Osho –
Dhammapada: The Way of The Buddha (Volume 3)
Chapter 5. Freedom
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At the end of the way,
The master finds freedom
From desire and sorrow -
Freedom without bounds.
Those who awaken
Never rest in one place.
Like swans, they rise
And leave the lake.
On the air they rise
And fly an invisible course,
Gathering nothing, storing nothing.
Their food is knowledge.
They live upon emptiness.
They have seen how to break free.
Who can follow them?
Only the master,
Such is his purity.
Like a bird,
He rises on the limitless air
And flies an invisible course.
He wishes for nothing.
His food is knowledge.
He lives upon emptiness.
He has broken free.
Gautam Buddha's search is not
for God; it cannot be. If God is not known already, how can you search for him?
If the search depends on believing in God, then the search is falsified from
the very beginning.
A true search has to be neither
of belief nor of disbelief. If you believe, you will project; you will
autohypnotize yourself according to your belief. There is every danger that you
will find whatsoever you believe in - you will create an illusion of it.
Deep belief can create a space
in which hallucinations become possible. Hence the Christian can see Christ and
the Hindu can see Krishna. The Hindu never comes across Christ, the Christian
never comes across Krishna. Why does it never happen? - because whatsoever you
believe, you find. Not that it is there in reality but because you are
projecting it on reality. The reality functions as a screen and you go on
projecting your own prejudice. If you disbelieve, then of course there is no
possibility of ever finding it; from the very beginning your mind is closed.
Hence Buddha's search is not
for God. We don't know whether God is or not; we cannot take any standpoint.
And without taking a standpoint about God there is a possibility of inquiring
into his reality.
This is a basic difference
between Buddha's approach and the approach of all other religions. Buddha is
far superior. The other religions are very anthropocentric: their idea of God
is nothing but their idea of man - projected, magnified, decorated, made as
beautiful as possible, but it is man projected onto the sky.
That's why the Negro will have
a God according to the Negro idea of what a human being is: the lips will be
thick, the hair will be curly. The Chinese will have his own projection, the
Indian will have his own idea. There are three hundred religions on the earth;
there are not three hundred gods. Why these three hundred religions? And these
three hundred religions have at least three thousand sects, and they all have
differences about God and God's conception.
God is one, because reality is
one. If God is equal to reality, synonymous with reality, then there are not
many existences, there is only one existence - it can't have so many images. In
fact, no image can represent it; every image will be only partial. And to claim
the whole truth for the part is a sin - a sin against yourself and against
humanity and against truth.
And the moment you start
thinking about God in anthropocentric terms, you make an image. That image is
nothing but a toy to play with. You can worship it, you can pray, you can bow
down to it, but you are simply being stupid. You are bowing down to your own
toy, you are worshipping your own creation! And that's what your temples, your
churches, your mosques are - man-made, manufactured by man's own mind.
God cannot be manufactured. God
cannot be part of man's creation. On the contrary, man is God's creation. The
Bible says: God created man in his own image. But what has happened on the
earth is just the opposite of it: man has created God in his own image.
And of course there are many
kinds of man, so there are many kinds of God, and great quarreling continues,
who is right. It is not the question of what concept of God is right, the
question basically is whose concept is right.
God too has become an ego trip:
Christians fighting with Mohammedans, Mohammedans fighting with Hindus, Hindus
fighting with Jainas. And this "sorry-go- round" goes on and on... The whole history of humanity has been ugly
because of these so-called religious people. They have proved the most
irreligious. They have proved to be the greatest fanatics, utterly blind,
deeply prejudiced, completely closed, not ready to listen to anything that goes
against them or that is a little bit different from their idea.
Religions have made people
blind, deaf. Religions have made people foolish, unintelligent.
Buddha is a totally different
world, he brings a totally different vision. The first thing to be remembered:
he is not interested in God... and the
miracle is that he finds God. His inquiry is not into God, but he ends, he
lands, in God. His inquiry begins with a totally different angle, and that is
the right angle to begin with. If you start as Buddha starts, you are bound to
find God.
H.G. Wells is right when he
says that Gautama the Buddha is the most godly man on the earth and yet the
most godless. Yes, he is a paradox. He denies God, he says there is no God. He
says there is no need to worship, he says there is no need to believe.
Inquire, don't believe! Search
and seek, but without any prejudice for or against. Start with a totally pure
and open mind. Start like a small child, in utter innocence, who has not even
heard of God. And he does not say that if you start this way you will find God,
because he knows the cunningness of human mind. If he says, "If you start
this way you will find God," your mind will say to you, "Then this is
the way to find God - start this way," but deep down your desire for God
remains. The desire for God arises in your psychology; it is not a spiritual
search.
Sigmund Freud is right that God
is nothing but a search for a father or mother figure.
Buddha would have agreed with
him, Buddha would have blessed Sigmund Freud.
Sigmund Freud's insight is very
accurate about it. He does not go very far, but he begins rightly, though he
becomes stuck in the middle because he was not aware of Buddha and he was not
aware of Lao Tzu. He remained basically part of the Judaic- Christian tradition
- which is not very evolved, which is not yet a metaphysics in the true sense
of the term.
