Yes, Jesus can
handle a whip, no problem; the whip cannot overpower him. He remains alert, his
consciousness is such.
The great temple of Jerusalem
had become a place of robbers; subtle robbery was going on. There were
moneychangers inside the temple and they were exploiting the whole country.
Jesus alone entered the temple and upturned their boards - the boards of the
moneychangers - threw their money around and created such turmoil that the
moneychangers escaped outside the temple. They were many and Jesus was alone,
but he was in such a fury, in such a fire!
Now, this has been a problem
for the Christians: how to explain it? - because their whole effort is to prove
that Jesus is a dove, a symbol of peace. How can he take a whip in his hands?
How can he be so angry, so enraged, that he upturned the boards of the
moneychangers and threw the moneychangers outside the temple? And he must have
been afire; otherwise, he was alone - he could have been caught hold of. His
energy must have been in a storm; they could not face him. The priests and the
business people and the moneychangers all escaped outside shouting, "This
man has gone mad!"
Christians avoid this story.
There is no need to avoid it if you understand this sutra of Buddha: for an unwounded
hand may handle poison. The innocent come to no harm. Jesus is so
innocent! He is not angry; it is his compassion. He is not violent, he is not
destructive; it is his love. The whip in his hand is the whip in the hands of
love, compassion.
This is why in the East we have
Krishna, who can fight in the war even though he has promised not to fight. He
forgets all about his promise. People think that he is very diplomatic,
political; he is not. That promise was given in a certain moment; now that
moment is no longer applicable - the situation has changed. He is not an
opportunist, he is not political at all. He is simply honest, sincere,
responsible to the situation that is present. It was so in that moment when he
promised that he would not enter into war; it is no longer so, the situation
has changed. He enters war with no repentance; he never repented for it. There
is no need to repent.
A man of awareness acts out of
his awareness, hence there is no repentance; his action is total. And one of
the beauties of the total action is that it does not create karma; it does not
create anything; it doesn't leave any trace on you. It is like writing on
water: you have not even finished... it is gone. It is not even writing in
sand, because that may remain for a few hours if the wind does not come - it is
writing on water.
If you go to Hindu temples you
will find Rama with the bow and arrow in his hand.
Now it has been a problem for
the so-called Gandhians to explain it; for Mahatma Gandhi it was a problem. If
Rama had a spinning wheel in his hand it would have been okay - but the bow and
the arrow? Gandhi tried to avoid it. He was repeating Rama's name every day;
that was the last name on his lips when he died. When he was shot dead, the
last words that came to his lips were, "Hey Ram! Oh Ram!" But how did
he manage? What about that bow and arrow? He never encountered the problem
honestly, sincerely - because Rama fought the war, must have killed many
people, certainly killed Ravana. What about this violence?
This sutra will explain: for an unwounded
hand may handle poison.
The innocent come to no harm. If
you can be totally alert, then there is no problem. You can handle poison; then
the poison will function as a medicine. In the hands of the wise, poison
becomes medicine; in the hands of the fools, even medicine, even nectar, is
bound to become poison.
The innocent come to no harm. If
you function out of innocence - not out of knowledgeability but out of
childlike innocence - then you can never come to any harm, because it leaves no
trace. You remain free of your actions. You live totally and yet no action
burdens you.
But as dust thrown against the wind,
Mischief is blown back in the face
Of the fool who wrongs the pure and
harmless.
Remember, if you function out
of unawareness, then your whole life will be dust thrown against the wind. It
comes back into your own eyes. It is spitting at the sky - it falls on your own
face.
You suffer not because of
others, you suffer because of your own foolish actions. And what is a foolish
action? Action which arises out of an unconscious state of mind.
But as the dust thrown against the wind,
mischief is blown back in the face of the fool who wrongs the pure and
harmless. And the outcome is even more dangerous for the fool if his
mischief and his wrong is against the pure and the harmless. If you are
fighting with another fool there is not much problem: he spits on you, you spit
on him. Your spit comes back to you, his spit goes back to him; everything is
equalized. You harm him, your harm comes back to you; he harms you, his harm
goes back to him.