Christianity and Judaism are
very earthly religions, more rooted in man's psychology than in man's spiritual
understanding. And because man's psychology is a chaos, whatsoever is rooted in
his psychology is bound to remain a chaos.
Man needs a father figure,
somebody to depend upon. In the name of God people are not searching for God
but are only searching for excuses for their dependence - beautiful excuses so
that the dependence does not look like slavery, so the dependence also starts
having a flavor of religiousness, spirituality. But to call God "the
father" indicates what you have been searching for.
There are religions which call
God "the mother"; it is the same, the same game - either mother or
father. If the society is mother-oriented, matriarchal, then God becomes
"the mother"; if the society is father-oriented, patriarchal, then
God becomes "the father."
Germany calls itself "the
fatherland," India calls itself "the motherland"; the difference
is only in names. Whether you call the country motherland or fatherland does
not make much difference, because you create the same trouble. The labels are
different but it is the same politics; the labels are different but it is the
same childish approach towards reality.
Why do you seek for God? Out of
fear? Yes, there is fear, because there is death. If you are seeking God out of
fear you will never find him. God can be found only through love, not through
fear.
In all the languages of the
world such phrases exist as "God-fearing"; the religious person is
called God-fearing. It is utter nonsense! A religious person is never God-
fearing: a religious person is God-loving. His prayer arises not out of fear
but out of tremendous love and gratitude. His prayer is a thankfulness, not a
demand. He does not ask for security, because he knows already that he is
secure. He does not ask for safety, he does not ask for protection, because he
knows that existence protects, that existence is our home, that we belong to it
and that it belongs to us. Why should he ask for such things which are already
available, which are already given, which are built in, in your very existence?
But the so-called religious
person goes on demanding. Maybe he has lost his father, his mother... and everybody one day or other loses them. It
is not really that your father dies, then you lose him; the moment you become
mature, you start moving on your own, the father is lost, the mother is lost -
and the childhood illusions are lost. And then great fear arises: up to now you
were protected by the father, cared for by the mother. Now who is going to
protect you and who is going to care for you? The sky seems to be utterly
neutral; it does not care this way or that, whether you live or die doesn't
matter. A great fear arises in one's being, a trembling. Soren Kierkegaard has
exactly called it trembling; in that trembling he thinks religion is born. Yes,
in that trembling religion is born, but that religion is pseudo, that religion
is not true.
Religion is born when you are
centered, rooted, not trembling. Religion is born in great understanding, not
in fear. Religion is born when you start feeling that the existence responds
with love, that it is not uncaring, that it is not cold; that it is very warm,
that it is very welcoming. It is our very life - how can it be uncaring towards
us?
But the so-called religious
people go on asking God for protection; hence God is called "The Great
Protector." The religious people go on asking God for eternal life because
they are trembling, they are scared of death... and death is coming every day
closer and closer. Soon it will encompass you, it will drown you into darkness.
Before that you have to find a secure ground, a home. That becomes your search
for God.
Buddha is not interested in
such a search. He says rather than listening to the ill, pathological mind and
going according to it in search of God, it is better to drop this pathological
mind. It is better to drop this whole pathology, be free of it - because in
that freedom is seeing, in that freedom is knowing.
Free from mind you become a
knower. You become so absolutely certain of immortality, of timelessness, of
deathlessness, that there is no need for any God to protect you - you are
already protected. In that protection you bow down to existence in gratitude.
In that protection, in that caring, in that love that goes on flowing invisibly
from the universe towards you... It
nourishes you every moment. It is the universe that you breathe in and out, it
is the universe that flows in your blood, it is the universe that becomes your
bones, your very marrow. The moment it becomes your own experience, you have
become religious.
And now you know that God is,
but this is a totally different God. It is not a father figure - it is not a
figure at all. It is not a person but a presence, a loving presence overflowing
the whole cosmos. Now it is not a person controlling, a dictator dictating. It
is not like the Old Testament God who says, "I am very jealous."
Buddha says: God and jealous?
Then who is going to be beyond jealousy? Buddha says even man has to become
nonjealous, only then will he be able to know God. But can it be a condition
that you have to become nonjealous and then you will know a jealous God? Can it
be a condition that to know a jealous God first you have to drop all your
jealousies? That would be very illogical! The Old Testament God says, "I
am jealous, I am angry. Those who don't listen to me will be condemned
forever!"
Bertrand Russell has written a
book, Why I
Am Not A Christian. In the book he gives many arguments; one of
those arguments is worth considering. He says the Christian and Jewish God
seems to be utterly unjust, unfair, because Christians and Jews believe only in
one life. Bertrand Russell says, "As far as I am concerned, for all the
crimes that I have committed, even the hardest judge cannot sentence me for
more than four years. And if the sins that I have not committed but only
contemplated are also included, then too, at the most, eight years, ten
years."
In a life of seventy years, how
much sin can you commit? In a life of seventy years one third is spent in
sleeping, the other one third in working for bread and butter. What time do you
have to commit sin and how much can you commit? And, Russell says, the
Christian, the Jewish Gods say you will be punished for eternity! Now, this is
unfair!
Even if you punish a man for
seventy years, okay; seventy years at least he lived. If life itself is sin, if
to breathe is sin, then send him for seventy years to hell - but sending him to
hell for eternity, for ever and ever he will be in hell... Russell says that
this is unjust. If this is your idea of God, then what is your idea of the
Devil? How can God be more devilish? This is a very evil conception.
But because the so-called
religions are based in fear, such ideas create more fear in people. And the
priests exploit your fear; they say you will be condemned, punished.
And they have created pictures,
paintings of hell, hellfire and all kinds of tortures they have invented in
hell.
These people can't be saints.
Even to contemplate that others should be burned forever and forever needs a
very cruel mind - even to think about it, even to write about it.
Buddha says the search, the
true search, is not for God, cannot be - because God is the need of a
pathological mind. Let this sink deep in you; otherwise you will not be able to
understand this very superior vision of religion.
Secondly, Buddha says religion
is not a search for truth either, because the moment you start inquiring about
truth you become intellectuals. The whole inquiry becomes philosophical,
intellectual, rational - truth is a rational concept. Then you start thinking
that you have to go through many logical processes, that you have to argue,
discuss, debate, and then finally one day you will come to the conclusion - as
if truth is going to be a conclusion of a logical process, as if truth is going
to be a by-product of your syllogism.
Truth is not just intellectual.
And what can the intellect think about truth? It is all imagination, inference.
At the most it can arrive at a certain hypothesis, a workable hypothesis,
utilitarian; but it can never arrive at any truth.
That's why philosophy never
arrives; it simply goes on and on in circles - it moves in vicious circles.
Science also never arrives at truth. At the most it comes across hypotheses
which are accepted today and rejected tomorrow because tomorrow you find a
better hypothesis which works more efficiently; hence yesterday's hypothesis
has to be discarded.
Newton is discarded by Albert
Einstein; Albert Einstein will be discarded sooner or later by somebody else.
Science never comes to truth, to ultimate truth. Everything is utilitarian: if
it works then it is worth using. But the question is not of truth, the question
is of utility.
Buddha says truth can only be
existential, not intellectual. Intellect will be a part in it, emotion will
also be a part in it, the body will also be a part in it - and the center of it
is going to be your witnessing consciousness. It will be a total phenomenon,
not only intellectual, not only emotional.
There are two kinds of
religion: the intellectual religions and the emotional religions.
The intellectual religions
philosophize and the emotional religions worship, pray - but both are partial.
And the truth is not just the sum total of all its parts: it is more than the
sum total of its parts.
Hence Buddha says an
existential approach is needed - not intellectual only, not emotional only.
Neither the philosopher is going to discover it, nor the devotee.
Thirdly, Buddha says, "My
search is not for bliss either..." because you cannot conceive what bliss
is. Whatsoever you will conceive is bound to be somehow colored by your idea of
happiness. And your idea of happiness is not very blissful, is not very close to
bliss. Your idea of happiness is much closer to unhappiness. Your idea of
happiness is nothing but the opposite of unhappiness - and they are both
together, two aspects of the same energy. Like day and night they are joined
together; the day follows the night, then the night follows the day, and it
goes on and on. Happy one moment, unhappy another, happy again, unhappy another...
and this way your whole life is wasted.
When you hear the word 'bliss',
what notion arises in your mind? - something of happiness, something of eternal
happiness, something when you will never know unhappiness again. But if
unhappiness disappears, happiness cannot remain. If darkness disappears
completely there will be no light. They depend on each other; they appear
contradictory but they are really complementaries. So whatsoever you conceive
of as bliss is going to be wrong from the very beginning. You will be searching
for a new kind of hedonism - maybe spiritual, metaphysical. Maybe you are not
searching happiness here, but you are searching for happiness on the other
shore.
And that's what all the
religions talk about in the name of heaven, paradise: what they are missing
here they project in paradise. If you look into the ideas about paradise of
different people you will be able immediately to know one thing: what is
missing in their life. You will not know anything about paradise, but you will
certainly know what is missing in the lives of the people whose conception this
paradise is.
For example, the Mohammedan
paradise has provision for homosexuality. Strange! But that's what was very
much prevalent in the days when Mohammedanism was in its early stages. The
Mohammedan countries have still remained very homosexual; it is the only
paradise. So if some gay people are here they should remember it. When after
death you are asked, "Where do you want to go?" immediately say,
"To the Mohammedan paradise." There you will find gay clubs. But
don't go to a Hindu paradise - there you will not find gay clubs at all! That
has never been the idea in India; it has been a sin.
If you go to a Greek paradise
you will find homosexuality very much praised. In fact, in the Greek culture
man's body was thought to be far more beautiful than the woman's body; hence
all the Greek sculpture is centered around the male figure. Even in the schools
of Plato and Aristotle homosexuality was the rule, not the exception. The Greek
idea of paradise is bound to be with the Greek mind.
In the Hindu paradise you will
find beautiful women and they are all stuck at the age sixteen, for centuries
and centuries, because the Hindu idea of beauty is the sixteen- year-old girl -
not even eighteen, what to say about twenty-one! The Hindu idea is that at
sixteen the woman attains perfection; after that there is deterioration. And
because the Hindu, so-called saints were starving themselves of feminine
relationship, from female energy, their minds were too much obsessed with
women. Of course they had to find some consolation somewhere; their paradise is
their consolation.