But when you harm or do
mischief to somebody innocent, then you are really in trouble because your
mischief will come back to you a thousandfold. The innocent person will not do
any mischief to you; he will simply re-echo, he will simply reflect, he will be
a mirror. If you are ugly, your ugliness will be shown - and of course, the
purer the mirror, the more clearly your ugliness will be shown.
And the mind has a great desire
to harm the innocent. It is afraid to harm the mischievous because the
mischievous can prove too much. The innocent seems to be SO innocent that you
are tempted to harm him. The innocent seems to be so vulnerable, so delicate,
that you think there is no problem: you can do anything to him, he will not
even reply. Hence Jesus is crucified, Socrates is poisoned, Buddha is stoned.
Remember, there is a great
temptation to harm the innocent, because you know he will not return it in the
same coin. But the trouble is, HE will not return it in the same coin, but the
whole existence takes revenge on his behalf. Because HE is not going to take
revenge, the whole existence takes his side. Existence is always on the side of
the awakened one. You are bound to suffer much, although Jesus is ready to
forgive you.
The last words of Jesus were:
Father, forgive all these people because they know not what they are doing.
This is his response. But existence cannot forgive you.
Existence follows a very exact
law: mischief is bound to create mischief for you, and misery, if you create it
for others, is bound to rebound on you. And if it is done against the harmless,
against the wise, against the buddhas, then in a thousandfold way you will
suffer.
Some are reborn in hell,
Some in this world,
The good in heaven.
But the pure are not born at all.
Hell and heaven are not
geographical, remember it. It is just a metaphor to explain something psychological.
Hell is the state of the mind which is in deep misery - of course, created by
your own doings. All the dust that you have been throwing against the wind
falling on yourself, that is hell - all the wrong that you have been doing to
people coming back to you. You have to reap the crop because you had sown the
seeds.
If you sow seeds of poison you
will have to reap poison. It is so simple: AES DHAMMO SANANTANO - this is the
eternal law.
Nobody can be exempted from it,
there is nobody who can be an exception - although everybody thinks, "I
may be an exception, I may find some way to get out of it."
Certainly you can find ways to
get out of human laws, you can find ways to get out of any law, because
man-made laws are man-made laws; they can be broken. And you can find
intelligent people who can show you how to bypass them. But eternal laws,
natural laws, cannot be broken; if you break them you are bound to suffer. That
suffering is hell.
Whenever you go against the law
of life you are in hell, and whenever you go in tune with the law you are in
heaven. Heaven means a state of joy. And whenever you are in a limbo, neither
here nor there, neither against nor for, in a state of lethargy, in a state of
indecision, just hanging in between, then you are in this world. In the
Buddhist scriptures this world is called MADHYALOK - the middle state between
heaven and hell.
There are three kinds of people
in the world: a few who are in heaven, many who are in the middle, and many
more who are in hell. And in fact these are not three kinds of people because
each person goes through all these three states every day. In the morning you
may be in heaven, by the afternoon you are in limbo, by the evening, coming
home, you are in hell. You go on changing, shifting. These are psychological
states.
To go beyond all these three is
called nirvana, is called buddhahood, is called moksha.
If you can go beyond all the
three - that means if you can go beyond all mind - then you are not only in
tune with the law... If you are in tune with the law you are in heaven, if you
are against the law you are in hell. If you are indecisive, half-half, fifty-
fifty, you are in the middle world, this world. But if you become one with the
law, you are no longer separate - not even in tune, because in tune you are
separate. If you become one with the law: if you drop your ego and mind
totally; if you become immersed in the eternal law; if you become the ocean,
your dewdrop disappears in the ocean and becomes it, then you are born no more.
Then there is no birth, no death. Then this whole wheel of birth and death
stops. Then you are one with the cosmos, then you are God.
This is the ultimate that has
to be attained, this is the ultimate that man is capable of attaining, but also
capable of missing. Unless great effort is made with great skill and
intelligence, you will not be able to attain it.