In their paradise women have
bodies of gold, eyes of diamonds. What kind of women these will be! Utterly
dead! I don't think the Hindu saints will allow blood to run through their
veins - cows' milk will be far better and far purer, and holier too! And these
girls go on dancing continuously, singing songs, around sages - sages who had
renounced family life here on the earth. They are really on a picnic! Their
paradise is what they are missing here.
Analyze the paradise of any
race, any country, any religion, and you will know what they are really missing
here. The Hindu paradise is very rich - Hindus are poor. In the Hindu paradise
there are rivers of milk - water does not flow there. In the real world of the
Hindus you cannot even find pure water in the rivers.
I have not tasted water at
least for fifteen years - I have to depend on soda water! All kinds of
impurities are found in Indian rivers, Indian water, because the whole sewage
system goes on pouring itself into Indian rivers, and buffaloes and cows and
people are taking their baths there. Indian rivers seem to be the dirtiest -
and that is the only water to drink. But they have managed beautifully in
paradise; they have dropped water completely. Rivers are of milk and curd!
And there are wish-fulfilling
trees; you simply sit underneath the tree, no need to work at all. Indians are
tired of working, utterly tired. Just sit under a wish-fulfilling tree and
whatsoever you wish is immediately fulfilled, instantly - just as you have
instant coffee. That too takes a little time, but under the wish-fulfilling
tree the wish arises, "A woman!" and the woman appears.
"Food!" and suddenly there is food. "Coca-Cola!" and
immediately there is Coca-Cola. India has been starving for centuries; the
wish-fulfilling tree simply indicates the starving country, the poor country.
When these scriptures were
being written many things were not there in the world, hence they are not
there; otherwise Rolls Royces would have been in paradise, especially made in
solid gold, for the great sages, mahatmas, saints. They have golden thrones, so
there is nothing wrong about having solid gold Rolls Royces. Here you have to
move in worthless cars; even they are very difficult to find. India produces
the worst kind of cars in the world!
I have heard that when the
manufacturer of Ambassador cars died - I knew him, he was my friend, so I
believe that the story is true - he was suddenly taken to paradise.
He was very much puzzled
because he was not hoping for that much. He was thinking that if he can get
some good quarters in hell, that will do. This was too much! He was a little
puzzled. He asked when the door was opened, he asked the doorkeeper, "Is
there something wrong? - because I have been thinking that I will be thrown into
hell, I have never done anything good. Why are you taking me in?"
The doorkeeper said, "You
made the Ambassador, and because of the Ambassador many more people have
remembered God than through anything else. Whosoever travels in an Ambassador
remembers God continuously: 'My God!' You have made people so religious. Even
atheists when they travel in your car start remembering God - they have to!
Hence this special concession for you: a special place has been reserved for
you in heaven."
If now the scriptures are
written, then there will be solid gold Rolls Royces and everything that is
missing here will be there.
Buddha says: My search is not
for bliss... because the moment you talk
about bliss, people start thinking of pleasures. It is better not to talk about
bliss, it is dangerous.
People will simply
misunderstand.
Then what is his bliss for? He
has chosen a word never chosen before - he says: My search is for freedom. That
word is immensely important: freedom from the ego, freedom from the mind,
freedom from desires, freedom from all limitations. In a way, he is very
scientific in his inward journey. He is saying if you can create a space in
your being where your consciousness is totally free, then all is achieved: God
is achieved, truth is achieved, beauty is achieved, bliss is achieved. But only
in freedom anything becomes possible.
Hence these sutras:
At the end of the way,
The master finds freedom
From desire and sorrow -
Freedom without bounds.
Not God, not truth, not bliss,
but freedom. Freedom is Buddha's word which contains all: God, bliss, truth,
beauty. And freedom avoids all other pitfalls. Freedom needs courage; you
cannot attain to freedom if you are afraid. Freedom needs that you drop all
identification with the mind and the body; otherwise you will remain confined,
you can't be free.
Freedom means that you get out
of this constant desiring mind. It is the desiring mind that creates paradise.
If you drop desire, how can you talk about paradise? If you drop desire, sorrow
disappears automatically, because sorrow is a shadow of desire. The more you
desire, the more frustrated you feel, because no desire is ever fulfilled.
Desire is unfulfillable; its very nature is such. It is not that YOU are
incapable of fulfilling it; desire's very nature is such that it cannot be
fulfilled - it goes on becoming bigger and bigger. In the beginning you ask for
ten thousand rupees; by the time you have ten thousand, your desire has moved
ahead of you - it is asking for one hundred thousand rupees.
It is like the horizon that
surrounds the earth: it looks so close by. Move, and it moves ahead with you.
The distance between you and the horizon remains always exactly the same. In
fact, there is no place where earth meets the sky - there is no horizon. The
horizon is a mirage: it only appears, it is not a reality.
So is fulfillment: fulfillment
is only a mirage. It only appears there, very close, alluring, enchanting,
inviting. You go on moving, and you waste your whole life; and by the time you
are dying you have not even moved a single inch closer to fulfillment. People
die on the same spot where they were born. People die in the same stupid state
in which they were born.
I have heard:
Sir Henry, bored with English
country life, visited a French SALON DE PLAISIR. In response to Sir Henry's
request for something unusual, the madam suggested, "I can give you Hott
Tung, a Chinese delicacy."
"No," replied his
lordship, "I have already had one of those."
"Perhaps," asked the
madam, "you would like to make a selection from our Black African
group."
"I have had one of those
too," yawned Sir Henry. "Actually, the only thrill I have not tried
would be a little bitty girl, about eight years old."
"This is outrageous!"
shrieked the madam. "The very idea is criminal! I am going to summon a
policeman."
"No, don't do that,"
said the Englishman. "I have already had one of those!"
You can have everything and yet
you will not have anything at all. You can have all the wealth of the world and
still you will be poor. You can have all that the world makes available and yet
the discontent will be deeper than ever before - because before there were
hopes, now even hopes will disappear.
At the end of the way, the master finds
freedom. The goal is to find freedom, but one has to start becoming
a master of oneself, master of one's consciousness. That is the beginning, the
first step. You are not master of your own consciousness. You are a slave of a
thousand and one desires, thoughts, imaginations.
You are pulled into this
direction and that. You don't know who you are and where you are going. You
don't know why you are existing at all. You don't know the purpose of your
life, you don't have any sense of direction. How can you be a master of
yourself?
The first thing to becoming a master
of oneself is to become more conscious of your acts and your thoughts.
Unconsciousness is slavery, consciousness is mastery.
I call my sannyasins swamis;
the word 'swami' means the master. It simply means one who is trying to become
centered in his being, rooted in his consciousness, who is trying not to be
pulled by desires against his wishes. But desires are very cunning and the ego
plays such games that unless you are constantly alert you will remain a slave.
Rabinowitz, hiding with his
wife from the Nazis in a secluded Berlin attic, decided to get a breath of
fresh air. While out walking he came face-to-face with Adolf Hitler.
The German leader pulled out a
gun and pointed to a pile of horse manure in the street.
"Alright, Jew," he
shouted, "eat that or I will kill you!" Trembling, Rabinowitz did as
he was ordered.
Hitler began laughing so hard
he dropped the weapon. Rabinowitz snatched it up and said, "Now, you eat
the manure or I will shoot!" The Fuhrer got down on his hands and knees
and began eating.
While he was occupied,
Rabinowitz sneaked away, ran through an alley, climbed over a fence, and dashed
up the stairs to the attic. He slammed the door shut, bolted and locked it
securely. "Bessie! Bessie!" he shouted to his wife. "Guess who I
had lunch with today!"
The ego is very subtle. It can
find opportunities where they don't exist at all; it can make the impossible
possible. And you have to be very alert, because the mind is always
rationalizing. The mind can go on rationalizing everything and it can
rationalize so beautifully that even you will be allured - it is your own mind
deceiving you!
Unless one is really committed
to being free it is impossible to be free. It is very rarely a man becomes
free, very rarely: a Jesus, a Moses, a Mohammed - only few and far between. But
everyone has the capacity, everyone has the seed, the potential. You can become
a Jesus, you can become a Buddha, you can become a Confucius, you can become a
Socrates.
All that is needed, all that is
required, is there. Only one thing is missing: you have not yet decided, you
are indecisive; you have not decided to become a master of your own being. And
then stupid things go on deceiving you, but you can always rationalize.
It is little known that
Sherlock Holmes had a secret vice unrevealed in the stories. When Dr. Watson
came around to 221B Baker Street one afternoon, the housekeeper told him that
Holmes had a visitor, a schoolgirl.
Watson sat down to wait, but
then heard muffled sounds coming from the study.
Fearing that the schoolgirl
might be an assassin in disguise he broke open the door, only to find the great
detective and the girl - a very young girl - engaged in rather a shocking form
of play.
"By God, Holmes!"
huffed the doctor, "just what sort of schoolgirl is this?"
Smirked Holmes,
"Elementary, my dear Watson!"
You can always find ways and
means to protect yourself, to deceive others and to deceive yourself - unless a
very deliberate, conscious decision has been made. I call that decision
sannyas.
Sannyas is nothing but a
decision, a total decision, a commitment, an involvement, that "Now my
whole energy is going to move into one direction - the direction of freedom; I
have decided to be free, free from all desire and free from all sorrow. Freedom
without bounds is my goal."
And it can be attained. Once
the decision is there and you are pouring your energy into it and nourishing
it, nobody can prevent you from attaining it. It is your birthright.
Those who awaken
Never rest in one place.
Like swans, they rise
And leave the lake.
Buddha is saying: If you start
awakening you will be surprised that your whole life you were stuck in the same
place, you were not really moving. Your movement was empty, impotent. You were
not moving, because you were not reaching anywhere. You were moving up and down
on the same bank, thinking that by running up and down you will reach the other
shore. But the other shore is as far away as ever, and you are unnecessarily
wasting your breath.
Those who awaken... Those who become
committed to freedom, those who take a decision that, "Now I am going to
be free from all that is dark in me, from all that creates future in me, from
all that is past in me - I am going to be free from it all. I am going to be a
pure freedom so that I can have wings and I can soar high, to the ultimate
heights of being and existence..." Unless you decide that... and it needs
guts to decide.