Nowhere!
Not in the sky,
Nor in the midst of the sea,
Nor deep in the mountains,
Can you hide from your own mischief.
Remember: there is no way to hide
from your mischief. So don't go on befooling yourself that you will find some
way: that you will go to the Ganges and take a dip in the Ganges and all your
sins will be washed away. Don't deceive yourself - the Ganges cannot do that.
Don't think that you will go to Kaaba and you will do HAJ, the great
pilgrimage, and you will become a HAJI - the man who has been to Kaaba - and
then all sins are taken away from you, God has forgiven you. Don't think that
by doing a certain ritual - yagna, havan
- you will be freed from your mischiefs. Nothing is going to help.
Nowhere! Buddha says, not in the
sky,nor in the midst of the sea,nor deep in the mountains, can you hide from
your own mischief. It will follow you like your shadow, it will
torture you wherever you go. It is better not to do it - but you can avoid
doing it only if you become conscious, otherwise you are bound to do it.
Not in the sky,
Nor in the midst of the ocean,
Nor deep in the mountains,
Nowhere
Can you hide from your own death.
Mischief is bound to bring its
own punishment just as certainly as birth is bound to bring its own death. You
cannot avoid death, you cannot avoid the outcome of your deeds. So don't think
in these terms, because all that time wasted in avoiding, hiding, is simply wasted.
All that energy can be put into one effort: of becoming aware, of becoming
meditative. That is going to help.
A man was going to the Ganges.
He went to Ramakrishna, he was a follower of Ramakrishna. He asked Ramakrishna,
"Paramahansadeva, I am going to the Ganges - bless me. Do you think all my
sins will be washed away?"
Ramakrishna said, "Yes,
certainly, because the Ganges is so pure; whosoever dives deep into it becomes
as pure as the Ganges. But there is a problem that you have to remember."
The man said, "What is
that problem? You just tell me, I will remember."
Ramakrishna said, "Have
you seen the great trees that stand on the banks of the Ganges?"
He said, "Yes, I have
seen."
Ramakrishna said, "Do you
know what is the purpose of those trees?"
He said, "That I have
never heard and it is not written in the scriptures. What is the purpose of
those trees? You tell me."
Ramakrishna said, "The
purpose of those trees is that when you dive in the Ganges, your sins have to
leave you because of the power of the Ganges. Those sins sit on the top of
those tall trees. When you come back out of the Ganges, they jump upon you
again! So it is really futile. If you want to go you can go, but avoid one
thing: if you dive in the Ganges, don't come out! Then be gone forever;
otherwise those sins won't leave you. And they will take revenge, they will
jump upon you with vengeance."
And this is literally true. The
religious people, the so-called religious people, think that they can do a
certain ritual and the sin is finished, and they are free to do the sin again!
And once you know the trick how
to finish it, why bother? You can go on doing as many sins as you can - the
Ganges is always there. And now there is no need to go to the Ganges either:
you can bring the Ganges in pipes to your home, so every day, early morning or
evening, you take a bath. Evening will be better, so the whole day's sins are
finished and you are as pure as a lotus flower.
Buddha says nothing can help
you. There is nowhere to hide from two things: the result of your deeds and
death. They are going to happen.
Then what should we do? Become
conscious, and in becoming conscious both disappear. In becoming conscious your
actions automatically go through a transformation. The conscious man cannot do
anything wrong, and the conscious man comes to know that, "There is no
death for my consciousness. The body will die, the mind will die, but not my
innermost being. I am eternal. AMRITASYA PUTRAH - I am the son of eternity, I
belong to the eternal existence."
Consciousness brings these two
truths home. First it transforms your world by transforming your actions;
secondly it transforms your interiority by making you aware that you are
eternal. When you know you are eternal, when you know that you have always been
and you will always be, all your values of life immediately start changing.
Then whatsoever was important
yesterday is no longer important, and whatever was never important before
becomes important - because now you think in terms of eternity and not in terms
of time.
To think in terms of time is
politics: to think in terms of eternity is religion.
Enough for today.