Many people come here and they
go on hesitating for months about whether to take the jump or not - and never for
a single moment thinking what they have got to lose, never for a single moment
realizing that time is rushing out of their hands... tomorrow may never come. If anything has to be
done, it has to be done right now.
And strange is man and his
ways! That which is useless he immediately is ready to do, and that which is of
immense value he postpones. He goes on saying "Tomorrow," and the
tomorrow never comes. Instead comes death.
And this has been happening
many times. This is not your first life on the earth; you have lived millions
of times and each time this postponement has been your root cause of misery.
Now don't postpone any more.
Use this opportunity. Use this context that I am creating here. It is a
buddhafield! If you are ready to take a jump into it, you will never be the
same again. But the jump has to be total. You should not cling to the bank, you
should leave the bank absolutely. In that very leaving, in that very
renunciation of the bank, the transformation happens - you start becoming freed.
It is not the chains which are
keeping you in bondage; it is you who are holding on to the chains, it is you
who are clinging to the chains. This is a very absurd situation! The prison is
not holding you in; it is you who are afraid to go out. And you go on believing
that there is no way out: "What is there to find outside? Those who have
gone have never returned. Who knows? - there are wild animals and dangers. Here
I am safe, living comfortably."
Don't think in terms of
comfort, think in terms of freedom. Don't think in terms of safety, think in
terms of being more alive. And the only way to be more alive is to live
dangerously, is to risk, is to go on an adventure. And the greatest adventure
is not going to the moon - the greatest adventure is going to your own
innermost core.
Those who awaken never rest in one place. Don't
be stagnant, don't remain in one inner place. Move! Movement is life. Become a
river. Don't remain a stagnant pool, otherwise you will stink.
That's why millions of people
stink. Their life does not seem to be a benediction, a blessing. Their life
gives no aura of beauty, their life does not radiate. They seem to be
completely dark and dismal, utterly depressed, hiding inside their own caves,
not capable to come out in the sun, in the moon, in the rains, in the wind; not
courageous enough to open up like flowers, not capable of risking and being on
the wing.
Those who awaken never rest in one place. That
is growth. Go on growing. God is not something that you will encounter on the
road; God is your ultimate growth. God is not to be found anywhere, you have to
become God. In fact, you are God; you only have to discover your reality.
A real human being is one who
goes on growing. Each morning the sun finds him never in the place where it had
left him the last evening. Each evening the sun finds him somewhere else, not
at the exact place where it had found him in the morning. He is movement, he is
revolution. He goes on and on, he never looks back. He never moves on the old
trodden paths; he finds his own way.
Like swans, they rise and leave the lake. Have
you seen swans leaving the lake? I am reminded of Ramakrishna. His first
samadhi, his first glimpse of God, glimpse of truth or bliss, happened when he
was only thirteen years old. He was coming back from his farm - he was a
farmer's son - he was coming back to his home.
On the way there was a lake.
The rainy season was just to come, the monsoons were approaching. The sky was
becoming cloudy, dark clouds, thunder, lightning, and Ramakrishna was almost
running because it seemed that it was going to pour heavily.
He was passing by the lake of
the village; because he was running he disturbed the swans in the lake and they
all flew together.
Swans are one of the most
beautiful birds, the whitest - symbols of purity, innocence. A long queue of
swans suddenly rose high against the backdrop of the black clouds.
Ramakrishna was transported
into another world. The vision was so beautiful, and the vision was such a
message, he fell there on the bank of the lake in utter ecstasy. The joy was
such that he could not contain it; he became almost unconscious as far as the
outside is concerned.
The other farmers were
returning to their homes, everybody was in a hurry; the clouds were there and
it was going to rain and they wanted to reach home. They found Ramakrishna
lying on the lake bank absolutely unconscious, but with such joy on his face,
so radiant was his being, that they all fell on their knees. The experience was
so superb, it was something not of this world.
They carried Ramakrishna home;
they worshipped him. When he came back he was asked, "What has
happened?" He said, "A message from the beyond: 'Ramakrishna, be a
swan! Open your wings, the whole sky is yours. Don't be trapped by the lake and
its comfort, security and safety.' I am no longer the same person. I have been
called. God has called me!"
And since that day he was never
the same person: something was triggered by the swans rising high in the sky.
Buddha says: like swans,
they rise and leave the lake - as if Buddha is predicting something
about Ramakrishna. The distance is vast, twenty-five centuries, but the
prediction is true. It is not only about Ramakrishna, it is about all those who
are going to awaken ever; it is about all the buddhas.
The swan has become a symbol in
the East of the awakened one, hence the awakened one is called paramahansa.
Paramahansa means the great swan.
On the air they rise
And fly an invisible course,
Gathering nothing, storing nothing.
Their food is knowledge.
They live upon emptiness.
They have seen how to break free.
This sutra is of immense
import. Drink it slowly, let it sink in your heart. On the air they rise... The world of spirituality is a
subtle world; it is more like air than like earth. You can feel it but you
cannot see it. You can breathe it and live on it but you cannot hold it in your
fist. It is invisible.
On the air they rise and fly an invisible
course. And the course of a buddha, of one who is awakened, is
invisible; hence nobody can follow a buddha. He leaves no footprints. He is
like a swan flying in the sky; he leaves no footprints. He is not like a man
walking on the sand.
Buddha has said again and
again: "I am like a swan, a bird in the sky. I leave no footprints. Hence
you cannot imitate me, hence there is no need to bother to imitate.
Understand - that will
do." Listen, feel, imbibe the spirit of a buddha, that's all. Be nourished
by his presence, be thrilled by his being, but don't try to imitate. Don't try
to become a carbon copy, because God loves only originals; carbon copies are
rejected.
On the air they rise and fly an invisible
course, gathering nothing, storing nothing. The man who has awakened
gathers nothing, stores nothing. He remains utterly empty inside. Gathering nothing,
storing nothing means he goes on dying to the past continuously. It
is the past that you gather, it is the past that you store. You think it is
very valuable - it is all junk! Even the greatest experiences of the past are
junk. They were great when they were present; once they are past they are
useless. Throw them away. Forget all about the past so that you can remain
clean and pure and available for the new. If you become too much cluttered with
the past, who is going to be available to the new? And the new is constantly
impinging upon you! Remain spacious, go on creating space inside you. And the
only way is not to store anything.
The past stored becomes your
ego; the past creates the ego. And the ego fills you so much that it leaves no
space for God to enter in or bliss to flow in or beauty to penetrate you.
The sun comes and knocks on
your doors, but your doors are closed. The moon comes and waits at the door,
but you don't open it - because you are too full of yourself. You are the only
barrier between yourself and God. You have to disappear.
And remember that the ego will
find new ways to enter inside you. If you push it out from the front door it
will come from the back door. It will wear new masks. It may become knowledge,
scholarship, austerities. It can pretend anything. But remember: the past
accumulated in any way is bound to culminate into an ego. And the ego is always
comparing, the ego is always thinking in terms of superiority, inferiority. And
because of these comparisons, these ideas of superiority and inferiority, you
go on suffering, you live in sorrow.
Nobody is superior and nobody
is inferior, because comparison is false, comparison itself is not valid. Two
persons cannot be compared because each is unique, they are not alike. You can
compare two Ford cars, that's okay, but you cannot compare two individual human
beings. What to say of human beings? - you cannot compare two rosebushes, you
cannot compare two rocks, you cannot compare two pebbles on the seashore,
because each pebble is unique. There is no one other pebble like it, not only
on this earth but on any other earth anywhere, on any other planet anywhere.
Scientists say there are at
least fifty thousand earths where life exists, and millions and millions of
planets which are dead. And each planet must be having millions and millions of
pebbles, but you will not find another pebble which is exactly like this
pebble. How can you compare two dissimilar things?
Comparison is the way of the
ego. Avoid comparison, otherwise you will always suffer.
You will suffer in two ways.
Sometimes your ego will feel superior to somebody; that will give you airs,
that will get into your head, that will make you tense. You will not walk on
the earth; you will become drunk, drugged. Or sometimes it will give you the
feeling of inferiority; then too you will be crestfallen, shattered. Again
great anguish and pain...
And this will happen
continuously, because in one thing you may look superior to somebody, and in
another thing you may look inferior to somebody else. Somebody is taller than
you and somebody else is smaller than you. Somebody is more beautiful, although
you are more knowledgeable. But somebody is stronger, has a more muscular body,
is more athletic - and you look a very poor specimen in front of him. Somebody
is so ugly that you feel great compared to him, and somebody is so beautiful
that you start feeling ugly. Now you will be pushed and pulled between these
two; these two rocks will crush you.
Harlemite Huckley was driving
his big blue Cadillac through Mississippi. He pulled up at a gas station and
honked his horn.
"What do you want,
boy?" asked the attendant.
"Give me ten gallons of
gas," said Huckley. "Check my oil and wipe off the windshield.
And look, man, I am in a
hurry."
Immediately the attendant
pulled out a big .38, picked up an empty oil can and said, "You must be
one of them smart ones from up north. I am gonna show you, boy, how we expect
your kind to behave around here."
He threw the oil can into the air
and emptied his gun at it. When the can came down, it had five bullet holes in
it. The attendant tossed it to Huckley saying, "Now, you look that over
and think about it."
Huckley looked at it, then got
out of the Caddy and picked up an apple he had lying on the seat. He threw the
apple in the air, whipped out a knife and as the apple came down, he made a few
passes at it. The apple landed at the attendant's feet, peeled, cored, and
quartered.
The attendant said, "How
many gallons of gas did you want, sir?"
This will happen every day,
this will happen every moment. There are millions of people and each individual
is unique. Drop that nonsense of comparing. But you cannot drop it unless you
drop the past - the past lives on
comparison, the ego feeds on
comparison.
Buddha says: gathering
nothing, storing nothing. Their food is knowledge. 'Knowledge' is
not a right translation of what Buddha means. It would have been more true to
translate it as 'knowing', not 'knowledge'. The difference may not look great
between these two words, but it is great, it is vast. It is tremendously
important to understand the difference between knowledge and knowing.
Knowledge is always of the
past; it is a finished phenomenon, a full point has come.
Knowing is always a present
process. Knowing is alive, knowledge is dead. A buddha is not a man of
knowledge but a man of knowing. A scholar is a man of knowledge, a pundit is a
man of knowledge but not a man of knowing. Knowing is riverlike, flowing.
And it is very important to
remember, as far as Buddha is concerned, that he did not believe in nouns, he
believed in verbs. He says the noun is only a convenience. In fact, in reality
nouns don't exist, only verbs. When you say, "This is a tree," your
statement linguistically is acceptable but not existentially, because by the
time you said, "This is a tree," this is no longer the same tree -
one dead leaf has fallen, one new leaf has started coming up, the bud has
opened. The bird that was singing on the tree is no longer singing. The sun
that was shining on the tree is hidden behind a cloud. It is no longer the same
tree, and it is growing, continuously growing.
A tree, to be true, should be
called treeing, not a tree. A river should be called rivering, not a river.
Everything is growing, moving, everything is in a flux. Verbs are true, nouns
are false. If some day we are going to create an existential language, it will
contain no nouns, it will contain only verbs. You are not the same person that
had come this morning to listen to the discourse. When you leave you will be a
totally different person - so much water has gone down the Ganges, so much has
changed. You may have come very sad and you may leave laughing. You may have
come very serious and you may leave very playful. These changes are
tremendously important.
Hence I will translate it: their food - the food of the awakened
ones - is knowing. 'Knowledge' is not
the right translation. They continuously are in a state of awareness,
consciousness; they are continuously learning, knowing. They never say, "I
have known." They only say, "I am available, open to know, more
available, more open to know." The full point never comes, the process
continues.
Life is a process, not a thing,
not a commodity. It is an unending river, no beginning, no end. Inexhaustible
it is: Aes Dhammo Sanantano. This is
the very law of life, that everything goes on changing. Buddha has said: Except
change, everything changes.
Heraclitus would have agreed
with Buddha, Buddha would have agreed with Heraclitus; they would have embraced
each other. And they were contemporaries, almost contemporaries.
It has always happened in the
world that whenever some insight happens in one part of the world it is always
echoed all over the world in different parts, in different languages, by
different people - as if something triggered in one part invisibly affects
other sensitive souls everywhere else.
When Buddha was alive in India,
Greece was rich with Heraclitus, with Socrates, with Pythagoras. China was rich
with Lao Tzu, Confucius, Chuang Tzu, Lieh Tzu. And all these people have
something very similar, although their languages are different.
Heraclitus says: You cannot
step in the same river twice. Buddha will agree absolutely; in fact he will say
you cannot even step in the same river once, because the river is constantly
flowing. And it is not only the river that is flowing, you are also flowing.
One man came and insulted
Buddha very much; Buddha listened to him silently. The next day he felt sorry,
came to apologize. Buddha said, "Forget all about it, because I am not the
same man whom you had insulted, and you are not the same man who had insulted
me. So who is going to apologize to whom? And what can I do now? - that man is
no more, it is finished forever! You will never see that man again, so don't be
worried. And you are not the same either! How can you be the same?"
Ananda, Buddha's disciple, who
was sitting by the side, said, "Sir, this is too much! This is the same
man - I cannot forgive him ever! He insulted you so much, he said such ugly
words, he abused you badly. It hurts still in my heart. I could not say
anything because you wouldn't allow it. I had to swallow it all, otherwise I
would have shown this man!"
Buddha said, "Ananda,
can't you see this is not the same man at all? The man who had come yesterday
was abusing, was insulting - this man is apologizing. How can they be the same?
Do you think insult and apology are the same? This is somebody else! Just look
into his eyes - tears are flowing from his eyes. Do you remember the other man?
Fire was in his eyes! He wanted
to kill me, and this man is touching my feet! And you still say, Ananda, this
is the same man?"
Nobody is ever the same. To
know it is knowing, to be constantly aware of it is knowing. Their food is
knowing...
They live upon emptiness. And
because they go on discarding the past they always remain empty. Their
emptiness has a purity of its own. They are utterly spacious, like the sky
without clouds. They
live upon emptiness...
They have seen how to break free.
And this is the way: they have seen how to break free. Drop
knowledge, become a knowing awareness, alertness, watchfulness, witnessing -
all verbs, remember. Forget the past and remain available to the present and
don't project the future, and you will remain empty. And to remain empty is the
way of the free man.
Freedom is utter emptiness, but
in that utter emptiness descends something from the beyond which Buddha leaves
undescribed, unexpressed, because it is inexpressible. He does not call it
truth, he does not call it God, he does not call it bliss. He does not call it
any name; he simply keeps quiet about it, utterly silent. He says: Come and
see.
Who can follow them?
Only the master,
Such is his purity.
Unless you also become a master
- master of your own inner being, of your consciousness - unless you also
become empty, you cannot go with the buddhas, you cannot fly with the swans.
Like a bird,
He rises on the limitless air
And flies an invisible course.
He wishes for nothing.
His food is knowledge.
He lives upon emptiness.
He has broken free.
And if you can keep the company
of a buddha you will also be free. You will also rise on the winds. You will
also start the flight of the alone to the alone. You will also start moving to
the ultimate.
Buddha calls this ultimate
freedom, nirvana - cessation of the ego, cessation of your personality. Freedom
means freedom from your personality. Then whatsoever is left is God, is truth,
is bliss.
Enough for today.